Mental Health Support Society MKVII

I'm not sure exactly. I talk to him all the time so I guess he's always the first person there, and I just get so angry sometimes, probably at myself, but I direct it towards him. I don't think it's my fault exactly, I know it's an illness, but I still feel guilty and I know my self-esteem is just rubbish. He'd be better off with someone healthy and I always feel like I'm trying to catch up and be good enough. I just wish I knew how to deal with it all.

I hope you get a better run of luck soon too..

In the mean time I'll just have to draw amusement from the chickens. Building them a new pen tomorrow, gotta pick up 500kg's of wood chips and bark from a local tree surgeon in the morning. Setting up a new area for them to dig and rummage around in

In.

hello?

What would be the best way to be referred to a psychiatrist while at uni? Should I just approach my GP and ask for a referral?

Hi. I edited my post so it wasn't just in.

This might sound silly but I don't think I'm really coping well with being single. The crap thing about it is, the fact that I don't feel so great about myself probably means getting a partner isn't a good idea anyway until I somehow learn to sort myself out. But I think my depression partly stemmed from not having a partner in the first place. And then I probably won't find anyone anyway no matter what I do cos I'm not a great person and have all these problems. Stupid ass cycle

I decided a while back that just jumping into a relationship wasn't going to 'fix' me, and while it made me feel good for a while, bigger problems came up later. If you think your depression came from being single, try and angle for therapy to work on being happy single, then you can look for a partner, when you don't depend on one.

Yeah, that's what I'm thinking of trying to do once I do start therapy. I'm on a waiting list and don't know when I'll start though, but hopefully it's soon enough.

Deffo the nakey pics seeing as i missed out at the meet

You must have smelled delicious.

I feel so pathetic, useless, stupid, ugly, boring, fat, so on so on. I hate myself so much. I don't even know why I would deserve anything or anyone. I'm such a social **** up. Argh, god I just wish I could be a different, better person.

If I zopiclone available I'd totes give you some just to get hold of your sock. I choose to believe that if I ever do crack that you'd just keep sending me socks in hospital and I'd be completely silent until somebody puts it on my head or something.

Stoke-on-Trent is GLORIOUS. It is where my allotment is and where staffordshire oatcakes come from and they are the most wonderful things in the world

My raspberries are starting to flower. If they get to the raspberry stage then I suggest we make alcohol out of them. We can then live naked at my allotment and feast on the fruit and vegetables that I grow and our lives will be so perfect.

We need to be camping soon.

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Just had a bath and exfoliated until my skin was sore as all hell. Earlier I had a boiling hot shower. At the rate I am going I will be the cleanest creature alive. Feeling a little like I'm not in my own head which is okay I guess for now but won't be so good when I realise how many things I've forgotten to do.

Trying to poke diazepam out of my doctor tomorrow and asking to try venlafaxine before they completely give up on me. FUN TIMES.

I only have 5 zopiclone left so I'm afraid I won't be contributing to the fund, as much as I'd love to. I wouldn't mind some nekkid photos in exchange for something else though.




I had several weeks between the 2mg I took and still had a little resistance the second time. But it's good you're being sensible with it I must say I'm actually quite surprised.

Good luck with the interview. It would be pretty ****ing awesome to get you as an anxiety mentor.

Believe me, I've thought about drugging her many a time. But I think once the effect wears off I would very much regret it.

Obviously. Thanks for the offer, I will probably take you up on it. I could really do with more people to reality-check on. I looked at the psychosis books and they're like £30 **** that, no matter how many points it scores me with my girlfriend.

Yes...we should meet up, and drink!

not sure what to really do anymore, my school is extremely supportive saying its my last chance, (i haven't been in sixth form for nearly 2 weeks because i'm a danger to myself) but isn't that my problem.
I have never been in trouble in school in my life, I don't understand. I know i did something stupid but it was an accident



I'm now in some complete mess with the school and my parents and can't see a way out of this.

Firstly... You're wonderful to reply to so many messages and I really hope you're okay?



Thanks Superwolf. :jumphugs:

I can't sleep because I'm so damn angry.

Mentally unstable... This is what I am, apparently. Nice to know that my so called friends are throwing that around twitter and the like about me...

Friends no more! I tell one person and now everyone knows and all of a sudden my depression has turned into me being 'massively mentally unstable' ... god..I've been living with it for months... When did I supposedly flip and become unstable eh? Some people just do not understand at all do they!

I ..I don't even know what to say..I'm just angry

Do you know why the 'can't breathe' thing happens?

I am hopefully going to be a primary school English language assistant in France from this October to April.

I am not sure what to do for Spanish... most probably an intensive language course in the north of Spain ... what did you do for Spanish during your Year Abroad? I remember you saying you studied in Russia...

It doesn't seem 'real' though... I actually cannot imagine myself abroad and I feel like I am just going through the motions. My (few) friends are more nervous about me going than I am!

I know it will be a struggle... I live at home, I have never travelled and I am very close to my family so I am mentally trying to prepare myself but I don't think it will hit me till I am on the plane.

My nan is ill and my mums reaction is to become an alcoholic again. ****ing fed up of her abuse. I have been doing so well and she is going to undo it ****ing all.

Officially discharged back to my CHMT

Ok, totally random idea, but who's up for the next dep soc meet to be at a theme park?

New thread already? You people talk too much You should follow my shining example and sit in the corner being an antisocial grouch

Anon #2 for the third time! Happy new thread!

Hope everybody is OK

we're all weird crazy children (except wolfie and the other oldies in the thread)

Worst day in a long time. Feel scared to live

Oooh new thread! Shiny!

Having a good day for a change, got my appointment through for my assessment and the woman was incredibly nice on the phone when I froze up. I have to talk to my head of year though, I missed a week of college (again) and she's not pleased. Time to 'fess up about the whole mental state, although my doctor is out of town for the next few weeks so I can't give her a doctor's note. Oh well!

Hi guys, was wondering if I could get a perspective from people who are in a similar situation to that of the people I'm living with.

Basically, a couple of my housemates have been diagnosed with clinical depression. It sucks for them because it really seems to have affected their lives, and I care about these guys so I want to do whatever I can to help. The issue is though, the house is becoming somewhat unlivable. Basically they just don't do washing up, and the result is we have a kitchen piled high with plates and stuff going off... bins overflowing... etc.

I tidy up after myself and occasionally tidy up after them to an extent, but with final exams and coursework round the corner I don't really have time to tidy the kitchen regularly to such a massive extent. I do periodically ask (politely) if they can clean up after themselves but the results are limited.

I want to add, please don't think that I'm pointing the finger or moaning in any way. Whilst I know I can never understand what it's like to be suffering depression, I totally appreciate what they're going through is tough which is why things are happening as they are. I just want to find a way to approach the issue that will work for both of us, because the state the kitchen's in is really, really getting me down. I often feel disgusted whenever I step inside it, and have taken to staying at my girlfriend's quite regularly as a consequence.

I apologise if anything I have said here has come across as offensive in any way, that was not my intent at all and will be the result of little knowledge or understanding about the illness. I would appreciate any suggestions you guys might have from the perspective of people suffering similar issues.

Can I ask for some advice about how you let your family and close friends know you were depressed? I've lived away from my family for a year or so and although I was affected before, my depression has worsened since then. I keep in touch via phone calls and emails but I've found it impossible to bring up...any suggestions? I thought about calling them when I'm really upset but I don't want to worry them as they can't travel to see me easily. I'm not the most open with my family anyway

Always been too scared to post on here before but... here it goes.

Hello

I have Asperger's and I was diagnosed with depression 3 years ago but haven't been back to the doctor since being diagnosed. Just about managing on my own. Just.

Hope to get to know you all better eventually

I feel so rough...Me and a friend fell out because other people came between us.... Im trying my hardest to work things out with her... but she just does not seem to be interested... we used to spend soo much time together working on stuff and laughing... hanging out and just being a good team...... did it really mean so little to her that she wouldnt want to try and heal the problem.....

were these others so much better.... was I that bad???

Sorry for bugging you guys again, but what are good things you guys like to do when you're feeling really low in order to feel better? I'm feeling extremely low and while listening to music is helping me, all it's doing is making me feel happy for a short period of time. Think I should just go to sleep? Urgh, I HATE feeling like this. It's at that point where just being around other people is annoying me. With some people, it feels like I have to change myself in order to please them.

I'm scared of my medication working because then I'd have to make more of a conscious effort to do things and people will start expecting things from me again. But then I think about it and realise I don't do these things because I am depressed and enjoyed doing them before all of this. Also worried about feeling better in the middle of my exams and panicking about how little I know therefore making me depressed again.

Can anybody relate to this or do I need to grow the hell up?

So tired. Seem to be bent on trying to sabotage my 3rd year. Have a 40 credit assignment overdue and I can't write a damn thing. NO, it's not the ****ing frustration or stress. I can't write because I can't see anything in this lethal fog. Blank screens, false starts and muddled lines.

Also, ignoring my counselor and missed a GP appointment. Monumental waste of time. The unpredictable fluctuation of my moods is worse. Pendulum of madness is in constant motion. Sigh.

hey, on my second attempt at taking citalopram, first time took it for 3 months, and then just now been on it for a month and a half I think .... and it just doesn't seem to have any affect at all. But having been to the Drs and told them about it, it seems like citalopram is the only thing they are willing to prescribe for it. I am not sure if this is because I am not getting across how bad my depression is or whether its because this is just there protocol? Going back at the beginning of next week though because I want to try and get this sorted, so not sure if anyone else has found the same? Or if other people went in saying they would like to try something else or what? Just want to try and get some help but I know I am so used to trying to hide how I feel that I don't think it comes across as though I really do need help! Could just do with some medication advice really, thanks

Hi everbody,
I just need somewhere where I can get some advice about getting help for depression. At 14 I saw the doctor about anxiety and very low mood. The doctor referred me to PCAMHS where I saw a PCAMHS worker once a week, supposedly for 6 weeks but I stopped after 3 weeks because I found her patronising and it was making everything worse than ever. I just told her I felt fine again and so I didn't think I needed to see her anymore.....all completely untrue, but I didn't know what else to tell her. After about a year, things did eventually get better. Now, aged 19, since moving to university in September I have been having very low mood again, and worse than before. I know when something is normal and when it is normal, and I know that this type of low mood really isn't normal. I don't want to do anything, I don't want to see my friends, if I do see my friends I don't enjoy it, I don't really want to go outside, I have only managed to cook 4 meals for myself since moving to university. All of this is not because I am a lazy person and is very out of character for me. I know how to cook and used to enjoy it, I used to enjoy going out with my friends etc. I had been thinking about going to the doctor for about 3 months, since Christmas, and finally went a few weeks ago. However, I was unsure about going because I didn't feel I was taken seriously when I was 14, even though I knew then that what I was experiencing wasn't normal, so I went to the doctor with tiredness, feeling weak, dizzy etc. knowing that they would ask about mood, which they did. However, although I was able to say that I'd been experiencing very low mood for 7 months now, she just said "see what happens". I could understand that if it had been 1 month, but 7 months is too long and now I'm not sure what to do. I know this is not a normal type of low mood, it is all day, every day, somewhere in the back of my mind even if I am doing something that I am finding enjoyable. I will probably go back to the doctor again in a few months, but I don't think I will be able to really express exactly how bad I feel.

Anyone think doing some long term travelling can be a decent treatment for depression?

I hear some people (depressed or not) have their lives changed for the better by it, but then I'd also worry it'd look a bit like running away from my problems temporarily.

Hi, I've never posted on here before but I've been depressed for a long time now. No one knows about my depression as I have been very good at hiding it around other people.

Today has been one of my lowest points in a long time; I have been at home alone all day and every second has been filled with negative thoughts and anxiety attacks. I've never felt so trapped in all my life, but I just found this site that actually put a slight smile on my face when I had almost given up. Granted, I'm not happy per se but these quotes somehow got me out of that dark place for a couple of moments.

Give it a read.

Hey guys.

I hope it's okay that I'm randomly posting in here. I haven't been on TSR in months but I remembered that there was a depression soc on here and I just feel like I'm at crisis point at the moment and I need someone to talk to. I drifted away from TSR last summer but when I came back to uni in the autumn everything just fell apart and I realised I'd been feeling low for years and that it wasn't normal. Now I know I have depression and I'm taking antidepressants and I've gradually been getting better, but I've just come back to uni after the Easter holidays and although I'm coping with work much better, my social life is just non-existent and it's killing me. I have three great housemates and a boyfriend who lives in Leeds (I'm in York) so I do get some social interaction but it's just not enough and it's making me so jealous of my boyfriend who has far more friends than me, and I'm going to end up pushing him away soon if things don't change.

Just don't know what to do. Help.

What a **** weekend to put it bluntly

Aunt is in a vegetative state after a massive stroke, very unlikely she's going to pull through. As expected cousin is absolutely hysterical about the whole situation. Not entirely sure what to say to him, it's not a like a broken leg where you can say they'll get better soon.

Something good better come along soon, having a real run of dreadful luck at the moment

In the mean time I'll just have to draw amusement from the chickens. Building them a new pen tomorrow, gotta pick up 500kg's of wood chips and bark from a local tree surgeon in the morning. Setting up a new area for them to dig and rummage around in




And yes superwolf if you're reading this that does mean they'll be extra tasty from all that foraging and free ranging... You still can't eat them though.

I don't really like being me very much. I feel I have this weird personality that doesn't let me make/keep close friends very easily, nor get much involved with guys either. I'm also very lazy, procrastinating, never know what I want. Whether this is a result of depression or just instilled in my crap personality, I don't really know. I really can't stand it cos I wish I could be different, somehow, in order to improve these areas in my life but I feel like I can't. And I always feel so jealous of various people who seem to have it much better than me. So frustrating

Sounds good.

We really will have to get around to stealing them.

What would be the best way to be referred to a psychiatrist while at uni? Should I just approach my GP and ask for a referral?

In. Anyone else feel like they're depressed but simply will never put a label on it or let anyone else know? I don't think I have depression but I read something about a depression type thing where it's one off and loads of people get it. Feel terrible when I'm on my own and have done for a pretty long while now.

I really wish my friend Tom and me were still in touch. I understand why we drifted apart, I even don't think it was my fault, but by the gods do I wish I could talk to him right now

This might sound silly but I don't think I'm really coping well with being single. The crap thing about it is, the fact that I don't feel so great about myself probably means getting a partner isn't a good idea anyway until I somehow learn to sort myself out. But I think my depression partly stemmed from not having a partner in the first place. And then I probably won't find anyone anyway no matter what I do cos I'm not a great person and have all these problems. Stupid ass cycle

I am writing the most clichéd email to the Samaritans. Do you ever think they get bored?

Also does anyone know if there are any anti-depressants that work really quickly?? I am very not good

This is where casual sex comes in.