Mental Health Support Society MKVII

Does anyone else get really REALLY annoyed when other people eat? I can't stand it. When my mum drinks tea it sounds like she's chucking it down her throat. When my dad eats, I imagine punching him to make it stop which is horrible and I hate myself for it but I can't deal with it, I end up just putting my headphones in and looking at my laptop or going out the room, eating by myself. I can't deal with it, it makes me feel that they are ignorant by eating and drinking so disgustingly and not having any manners.

Please don't tell me I'm the only one! I've no idea what it is but I just can't deal with it.

Does anyone else get really REALLY annoyed when other people eat? I can't stand it. When my mum drinks tea it sounds like she's chucking it down her throat. When my dad eats, I imagine punching him to make it stop which is horrible and I hate myself for it but I can't deal with it, I end up just putting my headphones in and looking at my laptop or going out the room, eating by myself. I can't deal with it, it makes me feel that they are ignorant by eating and drinking so disgustingly and not having any manners.

Please don't tell me I'm the only one! I've no idea what it is but I just can't deal with it.

i got this, it got to the point where i have to leave the room when my dad eats :/

Hi guys,

So I think I could have some mild depression thing going on, I often feel empty and tearful, I can't concentrate, I ache, etc but to be totally honest I don't think I'm "ill enough" to warrant opening up to my GP about it. I wanna try dealing with it alone for now by getting back into martial arts and talking it out online (I dunno, it feels safer here) - I've read about some stuff called St John's Wort that can help if you're feeling a bit down and stuff, does anyone have experience of this?

Sorry I'm rambling a bit, I might not make much sense, but I'm only just admitting to myself that I probably need to at least try something rather than waiting for it to pass (it's been coming and going for about four years now)

Any help/advice much appreciated,
Sam

Hi guys,

So I think I could have some mild depression thing going on, I often feel empty and tearful, I can't concentrate, I ache, etc but to be totally honest I don't think I'm "ill enough" to warrant opening up to my GP about it. I wanna try dealing with it alone for now by getting back into martial arts and talking it out online (I dunno, it feels safer here) - I've read about some stuff called St John's Wort that can help if you're feeling a bit down and stuff, does anyone have experience of this?

Sorry I'm rambling a bit, I might not make much sense, but I'm only just admitting to myself that I probably need to at least try something rather than waiting for it to pass (it's been coming and going for about four years now)

Any help/advice much appreciated,
Sam

Life is so pointless.

Feel really nihilistic, existentially so. I just don't see the point of doing well... anything. I haven't went out of the house for weeks now.

I want someone to talk to, and at the same time don't. Grrr.

You have to give life a point. Start small, and eventually you will find enjoyment and you won't have to force it. Right now the point for me is making fudge brownies and watching House

Hiya, well done for accepting you have a problem! Thats a big step. Exercise is a great way to keep healthy (mind and body). Keeping yourself busy is important, and so is socialising. Do you have any friends/family members you would feel comfortable talking about this with? Having someone to support you can make the world of difference. I've never tried it myself but apparently St Johns wart can help mild depression so it might be worth trying it.

I know you say you don't want to see the GP, but I still think it might be worth a visit. You say this has going on for 4 years now so its obviously having an impact on you. Only a doctor can really decide how 'ill' you are. They should be able to help you with coping techniques and give you advice on leading a healthy lifestyle etc... They might also refer you to some counselling or talking therapy which could really benefit you (although there'd likely be a long waiting list). I hope you start feeling better soon!

When I was 17 I was depressed in sixth form and tried St John's Wort for a few months, both in tablet form and in tea. It didn't really work though. I decided to try it again recently and it still wasn't working. That's just my experience though, other people might have better luck.

It's good you've decided to start talking in here, as a lot of people can be quite helpful and I hope you manage to overcome your depression

Thanks for the prompt replies guys.

I did speak to my GP a few months back, I went for something unrelated but he could kinda tell something was up. I did trust him a lot so I felt okay telling him some of what was going on and I had a few appointments with him just talking about what was making me feel so down (my friend had just died) and that did help after a while, unfortunately he's retired now and I don't have the same level of trust for anyone else in the surgery.

My girlfriend's also brilliant, but right now I've sort of ruined it a bit, I have pushed her away quite a lot recently and it's really hurt her. She's been through this herself though so I think she understands. I hope so anyway. I don't really have any friends I could talk to in detail about this with as the only ones who would understand are all going through their own struggles and I just hate offloading on people really.

You could always try something like running? It can be a good stress reliever Do you have any family-members/friends who you could go and stay with for a while to get away from home?

Sounds like you have a tough decision. If want to/ are able to talk about it on here to hear some impartial opinions you know you can. Hope that whatever does happens it works out ok for you.

Hi guys,

So I think I could have some mild depression thing going on, I often feel empty and tearful, I can't concentrate, I ache, etc but to be totally honest I don't think I'm "ill enough" to warrant opening up to my GP about it. I wanna try dealing with it alone for now by getting back into martial arts and talking it out online (I dunno, it feels safer here) - I've read about some stuff called St John's Wort that can help if you're feeling a bit down and stuff, does anyone have experience of this?

Sorry I'm rambling a bit, I might not make much sense, but I'm only just admitting to myself that I probably need to at least try something rather than waiting for it to pass (it's been coming and going for about four years now)

Any help/advice much appreciated,
Sam

Did you hear back about your extension request?

Argh, I know you're right There's no way in hell I'd tell you to just man the **** up, but, you know, things are different when it's me. Got **** all concentration, I'm struggling with any TSR posts which are more than a couple of sentences

But I feel like it's all for naught, that and the huge expectations from family, due to the problems.

I really have no motivation to do anything but sit here, whither away and die right now.

Thanks both.
There isn't really anything I can do at the moment, I just have to wait it out or try to completely ignore it.

I know it's really annoying when people seem to be disregarding advice or not helping themselves but it isn't something I can go into either online or in person because the only people I could talk to about it are family (which is hugely involved in it), friends (who I can't tell because this involves a crime by a family member and they don't know about it) or professionals (who are bound by the law to act on any information I give them).

So I'm a little stuck.

Thanks for the prompt replies guys.

I did speak to my GP a few months back, I went for something unrelated but he could kinda tell something was up. I did trust him a lot so I felt okay telling him some of what was going on and I had a few appointments with him just talking about what was making me feel so down (my friend had just died) and that did help after a while, unfortunately he's retired now and I don't have the same level of trust for anyone else in the surgery.

My girlfriend's also brilliant, but right now I've sort of ruined it a bit, I have pushed her away quite a lot recently and it's really hurt her. She's been through this herself though so I think she understands. I hope so anyway. I don't really have any friends I could talk to in detail about this with as the only ones who would understand are all going through their own struggles and I just hate offloading on people really.

GP appointment in less than 3 hours. Nervous would be an understatement - That's a nervous smile btw...

GP appointment in less than 3 hours. Nervous would be an understatement - That's a nervous smile btw...

GP appointment in less than 3 hours. Nervous would be an understatement - That's a nervous smile btw...

Otherwise going for a snooze

Yeah, my tutor wrote to me today. It's quite straightforward: I just hand over medical evidence and the late submissions form and an extension should be granted. What's not clear is whether I would incur any fees for submitting late. My tutor thinks probably not but said to double check with the fees people

Still gonna try and somehow hand it in on time anyway That requires doing a lot of work today. But I might just head back to bed first