[.x.alexa.x.]

**** Happens. Get over it.

[LaughingBro]

Please don't throw yourself in front of the train. It will only annoy commuters.

[Breve]

*Fewer than 6 months.

:]

[danbo600roboguy]

Try the first stanza from Keat's Ode on Melancholy:

NO, no! go not to Lethe, neither twist
Wolf's-bane, tight-rooted, for its poisonous wine;
Nor suffer thy pale forehead to be kist
By nightshade, ruby grape of Proserpine;
Make not your rosary of yew-berries, 5
Nor let the beetle, nor the death-moth be
Your mournful Psyche, nor the downy owl
A partner in your sorrow's mysteries;
For shade to shade will come too drowsily,
And drown the wakeful anguish of the soul.

In other words, you can't feel any relief from all the s*** that's happened to you if you're dead.

[mobo250]

Originally Posted by Anonymous

I fail at life.

I had a job i got fired.

I got an interview and i failed.

And if i don't get into my Uni that i want to go to, i will kill myself.

you sad sad person, so what because of 2 minor things you want to kill yourself... people like you really annoy me you haven't had it bad at all theres people m]uch worse than you but are still looking up and turn things around.
Stop being a p*ssy and face your problems and deal with them your so weak its ridiucolous.
If you do kill yourself do it somewhere discreet so you don't delay peoples lifes ( e.g. the underground)

[pl,okmijn]

Look, your an organism. Just a bunch of cells. There's no afterlife, never been any proof. So when you die it cant get any better. you cant feel anything. Your probably gonna say no to this but wouldn't you rather feel something than nothing at all? If not then do whatever the F you want .die. Just think in two hundred years there will be no physical record that you exsisted. All friends and family you knew would have died, posessions gone. everything. why not just enjoy life? i dont see how you can think this negatively.

[EskimoJo]

Originally Posted by Anonymous

The reason i'm depressed in the first place isn't even my fault. I was so young at the time when people are meant to be happy with their friends and i got rejected by my friends in such a big way that it's just lead to this...

You try having developed no social skills what so ever that you can't even hold a conversation with someone without them walking away.

I had the same, and was bullied by the so called friends, and after I fought my way past my first bought of depression (not only caused by the bullying, but I can't be bothered to tell you the whole horrible story) and finally managed to find direction in my life, I got told that I would not be able to go to any Uni with the grades I got from college. So I made the decision to pay the approx £2000 from my own savings to do more A levels. I got my straight As, but my mum, who had recently turned 50, was diagnosed with cancer while I was there. Sad, no? But I was still alive and managed to get into a wonderful Uni and had a lovely first year where it seemed life was finally going right. I'd lost my job, and my debt levels were rising beyond control, but still, I'll survive. Then my mum died. Then I spent a year ignoring my depression and grief and ended up failing many things. Passed the year overall with re-takes, but feeling disappointed every time I woke up wasn't what I wanted anymore. I had the couselling and was taking the meds, but it wasn't working so I've had to quit Uni for a year and watch all my newly made friends graduate without me.

So here I am, struggling to get a job. Not able to rent out my room in a flat with 10 other girls, a light that doesn't work and a shower with cold water only, so I'm (well my dad) is having to pay £300 a month for my room, and I have no student loan, savings or income. It feels like I'm going mad, that I don't know what I'm doing, that I made the wrong choice. I know what it feels like to think your life is worthless and I know what it's like to have suicidal thought but not be able to point to anything substantial enough to justify your death (which makes the depression even worse at times), yet through all that, I remember that I will never succeed in anything and life can never get better if I decide to give up.

Even when life is filled with gloom, there is still hope that something good will happen. Hold on to hope, go back to your doctor if the counselling and any meds aren't working and fight for your life dammit! It's yours! It's the only one you get (I think!). How stupid would it be to destroy your own gift? Fight, fight, fight and never give up.

Good luck. Sorry for the essay.

[pl,okmijn]

Originally Posted by zdo0o

do a flip

Omg! Do a ****ing flip right now!!!!!

[Flim Flam20]

gudbye blud easy blud going into the afterlife safe

[Anamaria90]

Isn't the a depression society on TSR? Maybe you could post on there and get some support and advice from people who know what you're going through and can give some constructive advise.

You can live a life free from depression. I imagine that it takes a lot of time, effort and support, but it is not impossible. You need to make a commitment to getting better.

[punktopia]

Originally Posted by MancBoy

Don't worry mate, ive been there but it seems bad now but a lot can change in a matter of a few months. Fight for life mate, don't take the easy way out.

Would you stop saying "mate" already?

[</Tom>]

Just kill yourself.

[Of_the_hook]

You going to kill yourself if you don't get into the uni you want? be greatful you are in place where you can EVEN study and don't have to stuggle to survive. My mum knows this man who witnessed the death of his two sons and still believes there is light at the end of the tunnel....so don't give up because you failed to acheive three things
We don't always get what we want, but learn to be happy with what we have.

[adamrules247]

Get over it.

[ashy]

Originally Posted by Breve

*Fewer than 6 months.

:]

I approve this message.

[cybergrad]

At least try to receive an award before you depart. A Darwin will look good on your CV.

[Elitist1991]

Originally Posted by EskimoJo

I had the same, and was bullied by the so called friends, and after I fought my way past my first bought of depression (not only caused by the bullying, but I can't be bothered to tell you the whole horrible story) and finally managed to find direction in my life, I got told that I would not be able to go to any Uni with the grades I got from college. So I made the decision to pay the approx £2000 from my own savings to do more A levels. I got my straight As, but my mum, who had recently turned 50, was diagnosed with cancer while I was there. Sad, no? But I was still alive and managed to get into a wonderful Uni and had a lovely first year where it seemed life was finally going right. I'd lost my job, and my debt levels were rising beyond control, but still, I'll survive. Then my mum died. Then I spent a year ignoring my depression and grief and ended up failing many things. Passed the year overall with re-takes, but feeling disappointed every time I woke up wasn't what I wanted anymore. I had the couselling and was taking the meds, but it wasn't working so I've had to quit Uni for a year and watch all my newly made friends graduate without me.

So here I am, struggling to get a job. Not able to rent out my room in a flat with 10 other girls, a light that doesn't work and a shower with cold water only, so I'm (well my dad) is having to pay £300 a month for my room, and I have no student loan, savings or income. It feels like I'm going mad, that I don't know what I'm doing, that I made the wrong choice. I know what it feels like to think your life is worthless and I know what it's like to have suicidal thought but not be able to point to anything substantial enough to justify your death (which makes the depression even worse at times), yet through all that, I remember that I will never succeed in anything and life can never get better if I decide to give up.

Even when life is filled with gloom, there is still hope that something good will happen. Hold on to hope, go back to your doctor if the counselling and any meds aren't working and fight for your life dammit! It's yours! It's the only one you get (I think!). How stupid would it be to destroy your own gift? Fight, fight, fight and never give up.

Good luck. Sorry for the essay.

This attitude is what the OP needs to adopt, especially this: "..yet through all that, I remember that I will never succeed in anything and life can never get better if I decide to give up."

EskimoJo, you are going to achieve great things in your life because of the mental strength you have gained from positively dealing with issues early on in it.

Let me quote the poem 'If' by Rudyard Kipling:

If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you;
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too;
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or, being lied about, don't deal in lies,
Or, being hated, don't give way to hating,
And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise;

If you can dream - and not make dreams your master;
If you can think - and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with triumph and disaster
And treat those two imposters just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to broken,
And stoop and build 'em up with wornout tools;

If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breath a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: "Hold on";

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with kings - nor lose the common touch;
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you;
If all men count with you, but none too much;
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds' worth of distance run -
Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,
And - which is more - you'll be a Man my son!

[Origami Bullets]

TO [MOST] PREVIOUS POSTERS: OP HAS DEPRESSION, THEREFORE OP CANNOT HELP FEELING AS THEY DO. YOUR 'GROW UP' ETC. COMMENTS ARE NOT HELPING.

Now I've got that out the way, I would have to question whether or not OP is on the right medication - or, indeed, if they are on any at all. I have seen the effect that wrong / no medication can have on a person with depression, and how much the right ones can help. Perhaps you could go and speak to your doctor / other health professional and ask about this?

Hugs to the OP

[jaydoh]

No one should feel this way. Get onto medication, take them regularly, and speak to your doctor ASAP TRUST ME you'll feel better.

[Sahfire]

please don't just think of the people who would be devastated by it and there are people that would be before you think that there wont. please cheer up