Warning this is mega rant essay, you prob get the idea of my problem in the first few lines, so if you want to help please respond, if you want to have a go at me or say something negative please go away, im looking for help not criticism.
Basically ive had this problem since i was about 11! (im 20 now) I started getting hair (and i mean blakc pubic like hair) grow just below my belly button.
The only time i mentioned it to anyone was my mum when i was about 14 (when things like bikins etc were interesting me) to my mum who wasnt very helpful, i showerd her (but id shaven it) and she was like erm well if you dont shave it it wont be as obvious. WHAT? I was humiliated by just asking her and that was the help i got!
Of course i wasnt going to leave it at that shaving causes serious stubble and it pretty obvious... i started using tweezers, which as ok until hairs started in growing!!!!!!!!!!!! Since then ive got scars etc from it :-( and im continuously trying to hide the fact i have it from my bf... ive tried bleaching it which is prob the best approach but its pretty time consuming and i normally end up tweezering (when i get carried away and forget it causes in growing hair and more scarring) so ive ended up trying to hide myself from bfs... sometimes if im lucky i look ok and its not obvious... other times it okish so i cover it (stubble, ingrowing hairs, cuts and sore bit plus scarring) with makeup, ive even tried fake tan to see if hides the hairs, scars etc.. ALso sometimes just dont let him see. I know i should just freaking tell him and he prob wouldnt care but its been a stigma for so long and the fact ive hidden it from him for nearly 2 yrs...it would seem rather strange just telling him out the blue.
But ive had it. My bf must think theres something up! Maybe he thinks i think im fat (which i dont) but if he ever heads in the direction of my tum, im like, oh dont loook at my fat belly... ergh...its not...
So im considering laser... but i dont really have that sorta money! Can i get it on the Nhs? I mean this isnt just a matter of being a wee bit hairy, im causing/caused some scarrs on my tummy (they should fade but if i keep doing it they prob will get worse). Its causing emotional problems to do with my bf. Im always putting on thsi oh im just so shy act (which suddenly disappears when i think my tummys looking ok) and i cant express myself in the way i want or reveal what i want. I certainly try and avoid bikini's most the time :-( but i want to wear them. I just feel trapped :-( i know it sounds stupid but like i said its since i was 11 and followed on from alot of emotional problems when i started my periods at 10 ( i hadnt a clue what was going on, i didnt know what periods were.... i also remember swimming lessons were hell all the other girls were hairless and not shy i.e didnt conceal themselves as much in the changing room.... but i had to i was freakin hairy down below! i had to, unless i wanted to be ridiculed) so that shyness embarrassment seemed to stay... now just about my hairy tum. Problem is the other things are natural and expected this isnt...ahh helppp