Parents, especially dad are driving me crazy. May do something drastic(Long Post)

When I told him I didn't expect him to support me, he told me not to back-answer him..wtf?

Sometimes, I feel like I'm a jew and my dad is hitler. I don't think he's ever been proud of me.

Ok well...First of all, most people here would probably not understand the exact situation I'm in because I live in India..and well this is how things work here..I do have a part-time job but it's nowhere near enough for me to move out, part-time jobs in India pay very less and there's no better job I can get at the moment because I'm in university. And since uni is in the same city where I live, I live at home with my parents and sister. (which is common in India).
So yeah...I am at university and am doing a Bachelors in Commerce course..in my final year. I do hope to come to the UK for my Masters next year. I was also, till a month ago, pursuing my Chartered Accountancy(CA) qualification. I never really enjoyed the CA course and since I had a backup at uni, I told my parents that I wanted to leave it. They were very unsupportive at the time and tried to get me to carry on with it. In their eyes, just a B.Com degree isn't enough to get a good job. Well, it isn't, but it's not all I'm going to do. It's just the stepping stone for a Masters and then a good job. I've explained that to my dad loads of times but he just doesn't seem to understand. My parents say that I don't care for them cos I don't 'value their opinion'.
Ever since I've left the course a month ago, there has been absolutely no support from my parents. I mean, I know some of you will say I should have firm belief that I'm doing the right thing and I do, but it does get hard at times. I don't expect my parents to be overjoyed at my decision and to praise me lavishly, but I also don't expect them to tell me on an almost daily basis that I'm not going to do anything worthwhile in life. My dad told me the other day that he can't support me throughout my life. When I told him I didn't expect him to support me, he told me not to back-answer him..wtf?
They've taken away the car(he said when you were doing your CA, you deserved the car, now you don't). I don't earn any more , so I have to literally beg them for money when I want to go out. I told them I want to learn the drums, my dad says " Oh so now you expect me to buy you a ******* drum set, is it? What are you going to be, a ******* drummer?" I have enrolled to volunteer at an NGO(which doesn't pay me anything but it's just to keep myself busy and to help society) ..my dad is unsupportive of that as well. He just told me half an hour ago that he didn't expect me to do anything in life. He asked me why I'd been sitting at home the whole weekend, I said it's cos I wanted to! I mean, am I 15 years old to be asked why I did things? He asked me why I didn't go to the gym..I said I went four times last week when you were away..he says..don't show me that ****** attitude and talk to me properly.
My mum is really scared of my dad. She is worried as well that I'm not doing anything 'worthwhile' in life...though she doesn't say it in as many words. However, her worry for me plus the fear of my dad leads her to say some pretty nasty things to me as well. They both want me to do 'what they want' and not what I want.
It's driving me crazy. Today what my dad said really affeceted me. I'm trying to think of other things and have a bit of self-belief. I don't believe what they say is true, but it's just the way they say it and the things they say that really affect me. I just had 3 sleeping pills which will not kill me I know(I'm too scared to kill myself), I don't know if I'll do anything more drastic tomorrow.

I know what you mean- it's nothing to get suicidal about and its really common with Indian and Pakistani parents. They want to assert their authority and get proper pissed when they get proven wrong and try to say stuff like "Don't answer back", "You don't listen to us, that's why you'll fail etc." but you shouldn't get too worried. For the moment if you have the neccesaary finances for your education, do what you wish and when you get a job in a couple of years, you'd be able to move out.

You're threatening to commit suicide because you're unhappy with your parents? Sheesh, sounds like a tourism advert for Bridgend

do you know how hard it is to live in a house where you're seen as nothing but a failure? where your parents say you're going to be on the streets? where anything you want to do, you need your parents 'permission' and they ridicule everything you want to do?

You're threatening to commit suicide because you're unhappy with your parents? Sheesh, sounds like a tourism advert for Bridgend

It's a very difficult situation. All you can really do is try and save up to move out or find a way to focus on what you wanna do and block out anything they say. Zone out if they say horrible things to you. Do you have anything like counselling services out there or anything where you could get away from it all and talk to someone about it?

Please don't take sleeping pills like that. You may become addicted to them depending on what's in them and it's not gonna achieve anything by overdosing.

i think i am becoming addicted to them. Dad wants me to do exactly what he wants in life and if I don't , I'm 'disrespecting him and going to do nothing wortwhile in life'.