I'm in my first year at Glasgow and finding it really difficult.
I suffer from depression, was put on prozac at the beginning of last year and before I moved to university my dosage was upped. I had very little to no counselling and that I did have was mediocre, so I came to university still very much ladled with my "problems" but convinced that a new start miles from home (I'm from the south east of England, about as far away as you can get without leaving the country) was the best thing for me and everything that was getting me down would disappear.
Obviously, this hasn't been the case. I'm extremely shy and, because I've had bad experience with friends in the past, struggle to talk to new people, make friends, etc. I feel increasingly distant from the people I have spoken to since I've moved up here and spend a lot of time in my room sleeping or sitting on the internet, crying or talking to my family on the phone.
In terms of study, I'm not really finding it that difficult. If anything, any academic struggles I'm having are because my sleep patterns are ridiculously ****ed and I literally can't get out of bed in the morning, so often miss my alarm and end up missing my earlier lectures/tutorials. But, that aside, university is going OK and I'm making reasonable progress.
I've just had another mini-breakdown type episode where I can't stop crying, my breathing goes to crap, etc, and called my dad and talked to him for a bit. Although I've been toying with the idea for a while (never seriously), tonight I've began to seriously think about dropping out of university, getting help (ie. counselling, review of my medication) and reapplying for entry next year. Has anybody else had any experience of this? I'd really like to know if you have, I'm feeling like a complete failure right now.