Yeah most times I just feel pretty hopeless about the actual phobia ever going away, but just learning to live with it instead.
I don't feel *healthy* as such, because I get tired easily and whatnot, due to my weight, I think I am slightly underweight, although not as badly as I have been in the past. I often feel like I am eating well, because I eat until I feel like I'm full, but when I compare to what other people eat, it actually isn't as much as I should be. I think I have sort of learnt to tell myself I'm full before I actually am, in order to prevent the anxiety I get when I am very full.
I think the kinds of food I eat are generally OK, it's not like I just live on chocolate or anything, I do eat a fair variety of fruit, veg, carbs, protein etc, just not really enough of any of them.
I often feel like I have to decide between (for example), having a bigger portion at dinner, and then being really anxious/panicky in the evening and not sleeping, or eating slightly less and then at least sleeping well. But it's sort of lose-lose, because if I don't sleep well, then I feel tired, but if I don't eat enough, i also feel tired.
(sorry for the ramble)