[Nuffles]

(Original post by Retrodiction)
Nah, I can be properly drunk and still able to ask myself if what I'm doing/about to do will be regretted the next day. Some people have this capacity. I kinda pity those that don't.

You're not properly drunk then Regrets and mistakes are part of growing up and learning who you are.

[Retrodiction]

(Original post by Nuffles)
You're not properly drunk then Regrets and mistakes are part of growing up and learning who you are.

I can be drunk enough to be falling over, throwing up and passing out and still have reasoning and judgment faculties. Just try to tell me that somebody in this state isn't drunk.

Besides, the principle tenet of biology is variation, so it's hardly surprising that people have different physiological reactions to alcohol. It would be a very odd thing if everyone had the exact same reaction.

[Nuffles]

(Original post by DontJudge)
Hmm yea.
You do seem quite depressed, and like you have alot of spare time on your hands.
What do you think is the main reason it is caused?

I've been sitting here for 30 minutes and have tried several times to write a reply to you that sufficiently explains what I feel and why I feel it. It's not something you can explain to somebody in a single post. I'm tired - tired of life and tired of living. I'm 19 and I feel old. The main thing is that things are getting better, I can feel things improving and my friends have seen massive changes in me too. I'm becoming the person I have the potential to be rather than the person that I am - the person that I hate with every particle of my being. I still have a long way to go but that small change I can feel is enough to drive me, having spent years in a horrible, dark place. There's so much to say but no way to say it. Hopefully this reply will be enough to satisfy your curiosity

[DontJudge]

hey hey

[Nuffles]

(Original post by DontJudge)
well im a psychologist kinda girl so lemme explain something.

You need to admit you are using alcohol and it is not good for you, it doesn't bring out the real you. You're saying it brings the real you, but thats you in denial due to family issues.

I've had many friends issues as well which caused me to be ill for 3 years. however what you need to say to yourself, get back on your feet, sort your life out, be independant, dont trust everyone. Dont tell everyone everything all the time.

its good you talk about your problems.

but if you talk about it with everyone, then that will just remind you everytime how ****ty your live really is. you are taking the emotion-focused coping method, rather problem-focused coping.

See? This is why I didn't want to post what came up and why I posted something else instead. I spent half an hour writing different things and in the end I didn't write anything about my problems because there's no way I could explain everything in one post. I don't like people analysing me. People have tried to help me by analysing me before but it never helps because I know the problem is with me and not with my life. I'm getting there. Slowly. I'm fixing myself and my problems. What I do and what happens to me when inebriated in some form is having a positive impact on my life, along with other things (such as breaking up with my long term girlfriend - I didn't see it at the time but since breaking up with her I've made massive progress). I was too scared to go to university last year because I thought everyone would hate me and that I would fail. I'm excited this year. It's going to be a good thing for me.

If you could edit your post and possibly reply to what I actually posted that would be great, or just delete your post. I don't know. This has turned into a ****storm. Just get rid of what I wrote originally please

[DontJudge]

(Original post by Nuffles)
See? This is why I didn't want to post what came up and why I posted something else instead. I spent half an hour writing different things and in the end I didn't write anything about my problems because there's no way I could explain everything in one post. I don't like people analysing me. People have tried to help me by analysing me before but it never helps because I know the problem is with me and not with my life. I'm getting there. Slowly. I'm fixing myself and my problems. What I do and what happens to me when inebriated in some form is having a positive impact on my life, along with other things (such as breaking up with my long term girlfriend - I didn't see it at the time but since breaking up with her I've made massive progress). I was too scared to go to university last year because I thought everyone would hate me and that I would fail. I'm excited this year. It's going to be a good thing for me.

sometimes you need somebody elses perspective. the problem aint you trust me. thats what i thought as well. but it seems like your making good progress. but also remember never not do something just because of people! i always think im gonna fail my exams, but you seem like a articulate person and a very creative person as well. you have talent dont waste it!

[Nuffles]

(Original post by DontJudge)
sometimes you need somebody elses perspective. the problem aint you trust me. thats what i thought as well. but it seems like your making good progress. but also remember never not do something just because of people! i always think im gonna fail my exams, but you seem like a articulate person and a very creative person as well. you have talent dont waste it!

I do get other people's perspective. I talk about my problems to the people in my life, but those people have seen me grow up and go through bad times and now better times and they fully understand what's going on.

Thank you for trying to help I just feel really awkward now and wish I hadn't said anything

[DontJudge]

(Original post by Nuffles)
I do get other people's perspective. I talk about my problems to the people in my life, but those people have seen me grow up and go through bad times and now better times and they fully understand what's going on.

Thank you for trying to help I just feel really awkward now and wish I hadn't said anything

Don't worry about it, good experience for me, im gonna be a psychologist

Maybe a really bad one in your opinion. you'll probably want a refund.

[Nuffles]

(Original post by DontJudge)
Don't worry about it, good experience for me, im gonna be a psychologist

Maybe a really bad one in your opinion. you'll probably want a refund.

Again, could you please change the post you've quoted or something? It's not what I wanted to publish on the forum and I'd like it if it were gone

I think you'll find your ability to analyse other people will improve with age and life experience. As has been said, you grow up a lot in your late teens/early 20s and you still have a lot to learn. You didn't actually tell me anything I didn't already know I got horribly drunk one night and started sobbing into my friends shoulder that I felt immense guilt that my Dad was dying and I couldn't stop it. I didn't know that about myself but I guess my brain found a way to tell me.

Again, thank you for trying and I hope you go far in your chosen field

[ShredMaster]

I dont drink alcohol. Smoke a joint occasionally but never alcohol. I live in Holland so its okay lol.

[Nuffles]

(Original post by DontJudge)
which part should i delete??

Post number 115? Thanks