[Anonymous]

I'm feeling really down. I don't feel like I belong anywhere. I don't have any friends, I feel like whoever I am with is judging me, and is being polite. I think when I leave conversations, the people I am with talk about me and say things like 'Why do they always have to hang around with us?' 'They are so strange'. I have been contemplating running away on my gap year. Saying I am going travelling, but just end up living on my own where no one knows me. I just feel upset, and I am angry at certain things. I am too quiet to voice my own opinion though. I am seen as the one who people go to when they want something done, and they know I won't say no, because I am weak and don't like to cause a fuss. I agree to everything people say, even if i disagree. I started self harming recently, my mind keeps on making me feel like ****. I run over scenes in my head and realise what I said made me look like such an idiot, so I then just hurt myself to distract myself.

[Rybee]

go
to
the
doctors
not
tsr
!!!

[Derfel]

If you want someone to talk to, drop me a PM, the least you'll get out of it is a giggle or two. (From you of course, I don't giggle, I chuckle).

[ibs137]

Can you specify what the **** stands for exactly? This is an important detail we cannot overlook as we decide the best course of action for you.

[sophia_]

I agree with the first poster, you do need to share these feelings with your GP who can give you/point you in the direction of proper help and advice.

But I will say this to you;

You're not the first person to feel like that
You're not the first person to self harm
You're not the first person who's turned to the internet before a doctor

Please just realise that these sort of things can worsen very quickly without correct guidance. Nothing is so broken that it cannot be fixed, all problems have a solution and every emotion has a cause. Your sad/angry emotions have a cause and there will be a cause for emotions of the opposite nature at some point in time, hopefully soon.

Feel free to PM me if you want to rant/talk/anything.

Wish you all the best.

[TAHIR-PATEL-17]

Get a grip and get yourself out of your mental dump. If you keep thinking about it and keep obsessing over it then how can you get over it?

Do what you enjoy and take practical and sensible steps which are gradual to make your life better, and you dont need me to tell you how!