[Flo[ProActiv]]

Hannah, will keep fingers crossed for you!


Eugh. Today has been a fail day. Well, it has and it hasn't - I've been getting stuff done, but it just doesn't feel like enough. But then it's as much as I can do without the books I need from the library...

[miraclemile]

Eurgh Flo, that's exactly how I feel. I've actually been really productive -done some revision, been to the gym, applied for a job - but I still feel woefully unprepared for Thursday's exam. Ah well. In my major stress on Sunday night I worked out how little I can actually feasible do in the exam to pass, and it's really not that much, so I'll be fine, I just feel like I should know it better!

And that saucepan... Yikes

to all

[hannahdaisy]

Done a bit of a 180 actually!

Wasn't feeling too sure about the job anyway, and then my friend from another school rang me for half hour and told me all these horrible things that have put me off even more. Think I'll probably withdraw tomorrow because I can't see myself being happy there. I don't want to take a job just for the sake of it.

[*Interrobang*]

That sounds like a very odd interview! They need 3 teachers?! Did you ask why?

[hannahdaisy]

They need 4 NQTs, plus an experienced teacher, plus a deputy head! Doesn't look good does it.

We didn't have to ask why, the headteacher told us all. Maybe a bit too personal? One lady was meant to get married at xmas but her fiance had a mental breakdown so she needs to look after him, one lady's mother committed suicide in front of her when she was younger and now her step mum tried to do the same thing...

Don't know if they're things you should share?!

[jeh_jeh]

(Original post by hannahdaisy)
They need 4 NQTs, plus an experienced teacher, plus a deputy head! Doesn't look good does it.

We didn't have to ask why, the headteacher told us all. Maybe a bit too personal? One lady was meant to get married at xmas but her fiance had a mental breakdown so she needs to look after him, one lady's mother committed suicide in front of her when she was younger and now her step mum tried to do the same thing...

Don't know if they're things you should share?!

Pretty sure employers have some confidentiality thing when it comes to employees' health and family circumstances. I mean, obviously we don't personally know you and the exact school you're working at, but if it's a school in your area it wouldn't be a total stretch of the imagination for you to know some of the teachers.

[Jellybean91]

Hannah - That sounds really odd!! If you don't see yourself being happy there then fair enough! I should think thats not something that the school should be sharing with anyone who walks in there!

I'm gonna do my 5 happy things today because life/essays are getting me down:
1) I bought sunny d in the shop (another achievement being that i actually found an open shop, those who have lived abroad, esp Jess, will know what i mean when I say that bank holidays are generally worse than sundays!)
2) I had oreos for breakfast (sooo healthy )
3) I've reached the target for my essay I wanted to get to for today
4) Gonna make myself a really nice pasta for dinner
5) Put all my pics up from the weekend and it makes me smile

[*Interrobang*]

All it would have taken was to say 'personal reasons', but that is overstepping it... You have to wonder with that many new staff if they'll be able to support the nqts

[hannahdaisy]

No I know, was pretty strange! Think I'll ring tomorrow and withdraw, not quite sure what to say though! Maybe that I just can't see myself working at the school or something.

[22KT22]

Evening all

How are we all?

I'm okish, went to see my tutor today about how much i've been struggling and she said well done for coming to see her and that we'd meet up regularly and work our way through the essays i have left which is reassuring. Although she told me to go see the doctor as it may not be a psychological barrier but a phisiological one which I'm not sure it is in anyway unless she was thinking i may have signs of depression or anxiety or stress I don't know. Seeing my other lecturer who is marking the assignment i'm handing in late didn't help as she wanted me to go for extenuating circumstances (i have no reason to unfortunatelty). Feeling really meh and kinda want to cry but can't work out why.

Hannah: That would set off alarm bells with me too! I'm not sure i'd want to work in a school which shares information like that so freely.

Flo: That is just grim!!

for all.

[miraclemile]

That sounds really bizarre Hannah! I don't blame you, I think I'd feel a bit weird taking a job somewhere the head spoke like that :s

I'm a bit down atm, because although I've done loads today, I just feel like I haven't seen anyone in forever - mostly my own fault for only coming back on Sunday but still. I've text a friend about going to the pub for an hour later, but no response Usually I'd be fine, and just suggest everyone goes out after what, for most of us, is our first exam, on Thursday afternoon, but I'm going straight from the exam to the station to see the boy until Monday night. Which I'm not complaining about at all, but I do feel a bit of a social leper. So I'm joining in with the 5 things!

1. I have actually done quite a lot today, so quite proud of that!
2. I made myself some amazing Saag Aloo for dinner, plus enough to keep for 1 or 2 other meals. I love that stuff
3. In 48 hours, my first exam will be done, and I'll be halfway to the boy.
4. I thought I might lose out on a job because of a date mix-up, but I don't think I will, and the boy and I will be able to make a little overnight trip out of it! Hopefully.
5. The sky is blue! Only just, but it is. (Okay, yes, I'm running out of things now, but that's still something to be happy about)

[hannahdaisy]

Glad to know it's not just me! I know that I need a job, and I may regret turning this one down if I'm left without one, but I feel like I need to try!

I don't know that I have 5 good things to write about today! I suppose the fact that the interview went fairly well is one, but then there were negatives and now I have three lessons to plan for tomorrow. I'm so tired!

[Stray_talk]

(Original post by hannahdaisy)
Glad to know it's not just me! I know that I need a job, and I may regret turning this one down if I'm left without one, but I feel like I need to try!

I don't know that I have 5 good things to write about today! I suppose the fact that the interview went fairly well is one, but then there were negatives and now I have three lessons to plan for tomorrow. I'm so tired!

A lucky escape perhaps?
I have a friend who applied to a school that was advertising 7 jobs She's still there but the deputy-head is a monster. Always got to ask why, when so many jobs come up at the same place! You're right, don't take a job for the sake of it. The right one will come along and shake your hand

[Flo[ProActiv]]

*crawls into thread*
Eugh, absolutely knackered. But I know that if I go to bed now, I still won't sleep for hours cause there's just too much going on in my head. I've taken a couple of Rescue Remedy pastilles in the hope that that'll shut my brain up a bit.

Five things (real struggle today):
1) I went to choir, and saw my friend, so I got hugs
2) I bought tasty-smelling new shower gel
3) I got stickers for my countdown - going to stick one on every day I get through (they're glittery crowns)
4)I went for a run
5) I have biscuits (clutching at straws here a bit )

[happydinosaur]

Going to give the 5 positive things a go today...

1) Got more confirmation of my new job and was sent lots of documents about it today, already doubting my ability to do the job but at least they picked me over other people!
2) Went out for drinks with people after work and it was nice to chill out with some beers.
3) Even though PayPal wouldn't let me buy a ticket for the next cheese club night in Leeds and I missed out on tickets the organisers said I can have one anyway and just pay on the night.
4) Fish fingers are cooking in the oven for fish finger sandwich time
5) I made it through a day at work without any caffienated beverages which is a good step towards reclaiming my old coffee free lifestyle.

[Sephrenia]

Had a breakdown at work due to a wonderful Cornwall manager. I was doing so well until that point, and it just really got to me. I don't know why, I just burst into tears And then because I broke down I broke down more because I was so disappointed in myself >.<

Think I need the positives for today:
1) I applied for a job at Cath Kidston today as there is a new store opening in Exeter
2) I have Ben and Jerries in the freezer
3) I have vodka
4) Amy was really nice to me, and Jayne was really supportive as well
5) I bought new clothes yesterday and got a maxi skirt in Matalan - with pockets

[jeh_jeh]

(Original post by Sephrenia)
Had a breakdown at work due to a wonderful Cornwall manager. I was doing so well until that point, and it just really got to me. I don't know why, I just burst into tears And then because I broke down I broke down more because I was so disappointed in myself >.<

Think I need the positives for today:
1) I applied for a job at Cath Kidston today as there is a new store opening in Exeter
2) I have Ben and Jerries in the freezer
3) I have vodka
4) Amy was really nice to me, and Jayne was really supportive as well
5) I bought new clothes yesterday and got a maxi skirt in Matalan - with pockets

Mmm, vodka. Also, have you seen Ben and Jerry's new core range? Their Dough-ble Whammy sounds so good!

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Ugh, I'm NEVER going to get this dissertation done. I'm supposed to be editing, and I just keep deleting and writing entire paragraphs. I've still got another chapter and the bibliography to edit and format, too.

[DrGalago]

Hey all

I am in desperate need for some serious motivation... I have exams in 3 weeks and I feel like I know none of it... This is something I wasn't expecting to happen... I thought with having australia to look forward to would be a massive motivator to work hard so I can relax and enjoy it without worrying about having to resit while I'm there, but instead I'm just feeling like I can't be bothered with the next few weeks

But, only 5 weeks to go! Just had a lovely unexpected mini-skype with a very sleepy boy... some builders outside his block woke him up, and he didn't realise how early it was, just rolled over and switched the laptop on I sent him back to sleep for a little while...

Sending some motivation vibes to all those with dissertations to do... I'm SO glad I don't have to do one!! And sounds like you made the right call on the job Hannah; as the others have said, there's got to be a reason they need so many posts filling!

[Sephrenia]

(Original post by jeh_jeh)
Mmm, vodka. Also, have you seen Ben and Jerry's new core range? Their Dough-ble Whammy sounds so good!

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Ugh, I'm NEVER going to get this dissertation done. I'm supposed to be editing, and I just keep deleting and writing entire paragraphs. I've still got another chapter and the bibliography to edit and format, too.

That may be slightly what I have in my freezer I'm slightly piddled Wine on an empty stomach followed by quite a strong vodka and coke = happy trishy

[blinkbelle]

for Trish. You're dealing with this all very bravely, don't let yourself think otherwise.

On a totally random point, does anyone know of someone looking for someone to live in London? I'm moving out and we need to find someone to take my place on the lease for 4 months, mid June-mid October. If any of you ladies know of anyone who might be interested please could you let me know? I'm going to start advertising properly next week but just thought I'd see if anyone was interested on here first

Early start today! I am tiredddd. Had a fall out with the boy last night - I was filling him in on my day and he said "you're talking a lot". Which is his not-so-subtle way of telling me to shush. I had a lot I wanted to talk through with him so I just said bye and rang off. I was quite upset so just went to bed without saying night or anything! Hmf. xx