Hi guys!!
I'm a longtime reader of TSR but have only just joined as I never felt like I had a specific question to ask, or could offer good advice. However now I think I'd really benefit from some advice or just telling someone about how I feel to get it off my chest. I just found this thread and have read pretty far in but haven't found any specific answers to my queries so figured I'd write this, I'm sorry if some stuff has already been covered! Also I'm sorry this is so long and boring!
So basically I was a good student, got 8A*s 1A 1B (in German) for GCSEs. I have always had high standards and am a perfectionist (debilitatingly so at times) which are made worse by my dad who seems to find it hard to recognize any achievement if it isn't the absolute best.
Anyway, when I started AS I didn't know what I wanted to do, and so chose subjects that would "keep my options open". My parents wanted me to be a dentist/doctor etc., whereas my best and favourite subject is Art. So to kind of find a middle ground I chose Art, English, Biology and Chemistry. I felt completely overwhelmed by the work and was I think overconfident, so I didn't study as hard as I now realise I needed to, especially in Bio and Chem. As a result I got A (Art), A (English), B (Biology) and a C (Chemistry). This was the first C of my life and I was completely devastated.
When it came time to apply for UCAS in A2 I suddenly realised that the universities I dreamed of getting into my whole life (specifically Cambridge/Durham) would be put off by my AS grades. I applied for English (a compromise with my parents), but got rejected from every university I applied to (Cambridge, Durham, UCL, Leeds, Nottingham). I didn't get an interview for any of the universities. I decided to work really hard and reapply during a gap year. I ended up with A* (Art), A (English - 5 marks off an A*, full marks in CW) and A (Biology). In addition I took up extra-curriculars etc. This is not a "whining because I didn't get into Oxbridge" kind of post, I'm just trying to say that for whatever reason in my AS year I just let myself down and completely lacked any self-awareness, but tried to pick myself up. I thought that by the time I reapplied in my gap year with good A-levels I would at least get an interview somewhere, and I knew that Cambridge interviews 80% of applicants. My personal tutor said that I would probably get an interview because I had grades, not predictions. Except I didn't and I got rejected from every uni except York.
My personal tutor told me that what most likely happened was that they had let's say 50 applicants for 1 place, and so to narrow it down quickly eliminated people who (for example) got anything less than a B in AS, and probably didn't look at the rest of my application in detail. I have a friend who reapplied this year to English too, and she got the same grades as me in A2 (lower numerical scores in English), but got all A's in AS. I'm kind of devastated now, as I feel that though I worked to make up for my bad year, the C has followed me. Even though what my teacher said was supposed to make me feel better, it ended up making me feel like I was rejected for something a little irrelevant, if you know what I mean. Instead of getting rejected based purely on English/A2 grades I was automatically out of the running before they even saw those, because I didn't get my head straight for AS Chem. I know some of you are thinking "maybe you just suck at English" etc. but I feel if it wasn't for those bad grades I would've at least got an interview. It's the only thing I can think of. I know I'm nitpicking and am completely aware that this is an extreme "first world problems" kind of thing, and tons of you will think "ffs stop being annoying." I hope some can appreciate where I'm coming from when you have your heart set on something and you let yourself down in a way where it keeps coming back to haunt you.
To get to the transfer thing..Again I want to pick myself up from this setback. I want to know if there is any way I could transfer to start my second year at either Cambridge or Durham. I understand that Cambridge would be unlikely, but maybe Durham? I am now going to retake my AS Chemistry in June to get it to an A (hopefully!) and a module of my AS Biology to get it up to an A (again hopefully!). If this happens I would have those results by August, before I start uni. So, providing I was doing well in my uni first year modules, do you think it would be a plausible/good idea?
I'm definitely going to try and embrace my time at York, absolutely as best I can. I really really mean that, I'm not the type to sulk in the corner, I will make the best of any situation I'm in I promise. If you're thinking "maybe you'll love York" I completely agree. I'm more writing this as I'm kind of despairing right now and am just considering my options way in advance should it come to this. It gave me a kind of spark of hope when I realised this was a hypothetical option. I'm not saying "York sucks I know I will hate it even though I haven't started there yet, I have to go to Cambridge/Durham" , I'm just saying "In case it doesn't fit this could be an option, why don't I start investigating/getting my facts straight now before deadlines etc. become any kind of issue and I have to make a quick decision."
SO - hypothetically if I hate York and am still feeling regret, "what ifs" etc.: Could I apply for a transfer in my second year? Should I? Are they likely to consider me? Importantly, is it worth applying regardless because even if I get rejected for the transfer I'll still be at York so won't have lost anything? And if I get accepted my dream will come true and all the whining/scrapping will be worth it?
THANK YOU FOR READING!!!!!
I really appreciate any advice/thoughts anyone has to offer!