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    I think I really need to go see a doctor about the possibility of being depressed, I generally ebb quite low as it is being a massive cynic and all, but this past couple of weeks I've been nothing more than a blubbering wreck ~80% of the time.
    Doesn't make sense to me though - I'm coping fine with my studies, I've won a high position for next year in one of my societies, I've got a house sorted for next year, surely I should be quite happy right now?

    Biggest problem is though, the idea of being open and honest with anyone just terrifies me.
    I couldn't even talk to my parents about how I was feeling when I was on Skype with them the other night, I keep bottling everything up and putting on an "everything's fine" façade when not completely alone - when with friends or even just in the communal areas of my house I pretend that everything is hunky-dory. Hell, it was very hard to bring myself just to post this on here.
    If I can't be completely open with my family or friends how am I supposed to do so with my GP, a bloke I've never even met before?
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    :nothing: 6.30am. Couple of hours sleep.
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    (Original post by Sabertooth)
    :nothing: 6.30am. Couple of hours sleep.

    Have a good morning hug:
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    I think I really need to go see a doctor about the possibility of being depressed, I generally ebb quite low as it is being a massive cynic and all, but this past couple of weeks I've been nothing more than a blubbering wreck ~80% of the time.
    Doesn't make sense to me though - I'm coping fine with my studies, I've won a high position for next year in one of my societies, I've got a house sorted for next year, surely I should be quite happy right now?

    Biggest problem is though, the idea of being open and honest with anyone just terrifies me.
    I couldn't even talk to my parents about how I was feeling when I was on Skype with them the other night, I keep bottling everything up and putting on an "everything's fine" façade when not completely alone - when with friends or even just in the communal areas of my house I pretend that everything is hunky-dory. Hell, it was very hard to bring myself just to post this on here.
    If I can't be completely open with my family or friends how am I supposed to do so with my GP, a bloke I've never even met before?
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    To me, as well as admitting what's going on or disclosing it to those closest, going to the GP and talking about it is the hardest. But like you said, you want to talk about the possibility, and the GP would be the best person to tell you - not self diagnosis. It does seem very likely that you have depression, but remember that a lot of people do (1 in 10 adults irrc) so you're not alone. And you definitely won't be on this thread I assure you :hugs: Also, although most people who are depressed have something like a life event that triggers it, but that isn't always the case, you can become depressed even though you feel you should be happy that time - there is a strong biological basis for depression.

    I know it terrifies you, and it terrifies me for years too, but when things got really bad, I realised I couldn't deal with it alone anymore without professional support. I personally think you should go now, otherwise you might go threw that. From about October or so, until the present, I've had the most horrible time ever (it was far worse from Christmas until January) and I wouldn't want to think you might feel as **** as I did too :nah:

    You don't have to talk to your parents first - talk to the GP and he can put you through to people (health care people) who could really help you. Then you can think about whether or not you want anyone else knowing. There are a lot of people on this thread whose parents don't know, so it's not prerequisite.

    I know you're worried because your GP is a stranger and all, but you should know that mostly makes it easier to talk to him! Because then you don't have to worry about being judged or about anything you tell him. And you won't have to speak to him all the time (he will not be your therapist if you need one!) if you hate him (I wasn't fund of the woman I spoke to :no:) so it's really only once or twice (twice for me) you have to go.

    Hope I helped and I hope you try out the things I've stated. What I love about this thread is that I never have to pretend because everybody feels the same, so it actually gets almost addictive to post here everyday feel free and welcome, and you're always welcome to PM me too if you'd like
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    woke up, feel like **** as usual, just can't keep doing this also sick of seeing how happy other people are and **** so deleted my Facebook.

    decided im gonna drop out of Uni at the end of the year, just have 0 motivation for my degree and frankly none of my friends am I that close to anyway so I doubt they will care. **** knows what I will do next but hey.

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    the above is assuming I don't kill myself before hand, right now I plan on doing nothing over the weekend then getting insanely drunk on Tuesday and hopefully that will push me over the edge. just really have had enough of my life and of living in this ****ing world. sorry.
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    (Original post by thatsthebadger93)
    Can you do something to distract yourself, maybe watch some tv or have a bath?
    I could watch TV, but it's in Spanish and I get frustrated I don't understand it. Option 2 is impossible due to no heating or hot water. I don't really feel any better this morning. Not sleeping well. Should probably go to doctors but they'll probably think it's homesickness.
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    (Original post by superwolf)
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    Forgot to mention, Dr Adams also said coffee and energy drinks should be banned.

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    Gotta go bowling now, wish me luck, gonna bloody need it. Will reply to posts and pms when I get home, and thank you to everything who has been lovely to me :hugs:
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    (Original post by rmhumphries)
    Forgot to mention, Dr Adams also said coffee and energy drinks should be banned.

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    Gotta go bowling now, wish me luck, gonna bloody need it. Will reply to posts and pms when I get home, and thank you to everything who has been lovely to me :hugs:
    Hey, I hope the bowling helps a little bit, or at least distracts you :jumphug:.

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    Sorry I wasn't online last night when everyone had problems (but at least that means the lorazepam plan worked for me, I guess.)

    Parents should be arriving soon, then we just have to work out what to do with the day. My vote? Spend some of that money of theirs .
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    That is definitely impressive, well done to her!
    Im sure they'll be fine with it whatever you tell them
    Good luck with it! :hugs:

    I'm not, no. I don't know what to do. I asked my sister about it and she just pulled a face. Neither of us like him but that doesn't mean we/I shouldn't make an effort for my mum. I'll go to the corner shop tomorrow, for a card at least.
    That's nice, sure she will appreciate it. Must be hard to know what to do when you don't like him, with good reason. :hugs:

    Why is getting up so hard? :yawn:


    (Original post by SciFiBoy)
    woke up, feel like **** as usual, just can't keep doing this also sick of seeing how happy other people are and **** so deleted my Facebook.

    decided im gonna drop out of Uni at the end of the year, just have 0 motivation for my degree and frankly none of my friends am I that close to anyway so I doubt they will care. **** knows what I will do next but hey.

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    the above is assuming I don't kill myself before hand, right now I plan on doing nothing over the weekend then getting insanely drunk on Tuesday and hopefully that will push me over the edge. just really have had enough of my life and of living in this ****ing world. sorry.
    :hugs: Does your uni know anything? Are they supporting you? Things can still get better!
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    That's nice, sure she will appreciate it. Must be hard to know what to do when you don't like him, with good reason. :hugs:

    Why is getting up so hard? :yawn:
    I have no idea, I'm still in bed. Don't think I could be any less productive right now.
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    Had a moment yesterday evening where I was hiding in my room from my unfriendly flatmate's loud and drunken friends from home, feeling really sad because the guy I like hadn't texted back (), when I just kind of had an epiphany and thought: sod it, I'm going out. Went to the rock society weekly event, which I hadn't been to before because I didn't know anyone, walked in alone and socialised with the people there which is an absolute personal nightmare of mine (not knowing anyone and going alone) but they were all lovely and it went well and I'm going back next week

    I know it's the most difficult thing in the world to do... but sometimes forcing yourself out of your comfort zone and taking the plunge can really help.

    Also I finally said to GP about depression, she did one of those tests with about ten questions on me and apparently I have 'mild depression' :dry: Mild my arse. To be fair the test only applies to the last fortnight and I haven't felt suicidal in quite a while :holmes: She didn't want to recommend medication though, she wanted me to go for CBT which I already know would not really help that much :dry:

    Has anyone else lied on those tests? To look... I don't know, less crazy? I didn't exactly lie, but I didn't mention that I have felt suicidal in the past, and so on...
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    (Original post by Alofleicester)
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    I think I really need to go see a doctor about the possibility of being depressed, I generally ebb quite low as it is being a massive cynic and all, but this past couple of weeks I've been nothing more than a blubbering wreck ~80% of the time.
    Doesn't make sense to me though - I'm coping fine with my studies, I've won a high position for next year in one of my societies, I've got a house sorted for next year, surely I should be quite happy right now?

    Biggest problem is though, the idea of being open and honest with anyone just terrifies me.
    I couldn't even talk to my parents about how I was feeling when I was on Skype with them the other night, I keep bottling everything up and putting on an "everything's fine" façade when not completely alone - when with friends or even just in the communal areas of my house I pretend that everything is hunky-dory. Hell, it was very hard to bring myself just to post this on here.
    If I can't be completely open with my family or friends how am I supposed to do so with my GP, a bloke I've never even met before?
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    Cider society! :jumphug: (the overlap between the cider society and the depression society is bloody ridiculous )

    I think you've already got some pretty good advice - seeing a doctor is a very good first step. And you might find telling other people easier once you've already practised on the doctor, and when you have a clearer idea of what might be wrong with you.

    If you're worried about not being able to tell the doctor then one thing you can do is to write out a list of everything you think is relevant, like mood, any sleep problems or loss of appetite, energy levels, and anything else which you feel is affecting you. n Then once you're talking to the GP you can either use your list to refer to and make sure you don't forget anything, or else just hand it over for them to read.

    This society is seriously ****ing awesome, so you've done the right thing by posting here. :yep:


    (Original post by SciFiBoy)
    woke up, feel like **** as usual, just can't keep doing this also sick of seeing how happy other people are and **** so deleted my Facebook.

    decided im gonna drop out of Uni at the end of the year, just have 0 motivation for my degree and frankly none of my friends am I that close to anyway so I doubt they will care. **** knows what I will do next but hey.

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    the above is assuming I don't kill myself before hand, right now I plan on doing nothing over the weekend then getting insanely drunk on Tuesday and hopefully that will push me over the edge. just really have had enough of my life and of living in this ****ing world. sorry.
    :hugs: You feel like this now, but only a day or two ago you were thinking about the possibility of running for an SU position, and seemed quite positive about uni. I think it's important to remember how much your mood can fluctuate with depression (something I should probably keep in mind myself), and that when you're at a particularly low point this is not a good time to be making important decisions.

    Remember we're always here when you need us.

    (Original post by rmhumphries)
    Forgot to mention, Dr Adams also said coffee and energy drinks should be banned.

    *****

    Gotta go bowling now, wish me luck, gonna bloody need it. Will reply to posts and pms when I get home, and thank you to everything who has been lovely to me :hugs:
    Ban coffee?! This man deserves to die.

    Best of luck!
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    (Original post by imbuzzinme)
    Facebook really is a ****ing ****. But you have to remember that people will always construct a superficial identity for Facebook - an identity that they ideally want people to see them as. Just because people post endless photos of themselves being 'happy' doesn't really mean crap. But I've been there, and I've deleted Facebook many a time. It always has a habit of making you feel even worse than you already do.

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    Sorry to hear you're having a hard time but please hold in there. I know that doesn't mean much from a stranger and I know it's never as easy as that but I do mean it.
    just really can't deal with it right now, feel way too **** without facebook.

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    just really hard to see why I should keep going right now


    (Original post by Anonymous)
    :hugs: Does your uni know anything? Are they supporting you? Things can still get better!
    they know am depressed but not really sure what they can do to help me atm
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    (Original post by superwolf)
    :hugs: You feel like this now, but only a day or two ago you were thinking about the possibility of running for an SU position, and seemed quite positive about uni. I think it's important to remember how much your mood can fluctuate with depression (something I should probably keep in mind myself), and that when you're at a particularly low point this is not a good time to be making important decisions.

    Remember we're always here when you need us.
    my mood goes up sometimes, but its usualy just false hope, makes me feel worse when I go back down. I don't really do anything no matter what my mood atm, have 0 motivation even on good days
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    (Original post by superwolf)

    Ban coffee?! This man deserves to die.

    Best of luck!
    there is no caffeinated coffee in the house... will have to go outside in the cold to get my fix :nothing: :nothing: but need coffee to get to the level where i would actually be willing to do that :emo:
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    You know what really pisses me off about myself?

    I know that I have things that I need to be doing. I'm meant to be heading up to a sports hall right now to cheer on my uni basketball team. I could either be getting ready to go there (gonna go a bit later I think) or I could be doing work, or tidying my room, or doing some washing up, or putting laundry in. I could also be asking my housemates for their bill money. But no. I'm sat in bed, reading ****ing food threads on TSR, mentally berating myself for everything that I do and don't do.

    Like, I get the urge quite a lot recently to do work. Really do work. Then I get down to doing it and it's like... urgh, I don't know this, I don't like this, what is the point. :sigh:
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    This is a longgggggggggg shot but does anyone know anywhere I could crash in Manchester on Tuesday night?
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    Well, according to him, anti-depressants are not that strong anyway. But he seemed to be willing to give me any drug I suggested, and give me at a much higher dose than the maximum treatment dose, from what I got.

    I don't know if the whole higher drug than the maximum dose was a test to see if I was just faking or not, but at this point, I would be willing to consider most things, especially things a psychiatrist, who I have been to for help when normal methods don't work, suggests.


    Tis ok, I wasn't expecting fantastic things, although I wasn't prepared for it to be this bad. Problem is my GP can't refer me to anyone else. So kinda stuff in a hole...

    :hugs:

    How are you anyway?
    Maybe it's just a matter of time for you + talking therapies. Drugs are so hit and miss for brain stuff. I feel 'lucky' that prozac is levelling me out a bit though, it doesn't seem to help for some. :hugs: right back atcha

    Had a good night with my housemates last night. First time I've felt 'ok' in ages. We watched Serenity and I got a bit drunk without getting teary.

    They're a little creeped out with how I am generally though. They don't really know how to treat me. Have had about 10 hours' sleep in the last 4 nights. So desperate to be able to switch off...
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    (Original post by rmhumphries)
    Gotta go bowling now, wish me luck, gonna bloody need it. Will reply to posts and pms when I get home, and thank you to everything who has been lovely to me :hugs:
    Best of luck rmhumphries!!
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    I'm not pregnant!
    Just gonna go and cry with relief now :cute:
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