To me, as well as admitting what's going on or disclosing it to those closest, going to the GP and talking about it is the hardest. But like you said, you want to talk about the possibility, and the GP would be the best person to tell you - not self diagnosis. It does seem very likely that you have depression, but remember that a lot of people do (1 in 10 adults irrc) so you're not alone. And you definitely won't be on this thread I assure you
Also, although most people who are depressed have something like a life event that triggers it, but that isn't always the case, you can become depressed even though you feel you should be happy that time - there is a strong biological basis for depression.
I know it terrifies you, and it terrifies me for years too, but when things got really bad, I realised I couldn't deal with it alone anymore without professional support. I personally think you should go now, otherwise you might go threw that. From about October or so, until the present, I've had the most horrible time ever (it was far worse from Christmas until January) and I wouldn't want to think you might feel as **** as I did too
You don't have to talk to your parents first - talk to the GP and he can put you through to people (health care people) who could really help you. Then you can think about whether or not you want anyone else knowing. There are a lot of people on this thread whose parents don't
know, so it's not prerequisite.
I know you're worried because your GP is a stranger and all, but you should know that mostly makes it easier to talk to him! Because then you don't have to worry about being judged or about anything you tell him. And you won't have to speak to him all the time (he will not be your therapist if you need one!) if you hate him (I wasn't fund of the woman I spoke to
) so it's really only once or twice (twice for me) you have to go.
Hope I helped and I hope you try out the things I've stated. What I love about this thread is that I never have to pretend because everybody feels the same, so it actually gets almost addictive to post here everyday
feel free and welcome, and you're always welcome to PM me too if you'd like