Not having a brilliant day (/week/month/year).
Still haven't managed to get to a lecture, screening or seminar all semester, despite first attempting to get 'back in the swing of things' over 2 weeks ago.
Beginning to think that I shouldn't really be studying for a degree. I could intercalate, but I'll only end up having similar problems next year, or in years 2 or 3, and I'm pretty sure I wouldn't get the funding to intercalate again. Besides, I don't want to be 26 or 27 by the time I finally finish this degree.
Not really sure what to do now. I want to drop out, but I don't want to lose the support of the university and the doctors here, and I
can't go back home. Going back for the holidays is bad enough.
Won't be able to hold down a job, and wouldn't be able to get one in the current climate anyway.
Completely out of options, as far as I can see.
(This could be quite triggering: )