[Anonymous]

Hey guys, I guess I'd like some advice or something along those lines...

I'm 17 and just so lost... I'm doing A Levels at college and have made no friends, everyone is with people from their secondary schools and have already made groups, and I'd just feel like I'm intruding, I don't even have the confidence to talk to people. I have a stutter and it has impacted my life so much, I've tried therapy but it was useless...
I have the least amount of self esteem on this planet (Maybe over exaggerating ), I always tell myself I'm unattractive and not good enough for anyone. I always try to avoid mirrors and photos, or just anything that would reflect my appearance. I have the weirdest head/ face shape ever, adding up all my physical flaws...Just saddens and depresses me. I've been called attractive by a few people, but I always just brush it off and tell myself "Yea Right!". I'm bored, lonely, sick and just unhappy with my life. What's the point in living it? (I'm not suicidal) I'm just so fed up and want to enjoy my life again but don't know how

[SeaJay]

(Original post by outworn)
Sorry for not replying sooner

Ah I'm not too bad thanks, had a rough couple of days but back on track now

I can definitely related to zombie-ness Yay for eating!

Really glad you're feeling a bit back on track

Played with my friend's 5 year old in the park this afternoon and felt somewhere close to normal

[sunfowers01]

Feeling isolated but not keen on being around people due to gossiping going on. Anyone else get this?

[headunderwater]

Heys guys, I was discharged from hospital yesterday, but i'm really struggling with the transition. Feeling like I am going insane .I think my nerves are misfiring for whatever reason. I feel like I have bugs crawling all over me, but there is nothing. It doesn't matter where I am tonight or what I am wearing I can't stop but feel the sensation of movement on my body. I just had a shower and the same thing happened so I am not sure what to do. I've been having a lot of nightmares and flashbacks perhaps this is connected? There are people in mirrors laughing at me and running away. There are ants crawling everywhere, all over me and all my things. There are people talk about me but I can't find them.

please help

[Idle]

(Original post by 35mm_)
Heys guys, I was discharged from hospital yesterday, but i'm really struggling with the transition. Feeling like I am going insane .I think my nerves are misfiring for whatever reason. I feel like I have bugs crawling all over me, but there is nothing. It doesn't matter where I am tonight or what I am wearing I can't stop but feel the sensation of movement on my body. I just had a shower and the same thing happened so I am not sure what to do. I've been having a lot of nightmares and flashbacks perhaps this is connected? There are people in mirrors laughing at me and running away. There are ants crawling everywhere, all over me and all my things. There are people talk about me but I can't find them.

please help

They didn't just discharge you with no support? Do you have anyone you can call? Any meds to be able to calm you down a bit?

[headunderwater]

(Original post by Idle)
They didn't just discharge you with no support? Do you have anyone you can call? Any meds to be able to calm you down a bit?

I feel like I have no support. I have a weekly appointment with my psychiatrist and a contact number for my CPN, but that's it. And I only have my regular meds; olanzapine and sertraline. I feel so strange.

[Idle]

(Original post by 35mm_)
I feel like I have no support. I have a weekly appointment with my psychiatrist and a contact number for my CPN, but that's it. And I only have my regular meds; olanzapine and sertraline. I feel so strange.

No Crisis Team number? You can still call them even if you are not under them, if you need help finding the number I will help

[headunderwater]

(Original post by Idle)
No Crisis Team number? You can still call them even if you are not under them, if you need help finding the number I will help

My CPN is refusing to put me under home treament/Crisis team. I begged her today to refer me to them but she's just not listening.

[ParadoxSocks]

I set the fire alarm off while everybody else was out shopping. Feeling extra stupid now I don't know if I can face walking onto campus tomorrow. I'm so scared that I'll make a tit of myself and just fail miserably at something. Don't want to go. Want to stay home where it is safe.

[Nut.]

Just fought off my second hospitalisation in as many months. I've got the night to improve, then being seen tomorrow.

Why isn't there a nicer version of hospital as an option?

I've banned myself from listening to my usual depressing music. Tinie Tempah is currently keeping me company .

[Idle]

(Original post by 35mm_)
My CPN is refusing to put me under home treament/Crisis team. I begged her today to refer me to them but she's just not listening.

Did she explain her reasoning?

[headunderwater]

(Original post by Idle)
Did she explain her reasoning?

She said she wants me to have minimal contact with the mental health services. Which is ridiculous seeing as now is the time where i need the most support.

Shadows are following me everywhere. There are people in the shadows and they're coming for me.

[Idle]

(Original post by 35mm_)
She said she wants me to have minimal contact with the mental health services. Which is ridiculous seeing as now is the time where i need the most support.

Shadows are following me everywhere. There are people in the shadows and they're coming for me.

Well **** her, the crisis team can over rule a CPN, do you have there number? Call them and explain.

[Noodlzzz]

(Original post by Nut.)
Just fought off my second hospitalisation in as many months. I've got the night to improve, then being seen tomorrow.

Why isn't there a nicer version of hospital as an option?

I've banned myself from listening to my usual depressing music. Tinie Tempah is currently keeping me company .

There is dependent on where you live. Try looking up local crisis houses, they've been a god send for me and have allowed me to avoid hospital

[headunderwater]

(Original post by Idle)
Well **** her, the crisis team can over rule a CPN, do you have there number? Call them and explain.

I called them earlier and they said they couldn't really speak to me because i'm not listed as being under their care. For **** sake, i'm struggling so much and there's near enough no support.

[headunderwater]

(Original post by Noodlzzz)
There is dependent on where you live. Try looking up local crisis houses, they've been a god send for me and have allowed me to avoid hospital

How'd you manage to get into a crisis house?

[Idle]

(Original post by 35mm_)
I called them earlier and they said they couldn't really speak to me because i'm not listed as being under their care. For **** sake, i'm struggling so much and there's near enough no support.

I'm pretty sure if you go to A&E you would end up being seen by them, is that a possibility?

[bullettheory]

(Original post by 35mm_)
I called them earlier and they said they couldn't really speak to me because i'm not listed as being under their care. For **** sake, i'm struggling so much and there's near enough no support.

Could you try calling out of hours GP and see if they can refer you?

[headunderwater]

bugs everywhere, in my hair, on my skin.

[Sabertooth]

(Original post by 35mm_)
bugs everywhere, in my hair, on my skin.

Is there anywhere you can go where you feel safe? Like bed, lie naked and feel the sheets on your skin instead. Really wrap yourself up tightly so that it's all you can feel. Seeing as a shower hasn't helped you.

I'm inclined to agree with Idle though, going to a&e might be a good idea.