Depression Society MKVI

Facebook is evil! It always makes me feel worse too!

I know it's really easy to look at other people and think that they are having awesome lives, (I do it too and facebook can be a git.) If you look at my profile you would think I was ay ok at the moment... People only publish the positive things - chances are pretty high that they have bad times too.

Anyway I know I haven't said hi for a while, but I have been reading your posts and am really glad to see that you've had some 'good' days



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I'm ok today. Motivation pretty low and I got 3 hours of broken up sleep. Gonna go and play with/feed hamster then get a pizza for me then do some work. yes.

Also.. serious tmi...

Right .... hi all! I have been following the society for a while now (in a completely none stalker way) but have been far too self conscious to actually join or write anything at all. But I am trying to get over all that. I have been suffering with severe anxiety and depression for a fair few years now, however it’s got really quite bad again more recently and being in my final year at university it is currently affecting my dissertation and everything quite badly. Meant to currently be on medication but ran out and don’t really want to go back to the Drs because I always feel like a right idiot. Also the Drs know my parents and I haven’t told them about any of it yet. So yes I just wanted to say hi because from what I have seen this forum seems a really nice and supportive place for everyone and I could really do with something like that.

I've already taken 2.5 weeks off due to this and then the side effects of the meds. And another week from being just generally ill and that's just this semester! If I didn't have this long essay to panic about, I'd be okay - I could catch up over Easter and all would be fine. But that won't work...

I'd actually be quite interested to know sort of what they do, because I'm going into this blind. The only thing that I do know is that my tutors have yet to send me nasty emails about rarely turning up.

I'm ok today. Motivation pretty low and I got 3 hours of broken up sleep. Gonna go and play with/feed hamster then get a pizza for me then do some work. yes.

Also.. serious tmi...

Hey What's up? Wanna chat about anything? (you would be helping me procrastinate.... )

My Nanas pretty ill atm, I feel so far from home and useless It's st Patricks day and my uni town is massively into it (we have a lot of Irish people here as we're so close to Dublin by ferry) and I'm sat in on my todd doing nothing... Everyone is going out. I'm not going to lectures so what is the point of me being here for an extra week when I could be at home with my Nana and family and not stuck in this ****ty little town?

Hope you manage to go home. I didnt even realise it was Paddys day. Have you noticed that if you don't drink for ages getting drunk isn't as fun anymore and it just makes you more angry

I hate how I'm so full of hate and have so much bile over so many things. I'm thinking of leaving this forum. I can't take all the moronic crap people think any more.

makes no difference for me taking it in the evenings, though I can't say I have noticed any effects from taking it full stop idk, I would imagine so long as you take regularly it shouldn't matter too much what time of day, unless they make you sleepy or something anyway! hope you are well

I took Escitalopram at night (8pm) and I didn't get any negative effects from doing so. Best thing to do is check with your doctor, and be aware it might make some side effects more noticeable, but otherwise should be ok.

Hi Welcome!

Sorry you're going through a crappy time Can you just get a repeat prescription form at your docs? That way you don't have to talk to anyone and they will review your medication then you can just pick up the prescription. Might be better than the withdrawal symptoms/a relapse.

Welcome!

I'm meant to be doing my dissertation next year and I'm terrified (as no doubt you will be comforted to hear ). For ideas on how your uni can help you re depression you might want to have a look at what I've said to Aemiliana below.

I'll be home this time next week (that's if various things don't happen in the mean time, which point I'll go home earlier - tbh I could go home Monday and just tell cheerleading to stick it, for all the tea in China I would but I have a commitment to the team and I won't abuse that unless I absolutely have to) but it just seems so far away I'm trying to get on with uni work and be productive but it's doubly hard when I'm thinking about being home so much.

Might be worth taking a break from TSR for a while if you feel like that?

I'm really ****ing ill .

Slept right through from 4am until about 15 minutes ago and I'm still exhausted, everything aches, I can't swallow or breathe through my nose and my brain feels like it's pulsing and swollen. Haven't been this ill since about year 9.

I never get physically ill, what the hell is wrong with me?!

Mentally I seem ok. Pissed off at myself for being ill, which isn't exactly in line with my therapist recommending I try being nice to me, but what the heck.
I thought the entire idea of nerves being all "ow I hurt" was to let the brain know that something was wrong. My brain definitely knows there is something wrong now, thank you, so can you all please stop sending signals!

I feel like there's a weight in my chest dragging me down, I don't want to be sad anymore, I feel so heavy and it's always a struggle to get back up again

My Nanas pretty ill atm, I feel so far from home and useless It's st Patricks day and my uni town is massively into it (we have a lot of Irish people here as we're so close to Dublin by ferry) and I'm sat in on my todd doing nothing... Everyone is going out. I'm not going to lectures so what is the point of me being here for an extra week when I could be at home with my Nana and family and not stuck in this ****ty little town?

I'm really ****ing ill .

Slept right through from 4am until about 15 minutes ago and I'm still exhausted, everything aches, I can't swallow or breathe through my nose and my brain feels like it's pulsing and swollen. Haven't been this ill since about year 9.

I never get physically ill, what the hell is wrong with me?!

Mentally I seem ok. Pissed off at myself for being ill, which isn't exactly in line with my therapist recommending I try being nice to me, but what the heck.
I thought the entire idea of nerves being all "ow I hurt" was to let the brain know that something was wrong. My brain definitely knows there is something wrong now, thank you, so can you all please stop sending signals!

Thanks for the response! I have no idea if I can just get a repeat prescription because they said they wanted me to go back in again as I was only recently moved on to citalopram from other stuff. But I am not sure would I just have to phone up the surgery about that?
I think part of the issue now is that I stopped taking my meds about 3 months ago now so I have already relapsed pretty badly which is totally my own fault which doesn't help :/

I hope you get better soon chick. Being any kind of ill sucks

That sounds awful, I hope you make a speedy recovery, if it gets worse take a trip to your GP

I'm so sorry to hear your Nana's not well. Is there any way you could go home early? Nana's are pretty special - I miss both of mine very much.

Don't worry about Paddy's day. I'm not feeling it this year either. I should really be going out because my housemate's Irish, but she's going out with her deaf club so that kinda lets me off the hook for now.

I know what you mean about not wanting to eat, although for me it's generally a case of 'I'm not hungry, so why bother'. Can you make sure you take vitamin pills and such on days when you don't eat much? I do know that when I don't eat anything I feel far worse though.

Probably not if it was a while ago, but there's no harm in just ringing up the surgery and checking. Was the citalopram helping you? If so, could you get someone to go with you to the docs so you can start taking it again? Hope you start feeling better soon

Serendipitously enough, I just happen to have written a post to someone else on pretty much exactly the same topic. Here follows the post:



You might also want to check out the rest of the thread here, and see if it gives you any other ideas.