Depression Society MKVI

I know they say dreams have some deep routed meaning but WTF.. I had a dream last night it was my mum who had died and my dad had found a new woman.

Bizarre. Utterly Bizarre.

I really don't want to do this essay, I am not in the right frame of mind for it. I'm not feel up to reading and then writing but at least in 24 hours I can take a break (ish).

Yeah I understand, can be hard.

Ok thanks, went to the cinema with a friend that came to visit then had a chinese takeaway with the family and got a few presents.
Finally managed to tell my mum about aspergers, her reaction was better than I expected, she sort of said it would explain some things.

Hey guys, advice? I was advised by my psychologist not to take an exam last week and therefore emailed the course tutor to say that I was mentally unwell enough to sit it. The tutor emailed me saying that's fine and asked how I am and when I'll be able to take it. Now the problem, he is aware that I've previously had auditory hallucinations and paranoia but it's got to the stage at the moment where people are telling me I'm having a psychotic break because I keep telling them the government is spying on me because they think I have special powers (I can understand where they're coming from but it is actually happening). So what do I exactly say to this tutor? I won't be able to sit the exam this term as whether it's real or not the paranoia means I can't leave my room and I get very uneasy around electronics as they've been bugged (test is on a computer). Do I say 'apparently I'm in a middle of a psychotic episode' or 'the government is watching me'. I really don't want to sound friggin crazy as he is my tutor after all but then at least he would understand why I can't take the exam.... HELP!?

Goddamnit, I hate quetiapine.

Don't forget to try getting more protein if you can cos it'll fill you up faster and for longer.

Spoilered in case it's triggering, don't know if there are any ED people on here too:


Aim for 80-100g protein per day (which is 250-400kcals worth if it's in lean form like tuna or chicken breast) and see if it lessens the hunger at all.

Sounds like you had a good today
That also sounds good, glad it went well

Feeling guilty about the work that I've not even attempted yet, should have done it yesterday instead of wasting the day.

How are you today?

Thanks

Ah well, that's just the way it goes sometimes. I would know.
Think you will feel up to giving it a go tonight?

Not bad, spent ages on one question wondering why I wasn't getting the right answer until finally reading the notes and realising I wasn't doing right. Spend the rest of the day not doing much so productivity is not so good, just waiting for the gulilt to hit. Ah well hopefully will hear from mentor soon.

You're an awesome person, and you're not broken, just a little bit screwed up like the rest of us. And I know absolutely what you mean about feeling like you've tried everything and just wanting to disappear, but some things in life still are worth living for, and we're here to help keep you going whenever you need us.

Apply for an extension if you are not in the right frame of mind?

So just broke up with my girlfriend. This isn't doing well for my paranoia.

I feel pretty upset too I guess.

So just broke up with my girlfriend. This isn't doing well for my paranoia.

I feel pretty upset too I guess.

I'm sorry to hear that.

I've been arguing with myself as to whether to post this or not, but I just want to say thank you to everybody on this thread; you've all been incredible. But I think I'm finished. Done. I'm sorry.

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