[Webberino]

(Original post by Anonymous)
Can I please have some honest opinions on whether it's actually worth going to your GP about depression/SH? I've had what I'm fairly certain is depression for the past 5-6 years and keep uhm-ing and ah-ing over whether to go and 'get help' or not. My problem is that I don't really have any interest in counselling or taking medication, but things keep getting to a point where I'm worried about failing my A-levels unless I do something. My other problem is that the last time I saw my GP about feeling fatigued she was very dismissive which has put me off going back to her about anything else, especially as even the thought of discussing my problems makes me feel extremely anxious I just really don't know what to do at this point.

It's definitely worth going. Those are the main two forms of treatment used, so not sure what they will do but they may have some other ideas. Good luck.

(Original post by Unelma)
How do you guys cope with university/college when depressed? I have kept up with lectures, but I've been so apathetic about every aspect of my life for a long time and I don't know whether to just get on with it and try bear it like I have for the past years or see a G.P.

I don't really, have just accumulated a massive backlog of work that I will never be able to do now.
I really think it's worth seeing a gp so you can get treatment and also may be able to get support with uni so it's easier for you to keep on top of things.

(Original post by Anonymous)
I do that often

Eeek, not ideal whatsoever. Best double check you don'y have one on the day of your test if you still haven't got your full exam sheet yet.

Will do that, don't know why I was so sure that date was still in the holidays.
Missing first lecture because I didn't have time to have a cup of tea and get there on time so I chose the cup of tea. Not even a nice cup of tea because there was no milk. Feel so bad.
Hope he doesn't randomly decide to take a register today.

[avhhs]

(Original post by Phoenix07)
Well goodluck with everything and hope you get your work sorted and everything with the social worker goes alright

Thanks So far I've had my driving lesson and done my homework. Now I need to get ready for school, and also after school I need to do my ICT work. I heard the social worker is coming at around 2.

[SciFiRory]

(Original post by Unelma)
How do you guys cope with university/college when depressed? I have kept up with lectures, but I've been so apathetic about every aspect of my life for a long time and I don't know whether to just get on with it and try bear it like I have for the past years or see a G.P.

you should always do what you think is best for you if you feel like you need to see a GP for any reason though, you should! better to make sure you are getting all the support you need!

good luck with your studies

as for how I cope, the short answer is that I don't, that coupled with other health issues is why I am intermitting my 2nd year so...like I said though you need to do what's best for you, I would advise against making decisions based solely on other peoples experiences as no one else is gonna be exactly like you

as I said good luck

[Wheek]

Just done my first morning at my new job. And I loved it!

Was really anxious and on edge before I went in but I think I am really going to like it there. The people are nice, its a job I will enjoy and the atmosphere there is really good.

I have spent almost 2 years working really hard to get my mental health sorted and although I have had a little dip recently and am back on meds, I finally feel like I am getting back to normal (whatever that may be!)

[ParadoxSocks]

Just had the email to say my extenuating circumstances appeal was successful! I'll now get first sits in the ones that I missed. Best day ever.

Only problem is they want to have a meeting on the 11th of April and I don't quite know how to say I can't do it without sounding like I don't appreciate everything they do for me.

[littleshambles]

(Original post by Nut.)
IIRC you're on a fairly high dose of Q aren't you?

If you come off it cold turkey you're more likely to experience mood swings/ mood instability.

I haven't read up on how Q works for quite a while now but I know it's something to do with dopamine. When I was close to a point of not taking it because I was suspicious about what other effects it might be having in my body, on hormones or metabolism or whatever I was given a pharmacy helpline number I was told I could call to ask questions about my meds.

It's based in Norfolk but I don't see why they wouldn't answer questions from anywhere. I can PM you the number/email if you like?




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And all month/ all year too, if I'm honest

i'm back on Q

first day off was great, slept 5 hours and got into work and enjoyed it, somewhere around the 5pm mark was where it started spinning off into bad territory, had a few drinks, decided to contact this guy to meet up, went off to brixton, chatted to the bouncer and the DJ and the barman, got a bit uncomfortable with things and then it spun off even further... went to chase up the people who don't speak to me anymore, they weren't in, so i stormed off back home, slept another 3 hours... the next morning i went back round everyone's house to find him and i spent all day pacing around their rooms shouting at them and generally being mental. that evening things took a turn for the even worse after i ambled out and the ex shoved 20 quid in my pocket for a taxi and i ended up lying on the pavement crying and then i had a panic attack (apparently) and started vomiting nothing as i hadn't eaten anything since the day before... then he and his friend taxi'd me home while to get my meds while i trembled in the middle going "I'M SCARED KASDFKAJSDFIOWEF". also now i am back on it it knocked me out cold like the old days ffs.

my advice (that i should have taken in the first place but you live and learn): don't cold turkey off Q

[Phoenix07]

(Original post by avhhs)
Thanks So far I've had my driving lesson and done my homework. Now I need to get ready for school, and also after school I need to do my ICT work. I heard the social worker is coming at around 2.

I miss my driving lessons, they were so much fun it's gone 2 now though so hope all of the stuff with the social worker went alright? and hope the work goes ok, sat inside doing my dissertation which sucks on a day as sunny as today

[Anonymous]

(Original post by Webberino)
Will do that, don't know why I was so sure that date was still in the holidays.
Missing first lecture because I didn't have time to have a cup of tea and get there on time so I chose the cup of tea. Not even a nice cup of tea because there was no milk. Feel so bad.
Hope he doesn't randomly decide to take a register today.

You could try and make up the missed lecture with doing other work? Might help the guilt.
If he doesn't usually then the chances of him doing one today are very low

My English teacher chose my barely written answer to read to the class. He wasn't at all bothered that it wasn't finished, he just handed it back to me and said it wasn't finished. Must definitely do his homework this week.

[warp2125]

Yikes... I just asked this girl out... afew months ago or even afew weeks ago I would never have done that... I deffo think the CBT is helping... only prob now I have done it im nervous as hell.....

[littleshambles]

(Original post by warp2125)
Yikes... I just asked this girl out... afew months ago or even afew weeks ago I would never have done that... I deffo think the CBT is helping... only prob now I have done it im nervous as hell.....

you did it though! good luck

[warp2125]

(Original post by littleshambles)
you did it though! good luck

Thank you

Will be honest.. I didnt think CBT would work... I really thought I would need meds to put me back on the straight and narrow. Maybe life is worth living after all..

[Webberino]

(Original post by Anonymous)
You could try and make up the missed lecture with doing other work? Might help the guilt.
If he doesn't usually then the chances of him doing one today are very low

My English teacher chose my barely written answer to read to the class. He wasn't at all bothered that it wasn't finished, he just handed it back to me and said it wasn't finished. Must definitely do his homework this week.

Will try that, he should be putting the notes up online in a few days. When he came into the problem class straight after the lecture he did look at me and I was worried he realised but then he was nice to me when he needed to squeeze past me () so he didn't seem mad anyway. Going to try to go to his office hour tomorrow morning about the question I was stuck on.
Handed in harder module work, couldn't do all of last question, but overall it was alright. My advisor wasn't in his office and now he's away til Friday so guess will have to ask about exam timetable then.
Had meeting with mental health advisor, don't know why I get so anxious and hardly say anything when I see him, he's really nice. He said he was going to see if he could get me more time in the exams, would feel guilty though, don't think I need it. Just need more time between now and exams starting!
He was asking if there were any people I spoke to online then he asked what the site was called. Got a little paranoid he was going to find this and everything I'd written, particularly regarding mentor.


He sounds quite nice.
How are you today?

[rmhumphries]

Motivation gone. Usually a precursor to my mood dropping. I was enjoying being mostly ok

(Original post by ParadoxSocks)
Just had the email to say my extenuating circumstances appeal was successful! I'll now get first sits in the ones that I missed. Best day ever.

Only problem is they want to have a meeting on the 11th of April and I don't quite know how to say I can't do it without sounding like I don't appreciate everything they do for me.

Good to hear

Just say that you already have plans for that day, and so will be in another part of the country? You can always offer to attempt to rearrange if you really need to, but it would be much much appreciated if you didn't need to.

[avhhs]

(Original post by Phoenix07)
I miss my driving lessons, they were so much fun it's gone 2 now though so hope all of the stuff with the social worker went alright? and hope the work goes ok, sat inside doing my dissertation which sucks on a day as sunny as today

To be honest, what happened was that I stayed behind in school to do ICT, but some people really pissed me off. So I just got up and left, and then "did a runner" (didn't go home). Instead I have gone somewhere else. I think I will return home soon.

I really don't know what to do now. I just don't care about work anymore. I'm going to fail in ICT because I missed out quite a bit, but I just wanted to get away from the situation.

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Again getting thoughts of doing it. Just don't see the point in anything. Just want this torture to end

[Anonymous]

I'm seeing a uni counsellor and today she brought up that she thought I had symptoms of depression...I was aware of it already but to hear it from someone else was scary

[los lobos marinos]

(Original post by Anonymous)
I'm seeing a uni counsellor and today she brought up that she thought I had symptoms of depression...I was aware of it already but to hear it from someone else was scary

Can be positive too. Means you can now put together a plan to reduce the symptoms and improve your quality of life.

[Phoenix07]

(Original post by avhhs)
To be honest, what happened was that I stayed behind in school to do ICT, but some people really pissed me off. So I just got up and left, and then "did a runner" (didn't go home). Instead I have gone somewhere else. I think I will return home soon.

I really don't know what to do now. I just don't care about work anymore. I'm going to fail in ICT because I missed out quite a bit, but I just wanted to get away from the situation.

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Again getting thoughts of doing it. Just don't see the point in anything. Just want this torture to end

Sorry you've had such a rubbish time today hun You are only in your first year of college at the moment though, you have plenty of time to sort stuff out and catch up on the work and stuff! Especially if you talk to your college about everything that is going on at the moment, they are usually pretty good at helping out with things...if you haven't already spoken to them?

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I am really sorry you are thinking about it again huni you have just got to try and stay positive and push through the bad times at the moment! like I said last night you are a lovely lad and things will get better for you at somepoint, you just have to try and wait it out!

Hope you're ok hun

[ViceVersa]

This is what my close friend said to me today "Just forget you're depressed, FORGET you're upset. Just don't think about it. DON'T think at all, don't think about ANYTHING. Just BE" didn't know how to reply to that, nor do I exactly know HOW actually to JUST BE. No but seriously, am I missing something? How do I suddenly turn everything off and go back to JUST BEING. How do I be 'myself', what does it all even mean?

[los lobos marinos]

(Original post by ViceVersa)
This is what my close friend said to me today "Just forget you're depressed, FORGET you're upset. Just don't think about it. DON'T think at all, don't think about ANYTHING. Just BE" didn't know how to reply to that, nor do I exactly know HOW actually to JUST BE.

How to just be or how not to just be. That is the real question.

Something for you to consider...

[ViceVersa]

(Original post by los lobos marinos)
How to just be or how not to just be. That is the real question.

Something for you to consider...

That is definitely a question.




Surely if it were that simple I wouldn't be mentally ill? It's like she's forgotten that part and I'm CHOOSING to be this way. Don't really know how I should be feeling tbh.