[avhhs]

(Original post by Phoenix07)
Yer there are couples everywhere it gets me down sometimes to and I am with someone, but it can be really difficult to see other people happy when you aren't!

Well try to ignore all the bad thoughts hun, just keep having fun there

But yer I get chest pains all the time, used to just get them when I had panic attacks but have them all the time now, gets really annoying and stops me doing loads of stuff But yes I think I am looking forward to going back to university but really stressed because I have so much work to do, and everything things more stressful at uni!

Hope you have fun for the rest of your day hun and hope you are staying positive?

Yeah I understand completely, especially the last bit . Sometimes when I see couples I have to try hard to not stare

I'm still having fun. Have to go to a family gathering in a bit. Looking forward to it .

I used to get them all the time too, although recently it just seems mostly limited to panic attacks. Do hope you manage to get your work done .

Got an appointment with the psychiatrist tomorrow .

[McNuggetsAhoy]

(Original post by Sabertooth)
I went to a hearing voices group last week and beforehand I felt a lot like you, I was absolutely terrified and had all kinds of ideas about how it was going to go wrong and everyone would be horrible, but in the end it was actually kind of cool - it went well, and actually made me feel a bit better about stuff. Sure there were weird bits (being lectured about spirits ) but overall everyone was friendly and nice and welcoming and it was pretty good. Basically, it's normal to feel afraid and have these doubts but if you think about it, the other people there probably feel just like you and so everyone is gonna want to make it as easy as possible for everyone else.

Good luck, I'm sure it will go fine and hopefully it will be of some use to you too.

(Original post by superwolf)
Really hope it goes well for you. I'd be nervous too, but like Saber says these things can turn out much better than you expect, and it might actually be a good experience for you.

Thank you both for your messages .

I'm sure it will work out better than I am anticipating at the moment I'm just not that good in social situations with people I don't know.

[headunderwater]

Voices are really bad this evening struggling a bit...

I've had a crap weekend with my family. My mum dragged me to my nans where my whole family were, and some of them were asking where I had been as they hadn't seen me for two years, and my mom says "she's been at university". It's like she's ashamed of me, and ashamed of admitting that I am actually ill so she's in denial instead. I am sick of pretending that I am happy to please others. I am sick of pretending I can cope. If I tell my mum that I'm struggling she tells me to stop being silly and that "there's nothing wrong with you".

I am, however, thoroughly looking forward to next week. I have a feeling it's going to be good

[Sabertooth]

(Original post by 35mm_)
Voices are really bad this evening struggling a bit...

I've had a crap weekend with my family. My mum dragged me to my nans where my whole family were, and some of them were asking where I had been as they hadn't seen me for two years, and my mom says "she's been at university". It's like she's ashamed of me, and ashamed of admitting that I am actually ill so she's in denial instead. I am sick of pretending that I am happy to please others. I am sick of pretending I can cope. If I tell my mum that I'm struggling she tells me to stop being silly and that "there's nothing wrong with you".

I am, however, thoroughly looking forward to next week. I have a feeling it's going to be good

Does anything help with the voices? I find listening to my favorite music loud as hell and singing along helps to overpower them, have you tried that? Or what works best for me is talking to people, over skype or in person or the phone or anything, it really helps me.

When I was in hospital my mum told every single relative where I was, I could've killed her for it. But you shouldn't hide things if you don't want to, if you want to be honest and break down some of the stigma that's great you should do that. It sounds like your mum isn't particularly supportive, or perhaps she's just in denial. Have you tried getting a doctor to speak to her? Perhaps that might help.

[Anonymous]

(Original post by Webberino)
Thanks

I'm sure you're not, just maybe when you actually see it written down it shocks you a bit. I'm sure there's no one way to do it, sure it will be fine.
Ah we all have those days

It could be, I didn't think about it like that, thanks.
Over the last few days I've started feeling guilty when I'm hungry and trying to ignore it. I don't feel that guilty when I eat so I can't understand why I feel guilty for being hungry. For the first time in my life I woke up feeling hungry this morning. Probably doesn't help that I'm substituting food for cups of tea either, must stop that.

[superwolf]

Finished my entry for the Easter baking competition. KMN: the game is on.

(Original post by 35mm_)
Voices are really bad this evening struggling a bit...

I've had a crap weekend with my family. My mum dragged me to my nans where my whole family were, and some of them were asking where I had been as they hadn't seen me for two years, and my mom says "she's been at university". It's like she's ashamed of me, and ashamed of admitting that I am actually ill so she's in denial instead. I am sick of pretending that I am happy to please others. I am sick of pretending I can cope. If I tell my mum that I'm struggling she tells me to stop being silly and that "there's nothing wrong with you".

I am, however, thoroughly looking forward to next week. I have a feeling it's going to be good

Wish I could help make things less crappy for you... I think Saber's given you some pretty good advice there, and remember that you shouldn't be ashamed of having been in hospital or being mentally ill (last year I told a restaurant full of my Russian coursemates that I'd been in mental hospital, and it was ****ing priceless. It's actually really liberating just being honest and not pretending stuff to people. You'll inevitably get some people who won't want to know you because of it, but you've got to weed out the numskulls somehow ).

(Original post by Sabertooth)
Does anything help with the voices? I find listening to my favorite music loud as hell and singing along helps to overpower them, have you tried that? Or what works best for me is talking to people, over skype or in person or the phone or anything, it really helps me.

When I was in hospital my mum told every single relative where I was, I could've killed her for it. But you shouldn't hide things if you don't want to, if you want to be honest and break down some of the stigma that's great you should do that. It sounds like your mum isn't particularly supportive, or perhaps she's just in denial. Have you tried getting a doctor to speak to her? Perhaps that might help.

You got skype working?

[headunderwater]

(Original post by Sabertooth)
Does anything help with the voices? I find listening to my favorite music loud as hell and singing along helps to overpower them, have you tried that? Or what works best for me is talking to people, over skype or in person or the phone or anything, it really helps me.

When I was in hospital my mum told every single relative where I was, I could've killed her for it. But you shouldn't hide things if you don't want to, if you want to be honest and break down some of the stigma that's great you should do that. It sounds like your mum isn't particularly supportive, or perhaps she's just in denial. Have you tried getting a doctor to speak to her? Perhaps that might help.

Thanks. Music helps a little. So does skyping people. My mum refuses to speak to any professionals. Even though I was in a mental hospital for two years there's still (apparently) nothing wrong with me

[Anonymous]

(Original post by superwolf)
Finished my entry for the Easter baking competition. KMN: the game is on.

Oh wow, they look delicious. Well done!

Are you going to hand them out?

[Sabertooth]

(Original post by superwolf)
You got skype working?

Nope, it was an example.

Your competition entry looks delicious....*drool* Good luck.

(Original post by 35mm_)
Thanks. Music helps a little. So does skyping people. My mum refuses to speak to any professionals. Even though I was in a mental hospital for two years there's still (apparently) nothing wrong with me

Hmm, that sucks. Have you thought about maybe trying to have a chat with her about it, reading up about what's wrong first so you can inform her? Or get her leaflets and leave them lying around.

Although I guess if she's that stubborn nothing is gonna help which really sucks.

I can't imagine how hard it must be to not have the support of your mother but stay strong and don't believe her, sometimes parents really don't know best.

[ViceVersa]

I've just had enough of this

[Nut.]

Been reading over the last few pages and sending massive to everybody.

Touch wood I'm still doing ok at the moment, although I'm about to go to a Social Event.
Think the most nerve-wracking part will be the half hour walk through town to get there.

[Webberino]

(Original post by Anonymous)
It could be, I didn't think about it like that, thanks.
Over the last few days I've started feeling guilty when I'm hungry and trying to ignore it. I don't feel that guilty when I eat so I can't understand why I feel guilty for being hungry. For the first time in my life I woke up feeling hungry this morning. Probably doesn't help that I'm substituting food for cups of tea either, must stop that.

Aren't minds annoying things! Hope that feeling doesn't last.
My brother and his girlfriend are over for dinner, don't know whether to get on with some work or go downstairs and be sociable. One question in two days is not a good start.

[Anonymous]

Hey guys,

I'll try to make this kind of brief...I was diagnosed with OCD about a year and a half ago - mainly Obsessions. I had CBT and a really great therapist who helped me get over my OCD - pretty much completely. I am so amazed I've been helped to such an extent, and really grateful for the therapist I had.
Throughout this OCD, I had a persistent low mood, which was not the main priority of treatment. I went to university in 2011 after 2 gap years, and I did not have time to focus CBT on my depression which was a bit of a bummer.
Anyway, I was really nervous about uni as everyone is - but it is great - I have a good house, my course is OK, I did well in exams etc - everything is going in my favour.

I have always hidden my low moods and depression to the extent where even my best friends would think I was joking if I said 'I have depression...' I am always the lofe and soul of the party, always cracking jokes and being funny (so I'm told - sounds quite arrogant typing that...!)
However, during December, my depression was really bad, revising for exams was a real struggle and I was constantly worrying about everything and anything.

This depression led me to visit my GP during the Christmas break from uni and he recommended I start a course of anti-depressants - I was initially put on 50mg Sertraline and got near enough every side effect - low appetite, insomnia, inability to maintain an erection and difficulty reaching orgasm, headaches, sweats etc etc. I knew what to expect and was OK with these side effects as long as after a few weeks I noticed a difference in mood.
It took around 4-5 weeks for my mood to lift which was great - because the drug has to accumulate in your system, it seems like a long and lengthy process and in my particular case, I was sat down and just thought..."hey... I actually feel quite OK, and have done for a few days now!"
This lasted for around 2 weeks which was good. Then I noticed my mood beginning to decline to it's previous depressive state. I went back to my uni GP and he suggested doubling the dose to 100mg Sertraline.
So I've been on 100mg for approximately 2-3 weeks now, again, I experienced all the side effects and still have trouble reaching orgasm and maintaining an erection.

I'm at home for Easter and I feel really low and down now and just don't know what to do with myself. The weather is good and I should be outside having a nice time, but I just don't feel like it... I'm not at the stage of suicidal ideation which I have never felt before, but I just feel hopeless, low, down and yup, DEPRESSED.



Sorry for the long post...

[superwolf]

(Original post by Anonymous)
Oh wow, they look delicious. Well done!

Are you going to hand them out?

Nah, I'm gonna trade them with my sister's friend for a free haircut.

(Original post by ViceVersa)
I've just had enough of this

It does get better, honest.

(Original post by Nut.)
Been reading over the last few pages and sending massive to everybody.

Touch wood I'm still doing ok at the moment, although I'm about to go to a Social Event.
Think the most nerve-wracking part will be the half hour walk through town to get there.

Ooh, social! Have fun, and be sure and play nice with the other children.

[ViceVersa]

(Original post by superwolf)
It does get better, honest.

I really hope you're right.

Yours look so cute and awesome (your entry)!

[ViceVersa]

Entered myself into the competition like Superwolf did http://www.thestudentroom.co.uk/show...1#post36962121 xx

It was a good distraction while it lasted, left with my thoughts now..

[FuzzySheep]

(Original post by ViceVersa)
Entered myself into the competition like Superwolf did http://www.thestudentroom.co.uk/show...1#post36962121 xx

That looks amazing! I'm sure it was very yummy

I hope you're okay xx

[Anonymous]

(Original post by Webberino)
Aren't minds annoying things! Hope that feeling doesn't last.
My brother and his girlfriend are over for dinner, don't know whether to get on with some work or go downstairs and be sociable. One question in two days is not a good start.

They are indeed! Thanks

Perhaps go downstairs for a bit then edge your way upstairs to do some? Or take it to your mum's caravan with you. Although it probably do you good to go away and not think about uni for a few days.

(Original post by superwolf)
Nah, I'm gonna trade them with my sister's friend for a free haircut.

B-but they look so tasty...

[Phoenix07]

(Original post by avhhs)
Yeah I understand completely, especially the last bit . Sometimes when I see couples I have to try hard to not stare

I'm still having fun. Have to go to a family gathering in a bit. Looking forward to it .

I used to get them all the time too, although recently it just seems mostly limited to panic attacks. Do hope you manage to get your work done .

Got an appointment with the psychiatrist tomorrow .

Haha yer I know what you mean I am the same some times does always make me sad seeing happy couples though, think my bf could probably have something like that if he wasn't with someone like me!

But good I am glad you are having fun still still failing miserably at getting work done take it you have steered clear of poking random girls today as well?

hope the appointment goes alright tomorrow huni

[ViceVersa]

(Original post by FuzzySheep)
That looks amazing! I'm sure it was very yummy

I hope you're okay xx

Thank you! Yes it was quite nice

I hope you are too xx