[headunderwater]

Worst week of my life.

[headunderwater]

On Monday night I came home a bit drunk. My mum went mad. There was some fuss about me leaving my laptop on and my family reading my emails. My sister slapped me round the face so I left the house and was obviously upset. I then laid down in the middle of a main road wanting to be run over. Loads of cars just went round me, but one car stopped, dragged me to the side of the road and called the police. The police came and 136'd me. Took me to a police cell and strip searched me. It was horrible. They then transferred me to A&E where I had to wait 6 hours for home treatment and a doctor to come out to see me, they eventually did and did the whole "if you don't come with us we'll section you", so I agreed to go voluntarily. The hospital was horrible, it was a mixed ward and I hated it. I didn't take my medication and ended up smashing the dining room up. I discharged myself against medical advice last night. I was very nearly sectioned but I agreed to a few conditions: that I see HT everyday and take my medication.

[avhhs]

(Original post by Phoenix07)
sorry my laptop battery died last night! I put my head phones in with loud music on though and managed to get some sleep

sorry about that, would have been nice to have a proper conversation! But seriously just say hi anytime and I am sure we'll get a conversation going, we have been talking on here for like a week or so now so I am sure we would come up with something to say

Hope you are feeling alright this morning though huni

Never mind, at least you had some sleep. I only slept about 2 hours ago, and woke up just now . Did manage to do a little bit of work though

Thanks . Have to go somewhere in a bit so it will have to be later

I'm feeling OK :/

[avhhs]

(Original post by 35mm_)
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That is horrific. I was literally when I read that. At least your safe right now . Please look after yourself

[thatsthebadger93]

(Original post by 35mm_)
On Monday night I came home a bit drunk. My mum went mad. There was some fuss about me leaving my laptop on and my family reading my emails. My sister slapped me round the face so I left the house and was obviously upset. I then laid down in the middle of a main road wanting to be run over. Loads of cars just went round me, but one car stopped, dragged me to the side of the road and called the police. The police came and 136'd me. Took me to a police cell and strip searched me. It was horrible. They then transferred me to A&E where I had to wait 6 hours for home treatment and a doctor to come out to see me, they eventually did and did the whole "if you don't come with us we'll section you", so I agreed to go voluntarily. The hospital was horrible, it was a mixed ward and I hated it. I didn't take my medication and ended up smashing the dining room up. I discharged myself against medical advice last night. I was very nearly sectioned but I agreed to a few conditions: that I see HT everyday and take my medication.

So sorry things are **** right now. 136s are awful and strip searches when you already feel vulnerable are horrible Hopefully the HT team will help and maybe they can do a medication review as from the sounds of it whatever you're on now isn't really doing much for you. Have you got friends that could come over and see you? Just so that the only people you see aren't the HT, although having said that you might not really feel like seeing other people I guess. Anyway, I hope you're ok and you can stay safe at home.

[timeandacrayon]

Hello
i've just been diagnosed with depression and severe anxiety with my a levels coming up in a few weeks. I've been put on medication but thats probably not going to work for about a month and i'm going to go to talking therapy but not for at least three weeks.
At the moment I feel like I can't do anything and I think that i'm going to fail my a levels, i've looked a special consideration but it feels like cheating and anyway it dosen't seem like they consider problems with depression and anxiety.
I don't really know what to do and have noone to talk to although I probably wouldn't be able to tell them that I felt anything other than fine. I thought for ages I was depressed whilst the doctor bloodtested me for everything because I couldn't tell her I was miserable, in the end my Mum told her.
Thanks for reading it feels nice to have a community out there somewhere.

[Anonymous]

(Original post by Webberino)
Yay it's all on 4od! Sounds awesome!
I've never had pop tarts
Only discovered what they were about a year ago.
Sleep was rather difficult again, I can no longer breathe through my nose.

Ah right, good luck with it.
Can understand that. I'm sure it's just a matter of time.

Spoiler:

Show

That's brilliant!
Really glad you're managing to fight it, hope you can keep it up.

You should watch it, it was great!
They're so good
Oh dear Hope it clears up soon

Thanks

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Suddenly not so brilliant. After posting that I felt really guilty so ended the 5 day streak. It lead to more guilt so I didn't gain anything tbh

[Phoenix07]

(Original post by avhhs)
Never mind, at least you had some sleep. I only slept about 2 hours ago, and woke up just now . Did manage to do a little bit of work though

Thanks . Have to go somewhere in a bit so it will have to be later

I'm feeling OK :/

owh well its good that you managed to get some work done, but sorry you didn't manage to get much sleep and aren't feeling too good this morning by the sounds

On my way home on the train in a minute so may not be online till later this evening anyway! But always up for a chat

Hope you're feeling better soon though

[Phoenix07]

(Original post by 35mm_)
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that all sounds really horrible and traumatic hun always here if you want to talk about anything, but hope you are alright and look after yourself

[avhhs]

(Original post by Phoenix07)
owh well its good that you managed to get some work done, but sorry you didn't manage to get much sleep and aren't feeling too good this morning by the sounds

On my way home on the train in a minute so may not be online till later this evening anyway! But always up for a chat

Hope you're feeling better soon though

I'm still feeling ill

Have fun! I'm off somewhere in a bit too, so its unlikely I'll be online till later (unless I want to drain my phone's battery ). Looking forward to talking to you though

[SciFiRory]

(Original post by 35mm_)
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heya, read your post here, I am sorry to hear you are having such a hard time at the moment you seem like a really nice person so if you ever need to talk feel free to PM me or even just post on my wall I really hope you start to feel better soon and things get better for you!

[headunderwater]

(Original post by SciFiBoy)
heya, read your post here, I am sorry to hear you are having such a hard time at the moment you seem like a really nice person so if you ever need to talk feel free to PM me or even just post on my wall I really hope you start to feel better soon and things get better for you!

I can't stop crying. Everything is just falling apart.

[thatsthebadger93]

Feel like I'm about to break down and cry right now. I'd spent the last few days so on edge barely getting any sleep, then after Wednesday night everything just feels so unreal. I was awake for 42 hours straight, not really being in any position to sleep on Wednesday night and have only had 7 hours sleep over the last 54 hours, so maybe the reason it doesn't feel real is just lack of sleep. I was genuinely shocked when I woke up this morning, it was a surprise that I was still here.
Got things to do that I'd not even thought about because,well, it seemed pointless. Fun, fun,fun...

[SciFiRory]

(Original post by 35mm_)
I can't stop crying. Everything is just falling apart.

crying sucks! do you have any support you can access or people you talk to when things are bad? wish I could do something to help!

[headunderwater]

(Original post by SciFiBoy)
crying sucks! do you have any support you can access or people you talk to when things are bad? wish I could do something to help!

Home treatment came about an hour ago but my mum insisted on being there so I couldn't really speak to them she's making them come round when she's in the house which makes things difficult because i can't be honest.

[SciFiRory]

(Original post by 35mm_)
Home treatment came about an hour ago but my mum insisted on being there so I couldn't really speak to them she's making them come round when she's in the house which makes things difficult because i can't be honest.

oh, that sucks, mm, have you tried telling her you want to talk to them alone? if you just need to talk to someone, you could maybe call Samaritans or something like that from your room? or maybe speak to your GP? :/

[bullettheory]

(Original post by Aemiliana)
Thanks. I sort of trust myself enough right now to get through today. Work helps me because it means I have to be somewhere - I'm kind of looking forward to going in tonight just because it keeps me occupied. I don't have the crisis team numbers, but the nice GP yesterday gave me some helpline numbers.

Hey sorry took me so long to reply. Call the helplines if you need to - plus the Samaritans are really, plus you can also text them if you didn't want to talk aloud. If you need to talk today, im around all day.

[warp2125]

(Original post by 35mm_)
Home treatment came about an hour ago but my mum insisted on being there so I couldn't really speak to them she's making them come round when she's in the house which makes things difficult because i can't be honest.

Hey, you sound like your having a rough time of things again. Wish I knew what to say to help out... will be thinking of ya.

[Aemiliana]

(Original post by bullettheory)
Hey sorry took me so long to reply. Call the helplines if you need to - plus the Samaritans are really, plus you can also text them if you didn't want to talk aloud. If you need to talk today, im around all day.

Don't worry! I'm not really up for calling or texting really. It would just be crying haha. Thanks. Hope you're doing well.

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I don't really know how to tell my uni that I'm getting worse and this really important essay won't be in on time. I don't think I was this bad last time.

[Nut.]

(Original post by laut_biru)
Good plan.

Are you able to get on msn? (Don't worry if not)

Sorry, wasn't able to, was on my phone at that point.

I think I've lost my old ally (my brother) over Easter

He just went out and said "see you later, have a good weekend". Sounds ominously like I'm being left alone with one bullying parent, one stressed parent, one dementia-ed (it's a word) grandparent.

I want a boyfriend I can swan off to visit at weekends (although I don't envy the 12 day separations that they have).