[avhhs]

Had a very mixed day. First I had an appointment with social services, which was really boring.Once I got home, I went Westfield with my dad and my brother. It was really stressful and tiring . Now I'm in bed. My brother is now sharing the room with me . I really want my own room. What 17-year old shares a bedroom? No work touched today .

The good thing is that I didn't have a nap earlier, but right now in bed I'm sweating a lot for some reason. It's got new covers, and I don't want to mess them up .

Tomorrow is Friday, and its probably going to be really boring

[Phoenix07]

(Original post by dani_88)


At least you went, and ate something, and coped

Don't be so hard on yourself about it, because if it were that easy for you to just "pull yourself together" then you wouldn't choose to be suffering from this craphole of an illness.

Thanks really appreciate the support, just all really gets me down sometimes

[dani_88]

Blargh. Guessing I won't be sleeping much tonight either

[ViceVersa]

(Original post by dani_88)
Blargh. Guessing I won't be sleeping much tonight either

[AntisthenesDogger]

Anyone else can't sleep?

[FuzzySheep]

Was lovely to meet people on Tuesday, am looking forward to the next meet I have to say I feel a lot less anonymous on here now though :P

At the moment, I'd like some sort of magical switch which would stop me thinking for enough time to stop crying and get to bed. CBT appointment tomorrow, tempted to just not go because I'm not getting anything out of it at all. I've been trying to stick to things but most things just don't work for me personally.

[warp2125]

(Original post by Phoenix07)
thanks all really appreciate the help!
And they were some good ideas might have to try the money one for next time, guess I hadn't really though of that
Was helpful thanks warp just nice to actually be able to say these things, no one IRL knows any of it!

possible ED stuff

Mega congratz for actually going... and having a nibble..... considering what you have been going through this is an awesome achievement.

Take a moment and be damn proud of yourself.

[ParadoxSocks]

Was really awesome meeting everyone. Would be great to have another adventure soon. I think there was talk of maybe an Alton Towers trip? We could get cheap group tickets and everything!

In other news: my girlfriend's uncle has been taken really ill and it's not looking too good - had to leave everyone in Birmingham yesterday with about 10 minutes notice (sorry guys!). My girlfriend and her parents are going on holiday tomorrow morning and they were going with her uncle and aunt but now they're not going so they've invited me. Really want to go but don't know if I can handle a week of being sane at the moment and it feels really weird to be taking the place of somebody who's really ill. Still feeling pretty mneh from the tiredness/mirt sickness/general existence.

[Webberino]

(Original post by Anonymous)
Mum was home from work at 5 it wasn't too bad.

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Your brother sounds like he can be a bit of a nobber sometimes I can imagine, you think she wouldn't be so ignorant.

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Snacking isn't really a problem, it's just sometimes I go as long as I can without food or little food then binge. I don't think it's too much of a problem tbh, I always have at least one meal made for me a day so I'll eat that to avoid questions from the mother.

Ah good
Are there other people home today?

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He definitely can. Yeah that's it I think.

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Ah ok, maybe you could mention it to the psychiatrist if it gets any worse.

Driving lesson then grandma's, don't think I'm going to get much work done today.

[geetar]

Woken up feeling Really depressed (it's always worse in the morning for some reason). I've also got my follow up appointment with my GP for having been a week on Sertraline.

[avhhs]

Not having a good morning . Can't stop thinking about how good my life would be if I had a girlfriend. Just sick and tired of being single. I've never even been on a date . Just want to be like everyone else. I don't want to be alone. I just want to be happy

Hope everyone else is OK

[dani_88]

(Original post by geetar)
Woken up feeling Really depressed (it's always worse in the morning for some reason). I've also got my follow up appointment with my GP for having been a week on Sertraline.

Feeling worse in the morning seems to be fairly common. How have you found the sertraline? (im on day two of my antidepressants and had some strange ish side effects already) I hope your doctors appointment goes ok

[CherryCherryBoomBoom]

(Original post by avhhs)
Not having a good morning . Can't stop thinking about how good my life would be if I had a girlfriend. Just sick and tired of being single. I've never even been on a date . Just want to be like everyone else. I don't want to be alone. I just want to be happy

Hope everyone else is OK

I'm not too good at advising with this stuff, but this does seem like a rather common problem amongst young people (and I've also been there). You're only young and it's not too worth getting upset about it at your age, as especially since most teen relationships don't last anyway. Just concentrate on you and the right girl will come along eventually

[Phoenix07]

(Original post by warp2125)
Mega congratz for actually going... and having a nibble..... considering what you have been going through this is an awesome achievement.

Take a moment and be damn proud of yourself.

thanks for that actually made me smile this morning! Guess it is hard to see it as an achievement because I know the battle will just continue today, but I will try to be vaguely impressed with myself!
Thanks really does mean a lot hope you are ok though hun?

(Original post by avhhs)
Not having a good morning . Can't stop thinking about how good my life would be if I had a girlfriend. Just sick and tired of being single. I've never even been on a date . Just want to be like everyone else. I don't want to be alone. I just want to be happy

Hope everyone else is OK

hope you're ok huni! ( think you might be annoyed if I just keep telling you it'll get better soon and keep your chin up till uni so I will just stick to a hug)

[CherryCherryBoomBoom]

On the advice of a couple of DepSoc members, I decided I will go to the GP once again about my possible depression and try harder to get it tackled once and for all. I have my appointment for next Wednesday morning, so let's hope I don't chicken out before then

[avhhs]

(Original post by CherryCherryBoomBoom)
I'm not too good at advising with this stuff, but this does seem like a rather common problem amongst young people (and I've also been there). You're only young and it's not too worth getting upset about it at your age, as especially since most teen relationships don't last anyway. Just concentrate on you and the right girl will come along eventually

Can't think of how to reply to that, so fair enough

(Original post by Phoenix07)
hope you're ok huni! ( think you might be annoyed if I just keep telling you it'll get better soon and keep your chin up till uni so I will just stick to a hug)

No i'm ok

Was really happy to hear that your date went good

Even if Facebook triggered me afterwards

Anyway, brought a pack of 36 jaffa cakes yesterday, and really need to stop myself from finishing all of them in one go . Already had quite a few yesterday .

Meanwhile, no homework whatsoever was done

[geetar]

(Original post by dani_88)


Feeling worse in the morning seems to be fairly common. How have you found the sertraline? (im on day two of my antidepressants and had some strange ish side effects already) I hope your doctors appointment goes ok

Apart from feeling sick, absolutely no effects whatsoever I'll tell the doc, but it's only been a week, and I gather it takes about a month for any effect.

Have a reciprocal hug

[CUFCDan]

Hi,

Guess might as well join in the self-deprecating :P

I'm diagnosed with 'anxiety' but it falls into depression sometimes. Generally manifests itself in panicking in social situations (even though I go out a lot) and thinking something terrible has happened/will happen. Often I refuse to go out for days or feel ill when I do. And - like most - the feeling that everything is pointless etc; usually because, rather than I feel I have no point, I don't give a damn about most things society strives towards: material gain, superficial things. Thus, getting paid, buying things, going out, getting a degree for a job and so on just doesn't appeal to me, leaving me quite helpless.

So hi.

[bullettheory]

(Original post by CherryCherryBoomBoom)
On the advice of a couple of DepSoc members, I decided I will go to the GP once again about my possible depression and try harder to get it tackled once and for all. I have my appointment for next Wednesday morning, so let's hope I don't chicken out before then

Well done, that's a really good positive step. I hope it all goes well If you are anything like me, you may forget what you want to say once you get in there, so maybe write down what you want to say before hand so you don't forget things once you get in there. Try and be as honest as possible

[CherryCherryBoomBoom]

(Original post by bullettheory)
Well done, that's a really good positive step. I hope it all goes well If you are anything like me, you may forget what you want to say once you get in there, so maybe write down what you want to say before hand so you don't forget things once you get in there. Try and be as honest as possible

Thanks . Yeah, I have actually written a lot of my problems on various TSR posts in the past couple of years (because I seem to find it easy talking to strangers online about this rather than to people IRL ), and I've thought about seeking some of them out and compiling them into some sort of note to print out and show to my doctor. Or would it be better if I just kept the note for myself to read out and/or refer to instead of showing it to the doctor?