Depression Society MKVI

this, I feel so **** as a result. I wish I went back in time, and actually just worked hard.

Alright, well, have you been diagnosed as depressed? If not perhaps go talk to your GP, if yes then submit a mitigating circumstances form and your uni should let you resit the exams if you have indeed failed.

Cheer up. You've still got a life ahead of you- seek independence. This reminds of a programme I was watching the other day, I think it was the real housewives of Vancouver and one said what motivates to build the empire she had and rich lifestyle, was money at the end.

Plan was to complete a problem sheet today and I'm on Q3 of 12.

Seriously pissed off with my so called friends, they're such dicks towards me and I am barely ever called out for anything anymore. Please tell me uni is better where I can make better friends.

I am volunteering. In fact I have a lot of work experience. It seem pointless and I haven't seen any fruits so far.
I am plannig to do a post-grad..

You are probably better looking than me. 'eck even 93 year old shrek look a like is better lukin than me.

Ahh ok.. cool beans.

Business is not all that hard...there are alot of bits about it I like... cant say I get on with my class mates alot though... there seem to be going through a stage where there all sleeping with each other. Maybe its a new form of networking?..lol

We have just done management accounting.... ZOMG it was awful...I swear by the time the lecture was over you honestly felt like you had a hangover.

So what do you think you will do when you finish uni?...

I'm getting really frustrated now. I was out with friends for the day and I had to come back early because I couldn't cope with the voices making me anxious and scared. Was planning to go out to a club tonight but can't do that now. Stupid ****ing olanzapine not working and useless ****ing psychiatrist won't change it

Hope you're all well!

Is olanzapine the first antipsychotic you've tried? Sometimes it takes a while to find one that works. You need to be insistent with your psychiatrist that it's not working. Make sure they know how you feel and how atm the voices are having a lot of control over your life. Sometimes they just don't realize how **** things are so they don't much care about changing meds.

No, I've been on quetiapine before but it did nothing. I've been insistent to everybody on my team. I broke down in front of home treatment this morning because of the voices, but they're saying i'm too young to be put on another AP (to compliment the olanzapine), and they think if they took me off the olanzapine completely then i'd completely crash.

How weird. Your profile says you're 20, when I was 20 I had already tried several antipsychotics, I dunno where they get the idea you're too young from. Sometimes the best thing is a mixture of typical and atypical working on different receptors, that's what works for me anyway. They might be right about the olanzapine sometimes they don't seem to work but if you stop them all hell breaks loose so it's not always a good idea to stop. Are you seeing the early intervention team? That might be something to ask about if this is your first episode of psychosis, they do intensive treatment and have more idea about antipsychotics so might be able to help you more.

They just seriously have no idea how distressing voices are. Have asked about the EIT but this isn't my first experience of psychosis so they couldn't refer me. Had my first psychotic breakdown three years ago. It got better and now it has got much worse.

You still did some though, better than not bothering! 12 questions on long maths questions would mess anybodys head up and you did the best you could.

Thanks, it didn't go well but never mind.

Yeah, you're right, I remember getting told stuff like have a bath, or think of a happy place and it's just like riiiiiight er...no. I used to self-harm to deal with mine too, it was the only way to get a break but, I dunno if you've tried this, but I found if I play my favorite music super loud and sing to it it does help block them out and because it's my favorite music also tends to make me feel a bit happier too. Sorry if you've tried that or if it sounds stupid to you. Although that wouldn't really help you with your friends. Have you told your friends you hear voices? Something else I find that helps is getting a hug and talking constantly to people, about whatever **** you can think of. Trying to ignore them doesn't work, but talking about how high the ceiling is and how I think the carpet would look better 2 shades lighter helps me deal with them. Er...yeah sorry if this is useless advice, just trying to help