Depression Society MKVI

Oh right... now I get it. Im glad I to be of assistance, Hows your evening shaping up?

Ok that sounds really bad. Is there anyone there you can go to now? another family member? Friend? If you don`t want your mom hear you using phone you can text or something.

Haha awesome. Just so you know, I won't stop pestering you until you make me assistant...

That sounds really tough.
I can't be too much use there I don't think. I just tend to smoke more around unhappy anniversaries...

Yeah I'm not too bad. Had a couple of rough days because my mum has been exercising her let's-insult-my-daughter muscles, but my mood hasn't taken too much of a hit thankfully.
I've been spending lots of quality time with my budgie. He likes sitting on my shoulder and trying to make a nest in my hair .

Trying to avoid him.
Will do, hope the man doesn't mind waiting a few days for a reply.

don't know who I would text, people would probably just ignore me anyway.

You don`t know if you don`t try. Really. Just because you feel worthless does not mean other people see you as one!

And at least there is some kind of professional emergency numbers you can call to. Or even emergency clinics you can just go to right now to get treated.

If you are 23 you are free to call/whatever you wish. Yes I can believe how difficult it is with difficult mother, and suffering from mental problems makes dealing with difficult people even harder.
You and your mother can not talk about all your problems?

Han inadvertently called me fat earlier. She was after her clothes size in a shop and said something about them not having 'normal' sizes. Her size 18 miserable ass girlfriend standing right next to her and she complains that they don't have 'normal' sizes - none of them being ones that'd fit me.

And then I got upset and said something along the lines of "I'll dive into the sea" and she'd be sorry. And she just said 'go on then' and all day it's just like her little digs, although playful have been super hurtful.

And I just accidentally knocked a glass over and she shouted at me as though I planned to get blackcurrant over our fricking holiday house's cream rug. I cleaned it up and now I'm sitting crying on my bed. She's on the next bed over talking to her stupid tumblr friends as I sit here thinking of excuses to lock myself in the bathroom to relapse.

I feel dreadful and there's a weather warning out. The harbour we're next to has put it's sea defences in place and the pier has been closed. It would take so little to just walk out there to be washed away and her life wouldn't be burdened with stupid clumsy shy fat me.

I can talk to her she just doesn't understand and starts saying im being selfish or suggesting stupid ideas that won't help or just generally being OTT and annoying, I don't want to talk to my mum, I would rather be able to talk to a friend or something but can't so meh.

Please, try to talk to a friend. It seems like you have them, at least what I understand. Even if it feels like they do not care they probably do.
Just try to reach out. There is nothing to loose right now anyways.

people don't reply to my texts or messages on facebook though...the only people who seem to reply is on here and even then not always

Haven't given my homework a thought tonight, I'll just have to do it in form tomorrow.

Well if he does mind he doesn't have much of a choice about the wait so he can suck it

Having you as my assistant would do wonders for football. Equality etc (Plus you're awesome, aside from being an ******** Arsenal fan. )

My lungs are probably caked in tar. I've been averaging 200 a fortnight - that is not good at all. That's 10 packs in 14 days, so about 15 a day, give or take a couple. I've switched to smoking roll-ups as well as straights now, saves me a fair amount of money, which is going towards my two weeks on a medditeranean (can't be bothered to check if that spelling is correct, it works phoenetically, that'll do) island and sip mojhitos in peace and quiet after the exams fund. Then I'll build a robot to blow **** up, then I'll do my football coaching :P

Ah, parents suck sometimes, they really do. My dad hasn't bothered to contact me for a month. Granted he's been busy working, but that's not an excuse, I'm his only son and for that matter, probably his only friend lol.

Glad you have something to keep you company at least. My nan had a budgie once and it had an awful habit of sitting on her head, taking a crap and then sodding off again.

Edit: Damned swearfilter ruined my Arsenal joke. Curses, foiled again.

You're right, I am an awesome Arsenal fan

Haha yeah that is quuuite a lot to be smoking. My parents disapprove to I haven't had once since Thursday. On roll ups myself atm - treated myself to a pack in London but it set me back almost £9!
Holiday sounds nice though.

Maybe you should drop him a text or leave him a message to remind him?

And yeah Ozzy does that sometimes too, just usually to my mum and not be (smart little thing he is ).

Ah well, can't be helped with what you've been going through.

I suppose so
Really losing hope with harder module, there's so much to remember. Exam 2 weeks away.

First follow up appointment tomorrow.. Is it just basic questions and what not to see how I'm getting on? They don't go changing your meds or upping doses or anything this early on do they?