[avhhs]

My lack of posts indicates that I'm having an amazing day . First day in a while that I haven't felt on edge about doing something I regret . Had no school this morning because if a burst water main (not that I mind as it meant not doing any mock exams )

For everyone else

[Sabertooth]

(Original post by Holamigo)
Fed up!!
Last year i was on citalopram and put on 10 lbs - ate the same and maybe exercised a little less than normal! I came off it in August 2011 and found the weight SO hard to shift!! (never had any problems losing weight before this) so since then ive lost 10 pounds through exercising 4-5x a week and eating very healthy diet - its been so hard! Then the depression came back and I could hardly eat a thing in the last month- now ive started on zoloft (2weeks tomorrow! And i can feel my boobs are bigger and i look bloated!!! I hate this. Although im not as depressed but putting on weight gets me down!! So i really feel like coming of antidepressants because of this?! i cant win :-(
It annoys me when i tell the doctor about this they brush it off and say 'you probably are happier and eat more' when i know true well i am very strict with my food an exercise!!
Has anyone else found weight gain a problem?!

I put on like 50lbs on olanzapine, I got so fat it was absolutely ridiculous. Also put on a fair amount of weight with mirtazapine, which was annoying as hell.

However, te first time I took quetiapine I put on close to 30lbs however this time I haven't put any weight on so I know it's possible to take these drugs and not put weight one. However I have been going to the gym for 2 hours 6 days a week so the cost of not putting weight on is pretty high. If you're hungry have you tried snacking on stuff like celery and carrot sticks, I found that helps me.

[Sabertooth]

(Original post by avhhs)
My lack of posts indicates that I'm having an amazing day . First day in a while that I haven't felt on edge about doing something I regret . Had no school this morning because if a burst water main (not that I mind as it meant not doing any mock exams )

For everyone else

Did you do that?

Reminds me of that movie Donnie Darko.

[Holamigo]

(Original post by Anonymous)
Hey guys of the Depression Society,

I recently posted the below thread elsewhere in the Mental Health section and ironicly didnt get any replies or help. So I thought Id try her and maybe have better luck. Thanks.

*Dealing with Depression Alone

A few years ago I was diagnosed with depression. Drugs didnt work for me so now I deal with it on my own. I went a gap year last year after dropping out of uni. I was much better while travelling but did have rough patches. Im now back home and have had to move back in with my parents and take my old student job back which I hate. I am always taken for granted there and the place is really sexist. People I trained have been promoted over me despite me have much greater experience and having worked there much longer simply because they are male. Its the only job I can get but it and the people there make me so miserable. Over the last year or so I seem to have lost all my friends and those I made while traveling are all over the world and they never seem interested in keeping in touch. I guess everyones too busy in their own lives.
This week I broke up with my boyfriend of several years after it turned he had been unfaithful, leaving me utterly alone.*

Im really struggling right now. How do others deal with depression by themselves?

I know exactly how you feel!!!!

I've been travelling and was so much more confident and happy with life - I'm almost addicted to holidays and travelling now as I just want to live that way! When I come back home I’m just so miserable actually hate normal life. (I also came back to live with parents) and because you've been away for so long friends around here have moved on and don’t really bother with you as much then as you say, the 'travelling friends' are all across the world and it’s so much effort to keep in touch and they don’t want to know really!
Feel free to PM me if you need a chat

[avhhs]

(Original post by Sabertooth)
Did you do that?

Reminds me of that movie Donnie Darko.

Of course not . I have zero idea about the location of said main .

And I noticed a typo in my previous post

[Holamigo]

(Original post by Sabertooth)
I put on like 50lbs on olanzapine, I got so fat it was absolutely ridiculous. Also put on a fair amount of weight with mirtazapine, which was annoying as hell.

However, te first time I took quetiapine I put on close to 30lbs however this time I haven't put any weight on so I know it's possible to take these drugs and not put weight one. However I have been going to the gym for 2 hours 6 days a week so the cost of not putting weight on is pretty high. If you're hungry have you tried snacking on stuff like celery and carrot sticks, I found that helps me.

50 lbs!!!omg – I was only on citalopram for 5 months but I know if it was any longer I would have just kept piling it on! The doctors come across like weight gain is a minor side effect but thinking that we are actually gaining weight?! It must put us at risk of developing heart disease/diabetes etc..? it can’t be good really can it?!
Glad you haven’t put any weight on the quetiapine this time – how long have you been on it though?
And gym for 2 hours a day :/ I couldn’t possibly keep that up in my life even if I wanted to!! With nursing I’ll be working 12 hour shifts and normally if not on meds I would try and fit in running 3x a week and eat healthy which would normally maintain the weight but there is something in these tablets which just completely slows your metabolism down no matter how healthy you eat or how much exercise you do! :/ I don’t really over snack – Im very strict with my diet!

[SciFiRory]

(Original post by ParadoxSocks)
I just emailed them and got an immediate response that I have been allocated a therapist and they're just sorting out a therapy timetable. Does it really take 4 months to get around to that?

*grumbles*

I don't think anyone in here would disagree that mental health needs better funding. The government will be sorry when we all go stark raving mad and spend our days chewing their ankles.

4 months to do that seems crazy, but is good they seem to be making some progress at least? hopefully they give you an appointment soon!

on TSR I have learnt to take nothing for granted politically my personal view is that they should fund them properly for sure, but like I said before I don't consider this an appropriate thread for a debate on this matter.

[SciFiRory]

(Original post by superwolf)
I would like to offer my sympathies, and also boast that the other week I was quoted a whopping twelve months for waiting for even an initial appointment with a psychologist. Psychiatrist's gonna try some sneakiness and get me a psychologist as my key worker instead though.

a year? wow? that's awful! that's good though if they are gonna help you out

[warp2125]

(Original post by Phoenix07)
Nawh .... thanks for that, was feeling properly **** this evening and that has made my day! I was wondering where that was going at the start, but got quite nice towards the end You aren't shrivelled and bitter though hun, you are lovely and sweet .... but ok then I will allow myself to be the cake in this situation!

You feeling better then huni?

Lol... I have to admit as I was writing it I was wondering how I would dig myself out of the hole I was clearly in.

Yea I'm feeling better.... Dunno why that dream shook me up so much. Still... It's over.... Last for now. Sorry I wasn't able to be there for you today.

[Webberino]

(Original post by Anonymous)
How fascinating!

I'm ok, thanks

Hope you have a good day tomorrow.

Going to try telling my mentor something tomorrow, will probably chicken out but will see.

(Original post by avhhs)
He really does seem to be doing well . Only got 2 frames to win to go into the semi-final .

Semi-final! He should win if he can keep this form up, but never know with Ronnie

[ViceVersa]

Feel to push everyone away and just exist, reside, and be alone.

[Anonymous]

(Original post by Webberino)
Hope you have a good day tomorrow.

Going to try telling my mentor something tomorrow, will probably chicken out but will see.

Thanks, you too

Good luck with it!

[superwolf]

(Original post by ViceVersa)
Feel to push everyone away and just exist, reside, and be alone.

Noooooooooooooooooooooo!


(or at the very least let me send you naked pictures )

[Phoenix07]

(Original post by warp2125)
Lol... I have to admit as I was writing it I was wondering how I would dig myself out of the hole I was clearly in.

Yea I'm feeling better.... Dunno why that dream shook me up so much. Still... It's over.... Last for now. Sorry I wasn't able to be there for you today.

haha well you managed to dig yourself out of calling me a cake quite well

Things can shake us up quite badly every now and again, its just part of life! Hope you don't have any more like that though hun, and I am glad you are feeling better for now!

I'll be fine though, it is nice to be able to be there for you every now and again, although I would obviously much rather you weren't feeling rubbish, but its nice being able to be there for other people too

[jim100]

(Original post by Sabertooth)
Forgive them? Man, there's no way in hell I can forgive those *****. I realize how awful that makes me sound and I know kids do stupid **** but these people weren't kids they were like 17/18 at the end and still doing it. That's well within the age of criminal responsibility. I was diagnosed with avoidant personality disorder, which I'm 100% sure was caused entirely by years of bullying. I can't make friends now, I can hardly leave the house, I can't talk to people, I can't get a job, I'm an inferior human being all because of what these ***** did to me.

If I had my way I would take each of them one by one in a room and torture them slowly and painfully. The guys at Guantanamo would think they got off easy. I would make sure that they suffer even a bit as much as I did from what they did. I realize this makes me sound like a horrible guy but it's how I feel. I'm not a Christian, I don't believe in turning the other cheek, I believe in vengeance.

I actually wanted revenge but was too weak. It did hurt so much and took me a few years to recover and actually start my life. I was down and out and the worse thing about bullying is that no one is there to support you and pick you up. It seems your bullying was at an extreme end. What happened ?

From the way you write you certainly seem you clever and intelligent as well as very coherent in your views. You are not inferior just lacking confidence from your ordeal.

You do have a lot to offer. I have never heard of avoidant personality order. Somehow you need to start picking up the pieces - it will take time but you need to make a start. It took me four years and it was a very gradual process, disappointing I missed the best time of my life but life hasnt been too bad since. I realise you cannot have everything in life. Actually I also believe we all go through one very bad patch in our lifes - me and you have had ours. Lets embrace and enjoy life. All the best

[Nut.]

(Original post by Webberino)
Hope you have a good day tomorrow.

Going to try telling my mentor something tomorrow, will probably chicken out but will see.

Semi-final! He should win if he can keep this form up, but never know with Ronnie

Ronnie O'Sullivan is a snooker GOD (I am in no way attracted to him because of his turbulent past)

[Nut.]

D'you know the best part about being drunk?
Your own face looks more attractive in the mirror. Win.

[Webberino]

(Original post by Nut.)
Ronnie O'Sullivan is a snooker GOD (I am in no way attracted to him because of his turbulent past)

Glad to seem him looking in good shape, was starting to worry he was heading down the Hendry path.
I believe you

[avhhs]

(Original post by Webberino)
Semi-final! He should win if he can keep this form up, but never know with Ronnie

He got through! Do agree with what you said . Hope he wins.

[Nut.]

(Original post by Webberino)

Glad to seem him looking in good shape, was starting to worry he was heading down the Hendry path.
I believe you

There's something about him... a hooked nose promise of something more to come... and an intense vulnerability that I'm a complete sucker for