[Anonymous]

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I never asked for life, is this some kind of cruel joke?

[hannah_dru]

(Original post by outworn)
Best of luck

(Original post by laut_biru)
Sorry to hear about the deaths

Best of luck with everything.

(Original post by Anonymous)
Pretty much echoing what everybody else has said, best of luck with everything

Thank you all!

(Original post by Sabertooth)
Best of luck with everything you do in life.

I've been thinking of leaving for a while but I actually haven't got anything better to do .

Thanks!

I haven't yet as I'm still in the process of organising it all so for me it's just work right now. It didn't really occur to me until a few days ago that I hadn't even been on here!

[Aconcernedparent]

(Original post by hannah_dru)
Thank you all!


Thanks!

I haven't yet as I'm still in the process of organising it all so for me it's just work right now. It didn't really occur to me until a few days ago that I hadn't even been on here!

Best of luck!

Are you a Mentalist fan? It is one of my favourite shows to take my mind off things!

[Nut.]

Watching Goodnight Mister Tom has made me tear up, but in a good way .

I'm on a bit of a nostalgia marathon atm... trying to find all the old tapes I used to listen to as a kid about Ancient Egypt, King Arthur, The Carpet People...

[Anonymous]

There this hole in me, feels like nothing is there.. a void.. I need to fill it with something...

I feel like my existence is useless.. just don't know what to do anymore or how to cope!

[ViceVersa]

(Original post by Anonymous)
There this hole in me, feels like nothing is there.. a void.. I need to fill it with something...

I feel like my existence is useless.. just don't know what to do anymore or how to cope!

not much to say, sorry.

[Anonymous]

(Original post by Anonymous)
I really suck at it to be honest but get what you mean.
Glad you're a little better. Has it gone completely? That's good, hope she sorts them out.

Thanks, should just try to forget about it for now I guess. Concentration is completely gone again, been sat here for 2 hours and done practically nothing. Wednesday things were looking good. Hopefully the medication will sort me out again soon.

Not completely but it isn't what it usually is. I was feeling better but now everything has taken a massive nosedive. Really irritable and had to remove myself from the room before a conversation with my step-dad escalated to an argument regarding his viewing of the final Harry Potter. It's all the stupid things that get to me. I sound like a right bitch when I'm feeling like this.

Hope it returns soon. Yeah, hopefully. If it worked once before I don't see why it can't work again.

[ViceVersa]

Really wish I had a close friend to talk to, given I think I've already lost a main one I had lately.

[Idle]

Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I wish my mood would rise

I kinda want to go back to the ward but it's been snowing so my mum would refuse to drive, buses I doubt are running either

[Anonymous]

Not sure if things like this are allowed to be posted here so mods feel free to delete/move.

I need to decide which college I am going to pretty soon and I have no idea. They both have pros and cons but I can't make a decision between the two. I have made decisions in the past with the assumption I'd be feeling better when I didn't so the outcome wasn't great.

College 1
+ Most of my friends are going there so I wouldn't have to make new friends if I didn't want to
+ Gets great exam results
+ Has a medic society which I would be interested in joining if my GCSE results are up to it
+ Offers Philosophy, an A level I would like to study
+ On the website it says it is always in the top 10 in league tables although I have never seen it

- It's so big, 2000 pupils
- I get the impression it's just an exam factory
- Apparently it's full of pretentious people
- Labs aren't that great
- Quite far away
- I'd probably be just a set of grades to my teachers, there doesn't seem to be much pastoral support

College 2
+ Small college
+ Great pastoral support
+ Weekly hour and a half time with subject teachers in small groups for going over things
+ Quite close
+Facilities all look good

- Would have to make new friends
- Doesn't offer Philosophy
- The people who are going here are the type you don't want to see again post high school
- It's supposedly too much like school, no freedom.

Obviously prestige isn't everything but I'm still not sure. Any suggestions? I just want to go where I'd feel best if I was struggling with work or similar/

[Anonymous]

(Original post by Anonymous)
Not sure if things like this are allowed to be posted here so mods feel free to delete/move.

I need to decide which college I am going to pretty soon and I have no idea. They both have pros and cons but I can't make a decision between the two. I have made decisions in the past with the assumption I'd be feeling better when I didn't so the outcome wasn't great.

College 1
+ Most of my friends are going there so I wouldn't have to make new friends if I didn't want to
+ Gets great exam results
+ Has a medic society which I would be interested in joining if my GCSE results are up to it
+ Offers Philosophy, an A level I would like to study
+ On the website it says it is always in the top 10 in league tables although I have never seen it

- It's so big, 2000 pupils
- I get the impression it's just an exam factory
- Apparently it's full of pretentious people
- Labs aren't that great
- Quite far away
- I'd probably be just a set of grades to my teachers, there doesn't seem to be much pastoral support

College 2
+ Small college
+ Great pastoral support
+ Weekly hour and a half time with subject teachers in small groups for going over things
+ Quite close
+Facilities all look good

- Would have to make new friends
- Doesn't offer Philosophy
- The people who are going here are the type you don't want to see again post high school
- It's supposedly too much like school, no freedom.

Obviously prestige isn't everything but I'm still not sure. Any suggestions? I just want to go where I'd feel best if I was struggling with work or similar/

i think you really just have to go with your gut as to which you feel most at home in. i ended up in a sixth form an hour and a half away from where i live, which is the complete opposite of what i was looking for and which i went to on my own so had to make new friends. but the minute i walked in there, i felt at home

sorry if this isnt helpful, but i just think theres only so much advice people can give you before you have to take the plunge and venture into the unknown.

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Really wish I had a close friend to talk to, given I think I've already lost a main one I had lately.

im online on msn atm, if you can tell who i am

[ParadoxSocks]

Interview went fine. Still feeling super fragile though. I'm gonna end up fighting with my girlfriend if I don't calm down

[ViceVersa]

(Original post by Anonymous)
im online on msn atm, if you can tell who i am

Odd. I was just thinking of you!

[Anonymous]

(Original post by ViceVersa)
Odd. I was just thinking of you!

you okay?

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FFS I've lost control of my eating again. 300kcals a day for the past 3 days, then 3000kcals today. More than a little concerned that my 'recovery' from this depressive episode is actually more about my eating. On days when I restrict I feel happy and in control. On days that I binge I feel fat, ugly, guilty and useless.
Still, no suicidal or self harm thoughts today.

[ViceVersa]

(Original post by Anonymous)
you okay?

Feeling weird once again. So not really sure

Are you?

(Original post by outworn)
x

You keep missing out on all the hugs I keep sending your way so decided to quote you.

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That is all.

[Anonymous]

(Original post by ViceVersa)
Feeling weird once again. So not really sure

Are you?

errrmmm. ive been up and down all day. decided to go out but didnt cause i realised i had no one to go with and theres no point spending money on myself so i stayed in all day doing pretty much nothing. decided to google IBS and felt even more disheartened. almost baked something to cheer myself up but thought id just eat it all and gain more weight.

so basically it was just a day of almost doing things but deciding it wasnt worth it.

[ViceVersa]

(Original post by Anonymous)
errrmmm. ive been up and down all day. decided to go out but didnt cause i realised i had no one to go with and theres no point spending money on myself so i stayed in all day doing pretty much nothing. decided to google IBS and felt even more disheartened. almost baked something to cheer myself up but thought id just eat it all and gain more weight.

so basically it was just a day of almost doing things but deciding it wasnt worth it.

Eek, not good then. I've been having the lonely thing too atm, and trying so damn hard not to lean on bf so much

Sucks about the IBS still

I just had a bowl of crispy ovened french fries

I'm doing nothing currently but I should be studying

Sorry about your day boo

xxx

[Anonymous]

(Original post by ViceVersa)
Eek, not good then. I've been having the lonely thing too atm, and trying so damn hard not to lean on bf so much

Sucks about the IBS still

I just had a bowl of crispy ovened french fries

I'm doing nothing currently but I should be studying

Sorry about your day boo

xxx

if i wasnt just so pathetic as to not be able to summon the energy to do things i wouldn't be in this situation.

and im such a hypocrite! ive always told people never to google their conditions and what have i just done?

im about to have lasagne which i will probably eat far too much of and then feel majorly embarrased the next time i go to outpatients and they weigh me

[ViceVersa]

(Original post by Anonymous)


if i wasnt just so pathetic as to not be able to summon the energy to do things i wouldn't be in this situation.

and im such a hypocrite! ive always told people never to google their conditions and what have i just done?

im about to have lasagne which i will probably eat far too much of and then feel majorly embarrased the next time i go to outpatients and they weigh me

I get that too, but try not to think you're pathetic for it though (I really must take my own advice )

I've done it tooooo many times

Stop being mean to yourself dammit!