You make me sick to my stomach, for someone I'm supposed to care about the most, I now only feel hatred for you, I've had enough of your control, you can't stop me from doing what I want to do and if you do, you'll just increase the distance I am from you, you make me angry.
Nowadays I've started to become emotionless, just to calm down the anger, it works, but I've become something that I didn't want to become, I have no remorse for you, I don't wish death to you, but I vow to not go to your funeral. I hate you.
I loved you, but I couldn't take your control, you were irrational when I was with you, I cared about you, but then you started to harm yourself to get me to stay with you, I ended it in a weird way, but I had no other choice, you wouldn't have let me left if I told you I was definitely leaving. I wonder how you are sometimes, I don't know whether you treat your next bf the same (if you have one), I want to know whether you like me anymore, as a person, you apologized at the end, but then I didn't respond to your apology, I guess that's why you deleted me, plus to forget the memories like with your last bf before me.
Anyway, I hope you sort yourself out, I was a bit childish after the first month or two when we finished and wished your life was a living hell like it looked to be but I'm over that, I don't want you to suffer.
I understand you now, I think you're the closest person I know, weird because you're 10 years older than me, you helped me grow up a lot, taught me things, even when you left our house, but I understand why you did it now, I want to meet you again and it's good you're in contact now. But now I'm a grown man, we can have a proper conversation without other people noticing, so you get to know a bit about me as well and how I've spent the past few years properly. Plus I've got a few stories of my own to tell.
Last edited by jam277; 18-02-2012 at 00:59.