[lsaul95]

So I was in a relationship for 2 years, it had it's ups and downs, like any other, we broke up on really bad terms about 5 months ago.
At the time I was upset, but got over it after a month or two, but ever since the break-up, I've noticed my character has totally changed.
I used to be such a happy person, if someone talked to me I'd be confident and trying to make them laugh within just a few minutes of meeting them. That's just who I was, everyone said that. Before the relationship I could talk to girls with ease, I never really had a problem with making conversation or again, making people laugh. I might not be the best looking guy but confidence goes a long way, you know.
But when we broke up, something changed. For a few weeks I didn't notice anything because I was monotonous for a while. But then when I got back into the social side of life, I find myself slurring my words, having difficulty trying to converse with anyone, especially girls. At the time of the break up, I understand that my confidence was shot, but I don't feel insecure about anything now. I got over it. I just feel like I don't care. If someone opens a conversation, I'd usually pull out all of the stops to be entertaining or interesting, that's who I used to be. But now my sentences are short on impulse and I lack enthusiasm to talk to anyone. I've tried to give a damn but it all seems pointless.

There are a lot worse problems in this world, I know that. So my whining, or lack of being able to whine is dawning on my life. I'm at the end of my teen years, I don't want to live the rest of my life not giving a crap about anything or anyone. I don't want to feel that letting someone into my life is a bad thing because in the end people just get hurt. It might be true but I don't want to feel that way.

This has turned out to be more like a rant than anything else. So if you're reading this, any advice or an insight would be appreciated as much as I can appreciate anything at the moment.

[The Real Quaid]

Maybe your priorities have changed subconsciously - you used to aim to make people happy, but now maybe your goals have changed

[guppygould]

You're probably looking into things too much. Take time just to chill out and enjoy life. Smoke a joint, drink a beer and relax.

[lsaul95]

(Original post by The Real Quaid)
Maybe your priorities have changed subconsciously - you used to aim to make people happy, but now maybe your goals have changed

This is true, thanks for the insight. Broadened my view on this situation.

(Original post by guppygould)
You're probably looking into things too much. Take time just to chill out and enjoy life. Smoke a joint, drink a beer and relax.

This is the first time I've really thought about it dude, I fell out with my grandma a few weeks back, we've always been close, she's like a mother to me, anyway I thought nothing of it and it's her birthday today, I didn't even go and see her, but I don't feel bad. I want to feel bad. I wish I could just kick back and smoke a J hahaha, nice suggestion, but I'm in the TA. A beer will suffice for now though, cheers for your reply and insight.