(Original post by Anonymous)
Hello everyone. before I start everything is 100% true. No need to acuse me of trolling or whatever I'm serious and need help.
I have a problem,long time reader of these parts of the forum and I think I could use your advice.
The problem is that I have an amazing life that anyone would love to lead however I'm just not happy.I'm not depressed but I think I'm going down that route. There's absolutely nothing ''wrong'' per say I just can't find satisfaction or happiness.
Let me give you a little info so you know what I'm dealing with.
I'm 18. My parents are rich. Not crazy rich but they make more than most families.
I study in France. It's really interesting, I'm in a great city with lots to see and do.
I make 22k a year net+ what my parents give me. I spend 600 a month on rent, live in a very comfortable apartment with another student. The rest of the money is spent on outings,clothes,protein powders and supplements,call girls,vacations etc.
I've got the money to spend 250 euro an hour on 18 year old eastern european prostitutes and I do, rather often.
Me and my friend take a vacation every 2 months.When we go somewhere we are in a 5 star hotel and very rarely leave the suite.
I've been to Prague,Milan,Barcelona,Madrid,Lo ndon... without leaving the hotel room beyond the bare minimum. I wouldn't say I'm shy since I do part often, I just prefer to have total control over everything.
I've got a great future ahead of me. I'll be making at least 100k a year net once I graduate, I've got no problems academic wise, I'm a good student even tho I've got absolutely no motivation to study. No motivation to work no motivation to do anything besides gym. I was very fat three year ago and I've been on a weight loss journey ever since and even tho it's rather slow I'm eating incredibly healthy and I LOVE lifting weights.
Literally the only joy in my day is the weight lifting room. I go as often as possible and that's usually for 2-3hour stretches every other day.
The main problem I have is I get no happiness from ANYTHING. I could be having a bath and instantly get bored or have absolutley no joy from it.
I'd be sitting in a caffee in Barcelona listening to Catalan music and would be only thinking of when I could leave. I got a Porsche 991 gt3 for my 18th birthday, I wasn't even happy/excited. I don't have a problem with alcohol, I drink a bottle of wine a week with food.
I've got everything to be happy. I've tried everything too but it's just not working.
I live in one of the most beautiful cities in europe,I make more money now than most people will when graduating and I don't even work. I've had sex with women that you guys could only dream of.
Why can't I find joy?
I'm not religious and not interested in spiritual journeys either so please don't bring that aspect up.
Also I don't believe therapy can help me. I don't have much faith in a ''science'' that's being revised every 10 years.
Again just because for some of you this would be considered the dream life please don't think it's not true. I really need help.