(Original post by njfhdjgjg)
It was a good idea for him that he bought a lock.
We have said that we'll be friends, and we are both trying although it's going to take a while. It's still early days and I hate him for what he's done to me but a part of me still loves him.
I just feel so angry. So, so angry. And that anger makes me want to hurt him physically. I would happily throw a brick at his face. But like I said, I still love him so even though it would be great to cause him harm, I don't really want to.
I also want to hurt him emotionally for the hurt and emotional pain he has caused me. But it's not like I can do that either.
So the next best thing is to do something in revenge that makes me feel slightly better but I don't want him to know because I don't want him to hate me.
It makes sense to me in my own slightly ****ed up way.