*sigh* If I don't hang out with them, then my lonely boring life is even more lonely and boring, but when I do hang out with them, they absolutely utter and entirely piss me off. They don't care- not about anything. They regularly hurt my feelings by totally devaluing our friendship (Me: "are you guys still coming to hang out?" *2 hours pass* Them via text:"Nah, we're just going to hang out without you somewhere totally different.")
I was there for one guy when he realized he was gay and had to come out. I listened to another girl for 3 bloody hours while she bitched and moaned about her roommate, and I supported her through it. If anyone ever needed a friend, they could always come to me. They leave me messages like "We had soooo much fun last night! Let's do it again soon!" And then they treat me like crap.
It's not to say that we don't actually have good times together, we totally do! But they are so damn self centred and selfish that my feelings on anything that isn't a party or super fun time happy is totally ignored. I've had it. I'm about to graduate from Uni and I won't have to see them ever again- and I'm freaking glad. I honestly can't wait.
Now someone please tell me that there are decent human beings in this world who care enough to not just consistently let you be there for them, but will also be there for you?
I think it's weird you know? Maybe it's me- but I'm the sort that when we're friends, we're friends. I don't do "temporary, when I feel like it I'm there for you, but when I don't forget it" type things. If I consider someone a friend then I automatically make sure I'm there for them. Maybe that just gives this sort of person a really convenient out. I dunno. But it just seems wrong to treat a friendship like that, so I don't really want to change the way I do things. Instead, when I get to my new place in the fall, I'm just going to try to weed out the users more quickly, rather then saddling myself with them and trying to make real friendships out of the crap they fling around. I really appreciate all the reassurances though, sometimes it feels like there's seriously no one that actually gives two farts about their so-called friends.