After being in a psych hospital I was reffered to different teams who visited me at home. This has been going on for quite a few weeks now. I'm not the type of person to open up about things and every visit makes me feel uncomfortable and sometimes it gets to the point where afterwards I feel like harming myself. I don't want to see the nurse who visits me every few weeks anymore. I feel horrible for saying it because she is only trying to help. Would it be rude to phone her and ask if she can't visit me anymore? The only issue I can see with it is the fact I have recently been put on medication and they want to review it with the psychiatrist. I don't want to do this review as I just want to stop all support I am receiving currently. I feel really horrible and selfish for feeling this way and wanting to cut myself off from the support I am receiving. Do you think I should continue with the nurse visiting or should I tell the nurse how I am feeling? Would they think it is stupid of me to stop the support and rude?
I dont know what to advise, just dropping a line to sympathise you. I was mentally ill in uk before too and there were times i didnt actually want to go for doctor's review because i was afraid i cant answer the doctor's question well. but most of the time i feel okay with the meetings with anyone in the team. So i am sorry about how you feel.