[Anonymous]

Hi all, I thought I'd introduce myself as I can't sleep yet again and I've been reading through these boards for a few days wanting to post something but a bit worried I'll get dismissed...

I'm hopefully going to see the doctor tomorrow but something keeps telling me that I shouldn't in case I'm wasting their time. I've not been feeling my usual happy self since around this time last year, at first I thought nothing of it but now it's getting to me a fair bit and also worrying me (Mum seems to think I'm overreacting but depression and other mental illnesses run in the family so in a way I want to make sure that I'm not). I know that people do go through different emotions at different times but I've mainly not felt happy more or less at all since then. My self esteem's hit an all time low, I'm feeling useless about 99% of the time and I end up bursting into tears either over nothing or just thinking hopeless thoughts and such. I used to slightly feel like this a few years ago but thought nothing of it but it's come back worse and affecting how I think about myself in terms of my friends and family/when I'm with people as I always feel that I'm on my own or lonely despite being around people or not enjoying the things I always have done anymore.
There's other stuff like staying awake until silly o'clock in the morning (like now), my appetite's increased a lot and, I don't know how to word this properly but, sometimes I end up doing something where I don't really remember making the decision or end up questioning it after or during sort of like in a trance and can't remember why I did it, usually going into town unplanned and spending money I shouldn't be spending on something.

Am I right to be going to the doctor's with this? Just for peace of mind at least...

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(Original post by Anonymous)
Hi all, I thought I'd introduce myself as I can't sleep yet again and I've been reading through these boards for a few days wanting to post something but a bit worried I'll get dismissed...

I'm hopefully going to see the doctor tomorrow but something keeps telling me that I shouldn't in case I'm wasting their time. I've not been feeling my usual happy self since around this time last year, at first I thought nothing of it but now it's getting to me a fair bit and also worrying me (Mum seems to think I'm overreacting but depression and other mental illnesses run in the family so in a way I want to make sure that I'm not). I know that people do go through different emotions at different times but I've mainly not felt happy more or less at all since then. My self esteem's hit an all time low, I'm feeling useless about 99% of the time and I end up bursting into tears either over nothing or just thinking hopeless thoughts and such. I used to slightly feel like this a few years ago but thought nothing of it but it's come back worse and affecting how I think about myself in terms of my friends and family/when I'm with people as I always feel that I'm on my own or lonely despite being around people or not enjoying the things I always have done anymore.
There's other stuff like staying awake until silly o'clock in the morning (like now), my appetite's increased a lot and, I don't know how to word this properly but, sometimes I end up doing something where I don't really remember making the decision or end up questioning it after or during sort of like in a trance and can't remember why I did it, usually going into town unplanned and spending money I shouldn't be spending on something.

Am I right to be going to the doctor's with this? Just for peace of mind at least...

I think you should go to the Drs, it sounds like it is worrying you, and when it starts to do that, that is the time to go and see what they say. Even if you aren't diagnosed with depression, they will still be able to offer some advice I'm sure. If I were you I would try to take in a bit of paper with what you want to say in case you forget anything. Good luck!

[chinaberry]

I'm so sorry you feel this way, OP, and it doesn't sound like your state of mind is good.

You can be given help without being given a formal diagnosis, like low-dosage pills or CBT (they're really pushing CBT at the moment, which, if you can't identify a particular cause for how you're feeling, might be the thing for you). GPs are there to be seen- please do go and see what they say. It doesn't sound at all like your problem is too small or like you're overreacting, a year is a long time to feel tearful/distracted.

[Happymelon]

Have you been feeling anxious? I'd say you should go to the doctor as well.

[Anonymous]

I've been feeling worried/nervous/a litte bit uneasy if that's what you mean yeah. I'm hopefully booking an appointment this afternoon (not getting to sleep til the early hours means I sleep through early alarms so I missed the appointment booking time for morning appointments). I've written what I want to say down in case I forget anything or feel I can't say anything so I can just give them that to read too

[Happymelon]

Yes, I meant all those things.. I'm the type of person who can't sleep if I get too nervous or stressed out. After losing sleep for a few days, I'll get tired enough to sleep early again. I think it would take a toll on you if you have it for prolonged periods and that's certainly not good. So have some courage and book your appointment. It's all for the best Btw, writing down your symptoms is a good idea. Stay strong!

[Anonymous]

Booking my appointment first thing in the morning hopefully! And ever since 6th form I've never been able to get to sleep at a reasonable time and lack of sleep never really catches up on me in that way, it just gets me more moody or makes me get a cold :/