(Original post by davekhan)
Hi all, I just recently turned 18 years old and currently in 6th form.
Im really unhappy and de-motivated at the moment and really really need some help.
This may be a bit of a long read but I will appreciate it so much!
My GCSE results:
Equality and diversity Btec-CC
Healthy Eating Btec-CC
During my time in secondary school I was badly behaved and messed around alot and only did a couple of days revison before the exam, so I would say I did pretty good for last few days revision.
Maths has always been a weak subject for me.
I left school in summer 2010 after my GCSES and started 6th form in september. I failed my first AS year due to pure lazyness, the jump for me personally was way too huge, I stuggled, I hardly revised and when it came to the last few weeks I totally gave up and didnt see the point in revising.
School gave me another chance and I re-sat my AS this year, I didnt revise from september too december again!-(which is stupid I know ) but I ended up in hospital due too an inflammed appendix therefore I missed my exams as I was getting my surgery done.
Now realistically I should have started to revise when I got out of hospital for the summer exams which are approaching in may, but I didnt revise! I started to revise a week ago which is now 5 weeks away from my exams.
My dream is to be a doctor, I want to study MEDICINE. I think I can do it, Im not super intelligent at all but I know that IF I work hard, and put 100% in I can get there.
Im currently studying Applied science,Biology and sociology which are totally not even cut it slightly for getting in the MEDICINE course.
Although there are a few foundation courses for medicine but again im cornered ad I dont have enough time to get good grades. Im wanting to get good grades, lke A's and I know that I can get them, but not in the time frame that I have now which is 5 weeks. Theres too much content to learn. and I havent got photographc memory.
What im getting at is that I really want to drop out of 6thform.
My GCSE results dont really reflect a potential doctor and now that I have wasted ALMOST 2 years, makes it look even more far fetched and would make people laugh.
This is what my thoughts are at the moment:
Spend next year re-sitting a couple of GCSES-Maths,Science and English. and maybe pick up a language. Aim to better my grades-A's+
Then spend another 2years on Alevels- have a fresh start and pick up biology and chemistry which are vital for Medicine and 2 other subjects.
Work hardd and revise hard and complete the two years and try to get into MEDICINE in UNI.
If I dont get the required grades, I will apply for bio-medical sciences or somesort of science based course which will be around 3 years and then try too transfer to medicine. Yeah this may take a few years but at least I will reach my goal and it will benefit me in the long run. If I still dont get to uni then at least I know I tried right and put everything iv'e got ?
Im meant to be re-sitting GCSE Maths in june anyways as I got an E first time round. So just revise for maths now for a few weeks and TRY too pass it.
Then from september start Alevels from scratch and then if I PASS MATHS I pick up chem-as you need maths for chem, and also pick up bio and 2 other subjects. Even though My GCSES are C'S maybe my ALEVELS CAN MAKE UP FOR THEM? or isit best too re-sit my GCSES first? Also If I dont pass maths this summer I cant go straight into Alevels in september- Ill have to do my GCSES again.
I feel like complete utter carbage, I really hate myself, I dont come from the best of towns, Im from an area full of crap, no prospects etc and I really want to get out of this ghetto. I also just live with my mum, Iv'e been without a ''father'' for 15 years, and Iv'e been through a lot within family issues and outside, facing many temptations, faced with crime everyday, growing up with friends who are constantly involved with crime and drugs. This dosent justify me being lazy though!!-maybe I dont want it enough?
But I dont want that sort of life, I want a better life, Iv'e grown up chilling out, not bothering with education because at the time I didnt realise how important it was but I really think that Iv'e got this gift, not the gift of intelligence but the gift of woriking hard because I know If I want to do something I can if I put everything in to it.
My dream is to be a doctor! Help people, comfort them. Learn about the body. Also I'd be lying if I said the wage did'nt attract me.I really want to study Medicine and have done for a while now.
I feel AWFUL.
Also my younger sister will be going into 6th form next year and she will probably be ahead of me if I go through with this ''plan''. I really hate my self, but I know im still young, only 18, I can still change things around cant I? and its motivating aswell in a way, that iv'e wasted so much time that now theres none left to waste and not wantin to make the same mistakes again!
If I dont get into Medicine then maybe pharmacy? I have some far distand relatives who are pharmicists but im sure the area is getting overcrowded.
What do you all think? should I give up? Am I kidding my self
Yes Iv'e made mistakes but I want to look to the future and work hard and stop being a bum!
THANK YOU for taking your precious time out to read this, I really really do appreciate it, it means alot and I just need some guidance and help.