Usually I'm quite a nice guy. Sometimes I can be inconsiderate and I don't always say the right things to people but I like to think people think of me as a friendly well meaning sort of guy. The words soft and cuddly get thrown around a lot, much to my dismay
I don't know why but when I have a good drink it brings out horrible sides of me that I really didn't know I had. It swings between feeling suicidal and completely hopeless to extreme anger and aggression.
I know it's normal to lose control of you're emotions after a few, but it's gotten to the point where I'm going from calling friends from the middle of a bypass asking them why I shouldn't do it, to trying to headbutt doors off it's hinges within the space of a few minutes.
They only told me a few days ago how bad I've gotten, and more worryingly how scared they were after my last "episode". The thought that I'm scaring people I really care about put it into perspective and I'm going to cut right back on my drinking.
But what's worrying me the most is where does all this anger come from.
**Edit: I should have added that the only reason that I drink when I go out is to loosen up a bit and stop feeling so insecure.
Last edited by PinkyPurply; 19-04-2012 at 03:11.
Ahh yeah, I've had a few of those nights recently, stress.
One night I had a full on panic attack because of someone I was with, so I managed to compose myself and drink the bar dry. 4am rolls around I've walked said person home after being led out of the club, and somehow ended up in one of the more ghetto areas, about 3 miles out of my way. Checked my phone, oh god, texts. Crazy nights my friend, which I feel bad for doing but it's not like I'm going to stop drinking. Thats like a pro footballer giving up because of a knee graze.
Wouldn't say I get aggressive, more self destructive. Broke my hand a few weeks ago, no matter how drunk I get I avoid hitting people because I don't want an assault charge, regardless of how much of a ****er they are.
I choose the man going to the doctors method, ignore it, it'll probably go away in due course.
Last edited by Megaross; 19-04-2012 at 10:29.
You might want to have a think about what it might be that makes you feel so insecure, relying on alcohol to alleviate this isn't good for your overall health and wellbeing. Most people act differently when they've had a bit to drink, but if something happens while you were being aggressive it's down to you for deciding to drink in the first place. If things don't improve and you feel the temptation to turn to drink when you're feeling down, speak to your GP for some advice. Your mind and liver will thank you!
Last edited by SpicyStrawberry; 19-04-2012 at 11:32.