[Anonymous]

ah i match with so many of those symptoms on that website you linked i just find it hard to understand whether im actuallyd epressed because perhapsit is nothign compared to how other poeple feel...i dont know because for example 'anxiety' and 'lack of motivation' along iwht so many of the other symptoms listed are things that surely everyone says or feels. also is it bad that i think im depressed yet im in a really really happy and stable relationship? i finally built up the courage to tell my boyfriend how i felt about a week ago but never really managed to express it in a way he grasped...he said he udnerstood and that he gennuinely hasexperienced that to but didnt realsie if felt the same way. but the pure fact that he says that makes it even clearer how he doenst actually udnerstand. im so open with him and have told hi all this and to me the words that i used to describe how i feel had so much menaing and depth, btu i can udnerstand how to anyone else they seem like just pathetic eveyrday thigns to say such as i have no motivation etc

[d123]

(Original post by Anonymous)
but it seems pathetic...so many people feel like i do and hen you say youre 'depressed' it seems so pathetci because everyone gets depressed form time to time...no one seems to udnerstand how bad it is! what would happen if i go to the doctors? and does it actually help? and what if im not actually 'depressed' and im just feeling down a lot of the time?

If you go and you're not depressed and just down, they can still help. It's not a waste of anyone's time. They'll be able to help you regardless, and if you are depressed, then it's definitely worth going. Believe me, I have a massive phobia of doctors and I still think it's worth it. They'll give you a questionairre and work out a course of treatment if you are depressed.

[avhhs]

Had a great time earlier but now i'm feeling really down . Guess that triggered me . It hurts me when I see other people having fun . Because my parents have denied me the chance to have fun . Still think i'm going to get myself hospitalised at some point.

[d123]

(Original post by avhhs)
Had a great time earlier but now i'm feeling really down . Guess that triggered me . It hurts me when I see other people having fun . Because my parents have denied me the chance to have fun . Still think i'm going to get myself hospitalised at some point.

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Is it bad that there's a small part of me that WANTS to get hospitalised, despite my fear of hospitals? Just because then I wouldn't have to explain to my friends and family how I'm feeling, they'd find out if I got hospitalised without me having to tell them? I know that's illogical, it's just a thought that's crossed my head a few times.

[Prince94]

(Original post by avhhs)
Had a great time earlier but now i'm feeling really down . Guess that triggered me . It hurts me when I see other people having fun . Because my parents have denied me the chance to have fun . Still think i'm going to get myself hospitalised at some point.

Seeing others have fun when you're feeling miserably low always sucks

[Noodlzzz]

(Original post by d123)

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Is it bad that there's a small part of me that WANTS to get hospitalised, despite my fear of hospitals? Just because then I wouldn't have to explain to my friends and family how I'm feeling, they'd find out if I got hospitalised without me having to tell them? I know that's illogical, it's just a thought that's crossed my head a few times.

I wouldn't call that illogical at all, in fact it's very logical! I also used to seriously entertain the idea that at least if i got sectioned it would be someone else telling my mum that I've got to that point in my life where I need to be in a psych hospital. I have yet to be sectioned and have yet to tell my mum everything and it is indeed a hard place to be, I feel you man.

[d123]

(Original post by Noodlzzz)
I wouldn't call that illogical at all, in fact it's very logical! I also used to seriously entertain the idea that at least if i got sectioned it would be someone else telling my mum that I've got to that point in my life where I need to be in a psych hospital. I have yet to be sectioned and have yet to tell my mum everything and it is indeed a hard place to be, I feel you man.

Glad it doesn't sound completely insane, or at least makes some sense. I guess it's the cry for help idea, I want someone to notice that I'm sinking under with all this but I can't tell anyone. Well, I've told one person and scared him half to death I think.

[Anonymous]

thank you for the link to that website..but i have loads of those symptoms listed but it still does make me quetsion whetehr im actually depressed though because things such as 'lack of motivation' and really most off that list are surely things that eveyrone would use to secribe how they feel at some point in time. also is it bad that i think im depressed yet am in a really really happy and stable relationship. i finally tried telling my boyfriend about how i feel less than a week ago. it was a huge deal for me as i havent explained to anyone before and was petrified at ow patehtic it seems. he actually was liek wow i never relaised you felt like this...and talked about his shared feelings about some of the things id mentioned. btu that just emphaissed the fact to me that he hasnt grasped just hwo bad it is because to him they obviosyuly seemed liek just words which eveyrones can kinda relate to such as constant tiredness anxiety, no slef estee whatsoever etc and so he obviously didnt grasp quite how much it affects me. i am so copletley open with him and explained hwo i dont think he graps it or whatevrr and how its like 100 times worse than the words i used ebcause how i described how i feel had so much depth and menaing for me...somethign which obviously didnt come across as storngly for him :/ i wish he coudl udnerstand and grasp how awful it is because even if he says he does, i really dont think he fully does udnerstand ah if i go to the doctors what sort of questions do they ask?

[ParadoxSocks]

drunk in the bath because everything is scary outside of this room :'(

[avhhs]

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Is it bad that there's a small part of me that WANTS to get hospitalised, despite my fear of hospitals? Just because then I wouldn't have to explain to my friends and family how I'm feeling, they'd find out if I got hospitalised without me having to tell them? I know that's illogical, it's just a thought that's crossed my head a few times.

But then if you did get hospitalised you probably would have to tell them anyway, directly or indirectly (e.g. why they didn't see you for so long).

As for me, it's because of some of the thoughts I sometimes get. I'm sure my parents will mess up/throw out my things while i'm gone, which is why I don't want to go. But the good thing about going is everyone finding out about what exactly they've done to me, and how strongly I feel about it. Currently no one takes me seriously

(Original post by Prince94)
Seeing others have fun when you're feeling miserably low always sucks

Thanks

[Sabertooth]

(Original post by d123)

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Is it bad that there's a small part of me that WANTS to get hospitalised, despite my fear of hospitals? Just because then I wouldn't have to explain to my friends and family how I'm feeling, they'd find out if I got hospitalised without me having to tell them? I know that's illogical, it's just a thought that's crossed my head a few times.

Weirdly, if you do go to hospital it isn't guaranteed that they'll tell your family. When I went they asked do I want them to call anyone, I said no and they left it at that. If you're an adult they are bound by confidentiality.

[d123]

(Original post by avhhs)
But then if you did get hospitalised you probably would have to tell them anyway, directly or indirectly (e.g. why they didn't see you for so long).

As for me, it's because of some of the thoughts I sometimes get. I'm sure my parents will mess up/throw out my things while i'm gone, which is why I don't want to go. But the good thing about going is everyone finding out about what exactly they've done to me, and how strongly I feel about it. Currently no one takes me seriously





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(Original post by Sabertooth)
Weirdly, if you do go to hospital it isn't guaranteed that they'll tell your family. When I went they asked do I want them to call anyone, I said no and they left it at that. If you're an adult they are bound by confidentiality.

Yeah, my thinking was that I'd just get a doctor to tell them. Total cop out, I know. But I couldn't tell my parents even when we were having a conversation where it would have been so easy to do so.

[Anonymous]

please help me

[AmiB]

(Original post by d123)
Counselling isn't meant to make you feel worse, is it?

It made me feel absolutely terrible and I punched a wall on my way out and swore I would never go back there but stick to it and it should improve

(Original post by SciFiBoy)
meh, my head has been all over the place today, not good, I don't think the sleep has helped this either.

I need to try and cool off or something I think, but not sure how

Got anything to distract yourself with? Go for a walk? Hope you feel better soon

(Original post by avhhs)
Had a great time earlier but now i'm feeling really down . Guess that triggered me . It hurts me when I see other people having fun . Because my parents have denied me the chance to have fun . Still think i'm going to get myself hospitalised at some point.

All my friends just finished their exams and are out having fun and celebrating whilst I am stuck in this mess with my exams still looming in August, really know the feeling hun, hope you feel better soon

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Is it bad that there's a small part of me that WANTS to get hospitalised, despite my fear of hospitals? Just because then I wouldn't have to explain to my friends and family how I'm feeling, they'd find out if I got hospitalised without me having to tell them? I know that's illogical, it's just a thought that's crossed my head a few times.

Sometimes I crave to be hospitalized just because then I might be offered a quicker way out of feeling this **** or at least I can just forget everything and let people help me without being bothered by everything and anything. Came very close this weekend but my friend found me before I took all the pills I own and called my parents to come and take me away...

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Had my GP appointment today after a horror of a weekend and I was really not happy with what she said. I had been told by the emergency gp over the weekend to stop the citalopram and was given diazepam (which had no effect whatsoever and there is none left now) and she basically said she's going to do nothing for this week, she wants to see what I am like without pills and want to let the citalopram get out my system before she prescribes anything else so she has left me to my own devices for a whole week which has frankly left me terrified. I have nothing at all if I get any worse and she mentioned prescribing me metazapine(?) next week but we are having a phone consultation so no idea how she will do that over the phone. My friend who found me in my terrible state this weekend came in and told her what she saw and frankly the gp had nothing to say about it. She also had all the faxes from the crisis team about me being suicidal so don't really know what she is thinking leaving me alone for a whole week with no support at all.

What will happen this week, I have no idea...

On a more positive note, just been insured on my parents car for 3 months so at least I have freedom once again

[d123]

(Original post by AmiB)
It made me feel absolutely terrible and I punched a wall on my way out and swore I would never go back there but stick to it and it should improve



Got anything to distract yourself with? Go for a walk? Hope you feel better soon



All my friends just finished their exams and are out having fun and celebrating whilst I am stuck in this mess with my exams still looming in August, really know the feeling hun, hope you feel better soon



Sometimes I crave to be hospitalized just because then I might be offered a quicker way out of feeling this **** or at least I can just forget everything and let people help me without being bothered by everything and anything. Came very close this weekend but my friend found me before I took all the pills I own and called my parents to come and take me away...

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Had my GP appointment today after a horror of a weekend and I was really not happy with what she said. I had been told by the emergency gp over the weekend to stop the citalopram and was given diazepam (which had no effect whatsoever and there is none left now) and she basically said she's going to do nothing for this week, she wants to see what I am like without pills and want to let the citalopram get out my system before she prescribes anything else so she has left me to my own devices for a whole week which has frankly left me terrified. I have nothing at all if I get any worse and she mentioned prescribing me metazapine(?) next week but we are having a phone consultation so no idea how she will do that over the phone. My friend who found me in my terrible state this weekend came in and told her what she saw and frankly the gp had nothing to say about it. She also had all the faxes from the crisis team about me being suicidal so don't really know what she is thinking leaving me alone for a whole week with no support at all.

What will happen this week, I have no idea...

On a more positive note, just been insured on my parents car for 3 months so at least I have freedom once again

That's rubbish about your GP. Really hope you manage to make it through the week, remember we're all here for you!

[thatsthebadger93]

(Original post by AmiB)
Had my GP appointment today after a horror of a weekend and I was really not happy with what she said. I had been told by the emergency gp over the weekend to stop the citalopram and was given diazepam (which had no effect whatsoever and there is none left now) and she basically said she's going to do nothing for this week, she wants to see what I am like without pills and want to let the citalopram get out my system before she prescribes anything else so she has left me to my own devices for a whole week which has frankly left me terrified. I have nothing at all if I get any worse and she mentioned prescribing me metazapine(?) next week but we are having a phone consultation so no idea how she will do that over the phone. My friend who found me in my terrible state this weekend came in and told her what she saw and frankly the gp had nothing to say about it. She also had all the faxes from the crisis team about me being suicidal so don't really know what she is thinking leaving me alone for a whole week with no support at all.

What will happen this week, I have no idea...

On a more positive note, just been insured on my parents car for 3 months so at least I have freedom once again

So sorry it didn't go better with the doctor, I've had similar experiences following emergency sections and it just feels like no one gives a damn. It sounds like you have some really supportive friends though, do you think they would be able to help keep you safe for this week? Would it be possible for your family to keep an eye on you whilst your feeling this bad? It seems so stupid that they would discharge you from the crisis team without putting any other support in place, though not all together suprising
I've heard some quite good things about mirtazipine, it has some sedative effect as well which is great if you're not sleeping and I think it's less likely to make you jittery etc.
Stay strong

[Anonymous]

please can someone give me some advicregaridng my posts about whether im depressed??

[SciFiRory]

(Original post by AmiB)
Got anything to distract yourself with? Go for a walk? Hope you feel better soon

tried to sleep for a bit without success -_- idk, feel a bit all over the place atm, kinda time could really do with being able to go out with friends and get drunk tbh. thanks.

[SciFiRory]

(Original post by ParadoxSocks)
drunk in the bath because everything is scary outside of this room :'(

hope you are okay?

[rmhumphries]

(Original post by Anonymous)
i think i am depresssed or am i just convincing myself that i am so that i can give myself some sort of explanation for how i feel?

Although far from perfect, you can do this test here to see if you may need to see a doctor.