[SciFiRory]

(Original post by d123)
That's rubbish

I'm doing okay, going into work to sign my contract and officially be put on the pay roll, so that's exciting. Then going out for a meal with a friend tonight. Keeping busy to keep my mind off potentially having ruined one of the best things in my life.

pretty much, yeah, idk, I have no idea what to do, just feel so utterly crap.

cool, that sounds like should be a good day, and hopefully things work out for you with your friend as well

[d123]

(Original post by SciFiBoy)
pretty much, yeah, idk, I have no idea what to do, just feel so utterly crap.

cool, that sounds like should be a good day, and hopefully things work out for you with your friend as well

Sorry to hear that Anything you can distract yourself with?

I hope it works out too, I'm just not sure how to make it better. Short of going to where he works and waiting outside for him to finish, I don't think there's anything I can do, and that would be stalkerish in the extreme.

[SciFiRory]

(Original post by d123)


Sorry to hear that Anything you can distract yourself with?

I hope it works out too, I'm just not sure how to make it better. Short of going to where he works and waiting outside for him to finish, I don't think there's anything I can do, and that would be stalkerish in the extreme.

not sure what'll work, might put some music on and see if that helps!

can you not call him when he finishes work or message him online?

[d123]

(Original post by SciFiBoy)
not sure what'll work, might put some music on and see if that helps!

can you not call him when he finishes work or message him online?

I could do. I think I'll text him later apologising for how I acted. I'll do it once I've gone into work though, because otherwise I'll be stressing too much waiting for a reply.

[SciFiRory]

(Original post by d123)
I could do. I think I'll text him later apologising for how I acted. I'll do it once I've gone into work though, because otherwise I'll be stressing too much waiting for a reply.

fair enough, I really hope you guys are able to work things out

[SciFiRory]

occurs to me that it's probably not a good thing that I have started drinking alone, before I did this I at least could tell myself it was partly a social thing and not all the time so not a big problem for me. now it kinda is, like literally I want to get drunk most of the time right now, seems a hell of a lot better than being sober and **** all the time :/

[d123]

(Original post by SciFiBoy)
fair enough, I really hope you guys are able to work things out

Me too. Texted him so we'll see what happens.

(Original post by SciFiBoy)
occurs to me that it's probably not a good thing that I have started drinking alone, before I did this I at least could tell myself it was partly a social thing and not all the time so not a big problem for me. now it kinda is, like literally I want to get drunk most of the time right now, seems a hell of a lot better than being sober and **** all the time :/

Take care not to get dependent, although it sounds like you might already be becoming so

[SciFiRory]

(Original post by d123)
Me too. Texted him so we'll see what happens.



Take care not to get dependent, although it sounds like you might already be becoming so

cool, good luck!

yeah, probably a bit late tbh idk, is better than SH I guess, doesn't really help with thoughts though :/

[avhhs]

I think my feelings of depression have fully returned . I just feel really bad these days. Really don't know how I'm going to make friends .

This morning on BBC Breakfast, they were saying that children as young as 5 are being diagnosed with depression

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[SciFiRory]

(Original post by avhhs)
I think my feelings of depression have fully returned . I just feel really bad these days. Really don't know how I'm going to make friends .

This morning on BBC Breakfast, they were saying that children as young as 5 are being diagnosed with depression

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just try and keep hope I guess? maybe speak to GP or someone they might be able to help!

yeah, I saw, tbh I wasn't surprised, I think a lot of reasons why that might be, but I will spare people my political ranting

[d123]

(Original post by SciFiBoy)
cool, good luck!

yeah, probably a bit late tbh idk, is better than SH I guess, doesn't really help with thoughts though :/

Possibly, though if it makes your thoughts worse it might not be

[SciFiRory]

(Original post by d123)
Possibly, though if it makes your thoughts worse it might not be

idk, I can't SH cause my mum hid everything that I can use, so instead just started drinking whenever we have alcohol, which I buy often now, but yeah, it doesn't help with thoughts in my head and stuff not really sure what to do though

[geetar]

I know the last few posts I've made have all been around this same riff, but I'd be really grateful if people could offer some advice/words of comfort. I really feel like I'm having a meltdown. I had really, really bad telephone interview or a job this morning, and feel terrible about it. I have my exams coming up soon, which I think I might even fail outright. My depression is getting worse again, and I can feel my levels of general and social anxiety rising a lot. My sleeping pattern is messed up, I'm always really tired but can never actually get to sleep. I'm so incredibly stressed out that I feel like I'm going to explode or something. Everyone around me is moving onto things and my situation is just getting more helpless by the day. I hardly even go out my room any more, because the levels of anxiety are getting that bad. My immediate looks very bleak, with no prospects.

I don't want to seem too needy, because I know that everyone else in this thread has their own issues, but I really, really need some kind of support right now. I don't know what I might do in this state, because I'm just so frazzled, and I just want these feelings to go away. I honestly think I'm completely cracking up under the strain of everything.

[SciFiRory]

(Original post by geetar)
I know the last few posts I've made have all been around this same riff, but I'd be really grateful if people could offer some advice/words of comfort. I really feel like I'm having a meltdown. I had really, really bad telephone interview or a job this morning, and feel terrible about it. I have my exams coming up soon, which I think I might even fail outright. My depression is getting worse again, and I can feel my levels of general and social anxiety rising a lot. My sleeping pattern is messed up, I'm always really tired but can never actually get to sleep. I'm so incredibly stressed out that I feel like I'm going to explode or something. Everyone around me is moving onto things and my situation is just getting more helpless by the day. I hardly even go out my room any more, because the levels of anxiety are getting that bad. My immediate looks very bleak, with no prospects.

I don't want to seem too needy, because I know that everyone else in this thread has their own issues, but I really, really need some kind of support right now. I don't know what I might do in this state, because I'm just so frazzled, and I just want these feelings to go away. I honestly think I'm completely cracking up under the strain of everything.

sorry to hear about your interview, they can be tough though I know, especially if you are stressed and feeling down anyway, can imagine is kinda overwhelming! not leaving your room isnt good I know from experience and anxiety really really sucks at times, you not have any friends you can hang out with maybe and just do something relaxing like have a chat with them? have you spoken to your GP btw, they might be able to help as well!

that's okay, thread is here for everyone who needs support we can all support each other and hopefully that helps us all out!

[geetar]

(Original post by SciFiBoy)
sorry to hear about your interview, they can be tough though I know, especially if you are stressed and feeling down anyway, can imagine is kinda overwhelming! not leaving your room isnt good I know from experience and anxiety really really sucks at times, you not have any friends you can hang out with maybe and just do something relaxing like have a chat with them? have you spoken to your GP btw, they might be able to help as well!

that's okay, thread is here for everyone who needs support we can all support each other and hopefully that helps us all out!

I can't really hang out with anybody, they're all revising (and in case, most of the don't actually live round here, they commute into college). And, tbh, I don't exactly have many friends anyway, I've been feeling more and more lonely particularly. But then as much as I want more human contact, I don't as well - even now, there are young kids playing outside my window and even that is raising my anxiety.

I think I'm honestly having another breakdown, I can feel that it's been getting worse these past few days, and it's all been leading up to an horrible depressive episode like this one. And it's just going to get worse, both in the immediate future (as in next few weeks), and in the long term (I don't have anything to look forward to).

So, yeah, sorry to unburden myself on you (and thanks for answering), but I'm breaking down right now.

[SciFiRory]

(Original post by geetar)
I can't really hang out with anybody, they're all revising (and in case, most of the don't actually live round here, they commute into college). And, tbh, I don't exactly have many friends anyway, I've been feeling more and more lonely particularly. But then as much as I want more human contact, I don't as well - even now, there are young kids playing outside my window and even that is raising my anxiety.

I think I'm honestly having another breakdown, I can feel that it's been getting worse these past few days, and it's all been leading up to an horrible depressive episode like this one. And it's just going to get worse, both in the immediate future (as in next few weeks), and in the long term (I don't have anything to look forward to).

So, yeah, sorry to unburden myself on you (and thanks for answering), but I'm breaking down right now.

ah, that's a shame, I know seeing friends can help pick you up when feeling down, hopefully you will make more in future I know what you mean, I get that even with people I know my anxiety can be awful at times, but I figure that seeing people can cheer me up so is worth trying to push through stuff!

damn, that's not good, sucks things are overwhelming you like this! I try to just focus on good things in future if I can, you got any plans for the summer maybe? or can you make some? heck, even if is just something like the depsoc camping trip, is something to look forward to! long term I try not to think about all tbh, so much can happen that you have no real way of knowing how things turn out, but if you are down then like me you probably only see negative outcomes when you do think further ahead! maybe find a distraction? you have anything that keeps your mind off stuff?

no worries, im always happy to chat with people and offer any support/advice I have!

[d123]

I keep realising that I've made so many tiny mistakes. Things like misplacing an important letter three weeks ago which I now really need. I wish I had a time machine so I could fix all these really tiny things which are going to end up ruining everything.

(Original post by geetar)
I know the last few posts I've made have all been around this same riff, but I'd be really grateful if people could offer some advice/words of comfort. I really feel like I'm having a meltdown. I had really, really bad telephone interview or a job this morning, and feel terrible about it. I have my exams coming up soon, which I think I might even fail outright. My depression is getting worse again, and I can feel my levels of general and social anxiety rising a lot. My sleeping pattern is messed up, I'm always really tired but can never actually get to sleep. I'm so incredibly stressed out that I feel like I'm going to explode or something. Everyone around me is moving onto things and my situation is just getting more helpless by the day. I hardly even go out my room any more, because the levels of anxiety are getting that bad. My immediate looks very bleak, with no prospects.

I don't want to seem too needy, because I know that everyone else in this thread has their own issues, but I really, really need some kind of support right now. I don't know what I might do in this state, because I'm just so frazzled, and I just want these feelings to go away. I honestly think I'm completely cracking up under the strain of everything.

I know what you mean. I'm feeling like I'm falling apart too so you're not alone, at least you know that. I don't have any useful advice, I wish I did.

(Original post by SciFiBoy)
idk, I can't SH cause my mum hid everything that I can use, so instead just started drinking whenever we have alcohol, which I buy often now, but yeah, it doesn't help with thoughts in my head and stuff not really sure what to do though

I wish there was something I could suggest I'm trying to find an alternative to SH, alcohol is looking like a tempting option. I can't keep hurting myself, but I can't keep everything pent up inside of me. Urgh.

[SciFiRory]

(Original post by d123)
I keep realising that I've made so many tiny mistakes. Things like misplacing an important letter three weeks ago which I now really need. I wish I had a time machine so I could fix all these really tiny things which are going to end up ruining everything.

I wish there was something I could suggest I'm trying to find an alternative to SH, alcohol is looking like a tempting option. I can't keep hurting myself, but I can't keep everything pent up inside of me. Urgh.

I know the feeling, when you feel down is easy to forget small things and then to let them bother you more when you do, is normal though with the depression cause you tend to focus on other things I guess, but don't feel so bad about it, even the "normal" people () can't fix all the stuff going on in their lives! im sure won't ruin everything either

I know, is just finding an outlet really, something positive I guess is best, but idk, SH and alcohol are the only obvious that come to my mind as well. maybe try and find a distraction if you can? I try and do that, may not work but is worth a shot at least, I hope you feel better soon though

[d123]

(Original post by SciFiBoy)
I know the feeling, when you feel down is easy to forget small things and then to let them bother you more when you do, is normal though with the depression cause you tend to focus on other things I guess, but don't feel so bad about it, even the "normal" people () can't fix all the stuff going on in their lives! im sure won't ruin everything either

I know, is just finding an outlet really, something positive I guess is best, but idk, SH and alcohol are the only obvious that come to my mind as well. maybe try and find a distraction if you can? I try and do that, may not work but is worth a shot at least, I hope you feel better soon though

I just feel like an idiot for losing the letter. It's something I need by Wednesday, and I don't know what I'll do if my mum doesn't have a copy of it, and she hasn't got back to me yet. ****.

[SciFiRory]

(Original post by d123)
I just feel like an idiot for losing the letter. It's something I need by Wednesday, and I don't know what I'll do if my mum doesn't have a copy of it, and she hasn't got back to me yet. ****.

you're not an idiot, people lose things all the time may well turn up or you can get a new copy or hopefully yeah your mum has it and is just busy!