[ParadoxSocks]

(Original post by avhhs)
I passed my practical .

Congrats! That's awesome! Feeling a little better today? I've been away but I noticed you having a meltdown when I just read over everything so *ubermassivehugs* I know life can suck a little when parents completely ruin your life with overprotectiveness but you're almost out of there now! Think of passing your practical as the first step away from them.

(also you aren't ever alone and you're no more socially awkward than most of us anyway - you have us and we think you're pretty damn awesome, k?)

[avhhs]

(Original post by ParadoxSocks)
Congrats! That's awesome! Feeling a little better today? I've been away but I noticed you having a meltdown when I just read over everything so *ubermassivehugs* I know life can suck a little when parents completely ruin your life with overprotectiveness but you're almost out of there now! Think of passing your practical as the first step away from them.

(also you aren't ever alone and you're no more socially awkward than most of us anyway - you have us and we think you're pretty damn awesome, k?)

Omg thanks . I have been feeling quite good today. It just hasn't really sunk in. The problem now is insurance, and my parents want me to have a few lessons on an automatic car as my mum's car is automatic.

But apart from that, I keep finding ways to trigger myself through thinking bad things. I'm diagnosed with autism but I don't accept that reason for not having a social life. I strongly believe it is my parents that have caused it, and my very setting anger towards them leads to strong urges (not suicidal though usually, however I don't want to tell the doctor about it through fear of being sectioned ). I'm insistent on living in halls while at uni, and even decided to go to one in another city because I want to get as far away from them as possible. And my brain just can't be patient and wait till I get in hopefully next year before it thinks about a social life (my parents will not listen. Religion has made them stupid). I think I may have messed up in my AS's. Can't wait to catch up on that socialising and partying I've missed .

(thanks )

How have you been?

[The_Lonely_Goatherd]

So apparently the new CPN I have been assigned isn't actually my CPN, since she may be given the boot as well. Psychiatrist reckons it'll take another month to see who stays and who leaves and who my new CPN will actually be

(Original post by avhhs)
I passed my practical .

Fab stuff! Well done!

[d123]

(Original post by avhhs)
I passed my practical .

Congratulations!

[CherryCherryBoomBoom]

I think it's fair to say that half my depression is caused by other people being ****s to me in one way or another, and my bad reactions to them. I really just need to learn to not give a **** so much. I guess life is unfair, but then again my life isn't really that bad so meh.

[ViceVersa]

(Original post by rmhumphries)
How'd exam go?

Meh..Okay, paper could have been better, paper could have been worse. I could have done better, I could have done worse. It won't be a high A (mostly because of like a 5 mark question all about aldehydes but at that point I somehow convinced myself they were showing me a primary alcohol so answered the whole 5 marks wrong, then other tiny things like forgetting negatives here and there and forgetting hazards involving acyl chlorides and how to minimise risk, so thinking overall I might have lost max 16 marks which will give me a mid-low A...) but I'm hoping it's an A anyway, and I'm just gonna have to work my but off so I can get an A in the second Chem paper but I'm not giving up yet..

It's always easier to tell kinda how bad you did in chem that in bio where you leave the exam having no clue if you wrote the right stuff or not..

Thanks for asking!

[thatsthebadger93]

(Original post by CherryCherryBoomBoom)
I think it's fair to say that half my depression is caused by other people being ****s to me in one way or another, and my bad reactions to them. I really just need to learn to not give a **** so much. I guess life is unfair, but then again my life isn't really that bad so meh.

Sometimes people are just ****ty. Recognizing them as negative influences is good though as it makes it easier to do something about it

*****
Sent off my CV to hopefully get some work experience at a vets, doubt they'll reply though as it's hardly like I'm the ideal candidate. Also have got a job keeping an eye on someones horses while they're away, one of which is due to foal and I'm terrified I'm gonna screw it up and I keep on thinking of new ways it could go wrong

[CherryCherryBoomBoom]

(Original post by thatsthebadger93)
Sometimes people are just ****ty. Recognizing them as negative influences is good though as it makes it easier to do something about it

*****
Sent off my CV to hopefully get some work experience at a vets, doubt they'll reply though as it's hardly like I'm the ideal candidate. Also have got a job keeping an eye on someones horses while they're away, one of which is due to foal and I'm terrified I'm gonna screw it up and I keep on thinking of new ways it could go wrong

I'm basically including people throughout my livfe such as bullies, lousy "friends", guys who won't date me, employers who won't employ me, mean idiots on the internet, etc. If they can't fully appreciate me, then I like to think that that's their problem and that I'm better off without them . I've had this habit of really taking the negative things that some people do to me too much to heart, and I need to stop doing that. I've realised that for every crappy person out there, there's also a good person who'll give me the time of day. It's just a case of making sure I find them and keep them in my life as necessary .


Good luck with your work experience

[Etoile]

(Original post by kiss_me_now9)
Yes, that'd be a good idea Try and track how quickly/slowly your moods change. If you need any more help or just a chat, pop back in here

(Original post by ViceVersa)
Oh no! How have you been feeling? Well everyone else has pretty much answered, but yeah your GP is the first person to tell. If you freak out over telling a male GP (often happens with me) then you can request for a female one Good luck with it hun

(Original post by Squaresquirrel)
THe others have given really good advice, Writing things down, keeping a diary all good things THe only thing I would add is to be completely honest with your doctor, they can't help unless they know the whole truth.

Thanks everyone I've got an appointment for next week (now all I have to do is not throw myself in front of a train before that :L) and I've been keeping a diary & writing down about my previous phases. Can anyone give me some kind of idea what the doctor will say/do? I'm not sure if my hospital actually has a mental health department

[ViceVersa]

(Original post by CherryCherryBoomBoom)
I'm basically including people throughout my livfe such as bullies, lousy "friends", guys who won't date me, employers who won't employ me, mean idiots on the internet, etc. If they can't fully appreciate me, then I like to think that that's their problem and that I'm better off without them . I've had this habit of really taking the negative things that some people do to me too much to heart, and I need to stop doing that. I've realised that for every crappy person out there, there's also a good person who'll give me the time of day. It's just a case of making sure I find them and keep them in my life as necessary .


Good luck with your work experience

Take your own advice and keep me in your life

[kiss_me_now9]

(Original post by thatsthebadger93)
Sometimes people are just ****ty. Recognizing them as negative influences is good though as it makes it easier to do something about it

*****
Sent off my CV to hopefully get some work experience at a vets, doubt they'll reply though as it's hardly like I'm the ideal candidate. Also have got a job keeping an eye on someones horses while they're away, one of which is due to foal and I'm terrified I'm gonna screw it up and I keep on thinking of new ways it could go wrong

Horses are damn resilient things, if anything feels or seems bad then just phone the vet, you can't be expected to deliver the foal and provide all the care for it! You'll be great

[CherryCherryBoomBoom]

(Original post by ViceVersa)
Take your own advice and keep me in your life

Yeah, definitely . I'd really like to meet up again sometime soon, especially as I still owe you your meerkat toy . When do you finish your exams?

[thatsthebadger93]

(Original post by kiss_me_now9)
Horses are damn resilient things, if anything feels or seems bad then just phone the vet, you can't be expected to deliver the foal and provide all the care for it! You'll be great

Thanks, I'm just so worried, particularly as she isn't mine

[ViceVersa]

(Original post by CherryCherryBoomBoom)
Yeah, definitely . I'd really like to meet up again sometime soon, especially as I still owe you your meerkat toy . When do you finish your exams?

Yay good My meerkat toy! I finish next friday

[CherryCherryBoomBoom]

(Original post by ViceVersa)
Yay good My meerkat toy! I finish next friday

Yeah, he's still in his box on the table at the end of my bed . Anyway cool, I guess we can arrange something then . Good luck with the rest of your exams

[ViceVersa]

(Original post by CherryCherryBoomBoom)
Yeah, he's still in his box on the table at the end of my bed . Anyway cool, I guess we can arrange something then . Good luck with the rest of your exams

Awwww Yep, we can defo arrange, not long now Thanks.

[Etoile]

Also reading back through some of the pages, I don't hear voices much really but I do hear pretty much constant music which I never realised was weird until quite recently Has anyone heard of this?

[Nut.]

Mood still holding up and this is now the longest I've been without binging or restricting in over two years.

Schmexy.

[kiss_me_now9]

(Original post by Etoile)
Also reading back through some of the pages, I don't hear voices much really but I do hear pretty much constant music which I never realised was weird until quite recently Has anyone heard of this?

Not experienced it myself but Dr Oliver Sachs covers it in a few of his case studies in 'The Man Who Mistook His Wife for a Hat' (neurology book). If I remember correctly, it was caused by a form of epilepsy. Worth seeing if you could get it out the library/mentioning it when you go for your appointment.

(Original post by Nut.)
Mood still holding up and this is now the longest I've been without binging or restricting in over two years.

Schmexy.

PRSOM!

[bored.i.am]

I'm assuming some here have had counselling?

I went for my 1st paid counselling session today (£15).

I don't really know what to make of it but I wanted to raise a point. It felt quite 'mechanical' to me if that's the right word. It felt impersonal. Like it's hard to tell if their motives are to genuinely help or what else .. $ ? It felt a bit distant and I don't quite know why. Is this normal?

I did most of the talking but it needs to improve! Not that I know what else to gain from it?

But what also bothered me was how the counsellor assumed things about how I was parented because of my parents religious beliefs. Like she made his accepting noise as if to say ' so your parents faith meant they neglected your needs'. I didn't like the way she took it in. I mean, one shouldn't put down religion because the truth is nodoy know if it has any bearing or not. It makes me feel like the counsellor will offer her advice and what not based on these thoughts she has gathered which are kind of false.