[Sabertooth]

(Original post by The_Lonely_Goatherd)
That's really bad of your CPN. You really need to get someone to sort this quack or a psychiatrist out. She sounds beyond useless

I know. It's really annoying me that I have no way out of seeing her (well I could just not turn up but that won't help matters). I wanted to stress to the CPN that I think this psychiatrist is a moron who doesn't listen to me and who I find it impossible to have a therapeutic relationship with, but she cancelled on me twice so now I just have to see the ****ing psychiatrist.

I know that if I have to see this psychiatrist it's pretty damn likely that I will lose my temper with her. I'm struggling a lot and all the help she's offering is ****ing dream analysis, so if that's all she continues to offer then I think I will find it very difficult to maintain a polite composure. And let's be honest, if I start shouting, the results are not going to be good for anyone but I'm really unsure how patient I can be with her.

Sorry about the rant. I'm just so angry with the whole situation.

[The_Lonely_Goatherd]

(Original post by Sabertooth)
I know. It's really annoying me that I have no way out of seeing her (well I could just not turn up but that won't help matters). I wanted to stress to the CPN that I think this psychiatrist is a moron who doesn't listen to me and who I find it impossible to have a therapeutic relationship with, but she cancelled on me twice so now I just have to see the ****ing psychiatrist.

I know that if I have to see this psychiatrist it's pretty damn likely that I will lose my temper with her. I'm struggling a lot and all the help she's offering is ****ing dream analysis, so if that's all she continues to offer then I think I will find it very difficult to maintain a polite composure. And let's be honest, if I start shouting, the results are not going to be good for anyone but I'm really unsure how patient I can be with her.

Sorry about the rant. I'm just so angry with the whole situation.

No need to apologise for ranting - it sounds incredibly frustrating

[Sabertooth]

(Original post by kiss_me_now9)


I didn't make it to Tesco this morning. Got woken up at half 8 after about 5 hours sleep - felt so sick and spaced out, it was horrid. Got half way over town and made my Dad turn around and take me home. Pathetic. Now I'm working myself up about going over to the shop 15 minutes walk away tomorrow to hand in my job application form and going to my sisters in Cambridge on Saturday.

I think Tesco is so hard because it's so big, and bright and loud. There's always so many people there, and in my head I build it up (and also, I have a thing atm about disasters and it's the first place in my illogical head that would be hit if something went down, so being there is not a good idea).

Yeah, I think you might be onto something with the big, bright and loud part. For me what helps is listening to my mp3 player but then people I go with think I'm being rude, but it might help distract you? Or perhaps you could try going to a smaller supermarket if the disaster thing gets to you (that kind of makes sense to me, although my main worries tend to be more buses and trains, especially the underground). Ok it will be a bit expensive probably but if you feel better going there it might be worth it.

Good luck with the job application.

[rmhumphries]

(Original post by d123)
Chrome, and that would be great thanks!

Sent you a PM

[The_Lonely_Goatherd]

(Original post by The_Lonely_Goatherd)
I'm still awake atm. We can chat on here for a little, or via PM?

(Original post by sunfowers01)
I'm so confused. Doubting my decision re work. Is anyone awake who wouldn't mind talking to me.

Hey, I'm afraid I was up most of last night (only got 1 hour's sleep), so I'll be going soon. Hope someone else can help you though

[bytail]

Very melancholy tonight. Finding it difficult to imagine wanting to exist. Mum keeps checking to see if I'm SH-ing which isn't making me feel any better. Seriously, why isn't this ****ing medication working yet?

[Spoonman]

Ever ask yourself this? :O I know I do

[ViceVersa]

(Original post by bytail)
Very melancholy tonight. Finding it difficult to imagine wanting to exist. Mum keeps checking to see if I'm SH-ing which isn't making me feel any better. Seriously, why isn't this ****ing medication working yet?

How long have you been taking it and what med is it?

(Original post by Spoonman)
Ever ask yourself this? :O I know I do

(Original post by Spoonman)

Yeah

[Anonymous]

(Original post by ViceVersa)
How long have you been taking it and what med is it?

Citalopram, was on 20mg for 3 months-ish, went up to 30mg about 2 weeks ago.

[bytail]

(Original post by Anonymous)
Citalopram, was on 20mg for 3 months-ish, went up to 30mg about 2 weeks ago.

This is me

[rmhumphries]

(Original post by bytail)
This is me

Still not a massive dose, although citalopram side-effects can be nasty. Have you been on any other drugs?

[ViceVersa]

(Original post by Anonymous)
Citalopram, was on 20mg for 3 months-ish, went up to 30mg about 2 weeks ago.

(Original post by bytail)
This is me

I know it's you Citalopram takes a bit of time tbh. If you're worried though see your GP? I'm not a fan of it though, so I call it ****alopram

[Spoonman]

Citalopram and Sertraline had awful side-effects on me so I don't take any medication now :O

[bytail]

(Original post by rmhumphries)
Still not a massive dose, although citalopram side-effects can be nasty. Have you been on any other drugs?

How high can they take it, do you know? I'm doing okay side-effects wise, only really having problems with clenching my teeth and yawning Not been on anything else, no.

(Original post by ViceVersa)
I know it's you Citalopram takes a bit of time tbh. If you're worried though see your GP? I'm not a fan of it though, so I call it ****alopram

I think I'm due to see him next week or the week after so I'll have to see what he says then. seems like an accurate description to me! What don't you like about it?

[Anonymous]

(Original post by bytail)
How high can they take it, do you know? I'm doing okay side-effects wise, only really having problems with clenching my teeth and yawning Not been on anything else, no.

Although not directed to me, Citalopram can be taken up to 60mg by GPs. Hope it kicks in for you soon! I found that Citalopram side-effects were quite nasty. I'm on 40mg at the moment.

[superwolf]

Not feeling too good.

[luno]

(Original post by superwolf)
Not feeling too good.

What's up .

Hope you're getting some sleeping unlike me .

[rmhumphries]

(Original post by bytail)
How high can they take it, do you know? I'm doing okay side-effects wise, only really having problems with clenching my teeth and yawning Not been on anything else, no.


I think I'm due to see him next week or the week after so I'll have to see what he says then. seems like an accurate description to me! What don't you like about it?

60mg I believe.

[ViceVersa]

(Original post by bytail)
I think I'm due to see him next week or the week after so I'll have to see what he says then. seems like an accurate description to me! What don't you like about it?

Sounds like a plan It basically is an accurate description. And ha I dunno it make me go all weird, like REALLY high and then dangerously low, and I got horrible side effects like constant headaches. Glad that period is all over now tbh.

[Sultana]

Sorry for ignoring my quotes, I will reply at some point.

I went round my mums this morning to see if we could talk...no. I literally can not believe I have been kicked out of my families house because I had a bad dream. I don't know what to do to sort this out. Given whats happened between me and my mum I guess its stupid to care so much about her, but at the end of the day she is my mum. I feel so hurt and let down and angry with her. I don't need her to be supportive in other aspects of my life, I needed her to be supportive with this. I mean seriously what sort of mum tells her daughter she is ashamed of her because of something that WASN'T HER FAULT. How am I meant to not blame myself when my mum does. Maybe I should stop being so desperate for a relationship with her and just leave it. Its all very well acting like everything is great but there is a huge elephant in the room and it can't be ignored. But I don't want to just leave it.

I also don't really want to go up to uni right now. Theres no one staying there till later in the summer, and I don't really have anything to do up there. At least here I have a load of friends who force me to socialise. And I need to be here to keep an eye on my sister, I'm so worried about her and I don't know what to do to help her. My friend has been great, but I can't stay with her indefenitely. Staying somewhere I'm completely isolated and don't really know anyone is not a good idea right now. Aargh why is everything so messed up, I've been trying so hard to keep happy and positive and productive and now I feel like I've just dropped right back to where I started. Sorry for the rantt.