[Deyesy]

(Original post by superwolf)
Other people post and give advice/support just as much as me, only I save it all up to do in one big go, whereas others reply more regularly (which is actually more useful as sometimes I end up replying to things which are kind of out of date).

But you multi-quote!

And you never miss ANYONE out

[Squaresquirrel]

(Original post by Spoonman)
I'm cycling in quick succession today. Feel positive about going to Korea - 20 minutes later- want to kill self - 20 minutes later - perhaps indonesia? - 20 minutes later - I CAN'T LEAVE EVERYONE I'LL STAY HERE IN UK - 20 minutes later- want to kill self

I'm no expert, but this sounds exactly like me when Im having a mixed episode - have you considered that you might be having one?? I don't really know your history so its hard to say but it sounds pretty classic. If I were you I'd try to avoid making any big decisions, do some meditation or something and book an meeting with a Dr.


I hope you feel better soon and sending positive thoughts your way!

[Spoonman]

(Original post by Squaresquirrel)
I'm no expert, but this sounds exactly like me when Im having a mixed episode - have you considered that you might be having one?? I don't really know your history so its hard to say but it sounds pretty classic. If I were you I'd try to avoid making any big decisions, do some meditation or something and book an meeting with a Dr.


I hope you feel better soon and sending positive thoughts your way!

What's a mixed episode? Is it a part of depression or more associated with bi-polar?

I just don't want to do anything, but rather than do the classic sit there and hate myself, I run around like a headless chicken trying to fill the gap while still hating myself, ahhhh! :O

[Anonymous]

Anyone else still awake?

[d123]

(Original post by Anonymous)
Anyone else still awake?

Whoops. Me again :P

Laptop crashed when I tried to download the deautoanon thing so I still haven't done it :P

[SciFiRory]

(Original post by d123)
Whoops. Me again :P

Laptop crashed when I tried to download the deautoanon thing so I still haven't done it :P

I only been up for like an hour, still only managing 2 hour chunks of sleep at random times

bleh, how are you anyway?

[d123]

(Original post by SciFiRory)
I only been up for like an hour, still only managing 2 hour chunks of sleep at random times

bleh, how are you anyway?

Tried to sleep and completely failed, again

[SciFiRory]

(Original post by d123)
Tried to sleep and completely failed, again

you tried taking any sleeping pills? drinking a warm glass of milk can help as well! is worth trying stuff cause not being able to sleep is always awful!

[d123]

(Original post by SciFiRory)
you tried taking any sleeping pills? drinking a warm glass of milk can help as well! is worth trying stuff cause not being able to sleep is always awful!

Might try the milk idea. I need to get to sleep because tomorrow is another busy day/night. I can't even really get away with sleeping throughout the day as my new flatmate is moving in.

[SciFiRory]

(Original post by d123)
Might try the milk idea. I need to get to sleep because tomorrow is another busy day/night. I can't even really get away with sleeping throughout the day as my new flatmate is moving in.

ah okay, hopefully it helps try to relax if you can as well, if something on your mind is keeping you up then try and distract yourself from that when you try and sleep!

[superwolf]

(Original post by luno)
I was feeling ok but I just suddenly started crying. I was hoping for an earlier night than normal but now I feel wide awake and too sad to sleep .

Feeling very lonely and the silence just makes it worse .

I hope you got off to sleep ok.

[luno]

(Original post by superwolf)
I hope you got off to sleep ok.

Thank you. I did, in the end . It wasn't an amazing sleep and I'm not feeling less sad but it's better than nothing .

I hope you were just up early when replying and that you also got some sleep !

[Sabertooth]

(Original post by Sultana)
Your shrink sounds like a complete *******, what century is she living in?? Is there someone you could get to go to your apppointment with you to help yo u explain your concerns? Or could you maybe right a letter so you can get all your points across without getting to angry and forgettting things or not being taken seriously.

Well said: she is a complete *******.

The letter is a good idea, I might do that, thanks Was thinking of dragging my girlfriend with me (she does not stand for any ****) so if that fails I'll write a letter. It never ceases to amaze me what kind of idiots the NHS employs.

[d123]

for the one person I can rely on managing to make me feel like ****.

[SciFiRory]

(Original post by d123)
for the one person I can rely on managing to make me feel like ****.

you manage to get some sleep? sorry to here you are feeling ****

[bullettheory]

(Original post by superwolf)
Sounds like you've got a lot to try and cope with. It sounds like your diagnosis will be one of those things that becomes more clear over time (could be frustrating for you I know), but even without a clear diagnosis they can still treat your symptoms and work towards getting you better (plus of course you can help yourself too by by doing your DBT and stuff).

That was really unfair of your mum. You're already cooperating with the doctors and doing your DBT, which is exactly the sort of thing you should be doing to help yourself get better, and it's definitely not your fault that this won't result in a magical overnight change. Mind you, I expect she's under a lot of stress and worried about you, so I'd not judge her too harshly.

It's good to know how you're getting along, I hope you keep posting updates.

Yeah I guess so. I have been fighting the BPD label for a while but I guess it is time for me to accept I have it and try to live with it. I guess its just if there is anything else to add to that or not, I don't know and like you said it will be a while before they know probably. Yes, I'm going to keep at my DBT because everyone who I have met has said I'm really lucky to have a place on it so I will stick with it.

Yeah, she is being better today. My girlfriend was a bit annoyed when I said I wanted to discharge myself too and got a bit angry but she has apologised and it is a lot better now. I'm trying to be non judgemental and everything regarding what people have said and it's working so far. And I will keep you guys updated ofcourse! Hope you are ok.

[SciFiRory]

(Original post by bullettheory)
Yeah I guess so. I have been fighting the BPD label for a while but I guess it is time for me to accept I have it and try to live with it. I guess its just if there is anything else to add to that or not, I don't know and like you said it will be a while before they know probably. Yes, I'm going to keep at my DBT because everyone who I have met has said I'm really lucky to have a place on it so I will stick with it.

Yeah, she is being better today. My girlfriend was a bit annoyed when I said I wanted to discharge myself too and got a bit angry but she has apologised and it is a lot better now. I'm trying to be non judgemental and everything regarding what people have said and it's working so far. And I will keep you guys updated ofcourse! Hope you are ok.

hope you feel better soon and things improve for you mate! happy birthday (again!)

[d123]

(Original post by SciFiRory)
you manage to get some sleep? sorry to here you are feeling ****

Got about 3 hours in the end, which isn't great.

I just wish people would be honest when you ask them things, rather than making up obviously rubbish excuses which I KNOW aren't right. Right now I'm feeling like I just want to isolate myself from everyone, but I know that's not a good idea. I reckon I'm going to end up emotionally isolating myself anyway. I'll see people and do things, but trusting and caring about people just isn't worth it.

[SciFiRory]

(Original post by d123)
Got about 3 hours in the end, which isn't great.

I just wish people would be honest when you ask them things, rather than making up obviously rubbish excuses which I KNOW aren't right. Right now I'm feeling like I just want to isolate myself from everyone, but I know that's not a good idea. I reckon I'm going to end up emotionally isolating myself anyway. I'll see people and do things, but trusting and caring about people just isn't worth it.

mm, well at least you got some, hopefully you sleep better tonight!

ah, yeah is awful when people make up excuses like that, can be really upsetting I know! isolating yourself is never a good idea im sure you will meet people who you can trust and care about in time, it sucks that people aren't like that atm but gotta have hope!

[The_Lonely_Goatherd]

(Original post by d123)
Got about 3 hours in the end, which isn't great.

I just wish people would be honest when you ask them things, rather than making up obviously rubbish excuses which I KNOW aren't right. Right now I'm feeling like I just want to isolate myself from everyone, but I know that's not a good idea. I reckon I'm going to end up emotionally isolating myself anyway. I'll see people and do things, but trusting and caring about people just isn't worth it.

Am up (finally ) if you need someone to rant at on Facebook

(Original post by Sultana)
thanks for your support I really appreciate it. That sounds hard with your dad, have you tried educating him a bit, or getting someone from your MHT to talk to him? (sorry if that sounds rude its not meant to)

Ah it's not too bad. My dad at least recognises there is something wrong, that he is part of the problem, etc. So he shouts less and is trying hard, which is more than I expected of him. He just prefers to go nuts about the fact that I have high cholesterol rather than the fact I hear voices Tiz all good though. He's doing well, for an Asian dad.

My CPN has spoken to him and so has my psychiatrist. It made a small difference but nothing huge