[superwolf]

(Original post by d123)
Hope you start to feel better soon. Good distractions are difficult to find.

Was trying to think of an excuse to get out of going out tonight but couldn't. So I'm going to go but only for a little bit and use the 'working early' tomorrow excuse to leave early.

Thanks. Gonna watch some TV/a movie (I'm thinking either Firefly or X-Men), so fingers crossed that helps. I also have a lovely and obliging friend making me cup after cup of espresso, which to me is pure 100% happy juice.

Hope you have a decent time.

[Sultana]

(Original post by SciFiRory)
yeah, hopefully, really need something to help right now tbh ah okay my GP didn't mention that, said he might refer me back to CMHT if no improvement in two weeks time, idk, thank you for the reply.

Well that might be good, you might get a CPN or someone to see a bit more often. I know things are **** atm but nothing lasts forever, and chances are something is going to improve soon.

(Original post by d123)
Okay. Right. Still have no idea what I want to say to the GP but I'm going anyway. Will try and fill you all in when I'm back.

Hope it went well, well done for going!

(Original post by superwolf)


Any progress on the family/mum front?

Yeah, I took far too long going about getting help for my depression. Still, there's no point in regretting things in the past too much, when we've got the whole present and future to screw up live like normal people in too!

It does seem a little odd yeah, but it does look like it gets decent results, so I reckon you should give it a whirl, and then regale us with tales of how totally ****ing bizarre it is. I hope the process isn't too upsetting/stressful though - but you seem pretty strong so I'm sure you can deal with it.

My sister is scaring me silly atm and I don't know what to do about it, my brother keeps ringing me up in tears because he wants me home and my mum is being a manipulative, nasty bitch.

I need to work on not regretting the past. But your right, we have the whole future to have crazy fun with! I am determined to get to Japan and Nepal at some point, I quite fancy hanging out in the Himalayas meditating with the monks!

I don't feel that strong but thats sweet of you to say, thank you. Its actually made me feel a bit better having someone tell me that, even if it is only a stranger from the internet! If I manage to go, I'm sure I'll have some weird tales for you all!

(Original post by superwolf)
Scott Pilgrim! Have you read all the books (if not, I think I have a couple of them on my computer)?

Another Scott Pilgrim fan! Everyone I know thinks I'm crazy for liking them. I've read the first 3, I would love any copies you have. Only if its not too much of a hassle though.

(Original post by superwolf)

You'd think, yeah. To be fair I have been treated better in the past - I saw a CMHT up in Edinburgh for a while who were fairly decent, even saw a psychologist regularly for a while, and I've had plenty of good GPs and psychiatrists, it's when they try and refer me on for further support that it all goes wrong. Once got assigned a CPN - saw her once, then a week later was admitted to hospital and she didn't visit/even make contact the entire time I was in there.

Yeah I'm at uni. I asked about a mentor before, but dickhead SAAS refused to fund one for me. I'm applying for DSA though, and fingers crossed I'll get one through that.

It ****ing sucks, right? Also completely stupid - if they put more funding and effort into preventative treatment, I bet the situation would get a whole lot better when it comes to people getting properly ill.

The whole mental health system is completely ****ed up. Its absolutely crazy that people who are at their most vulnerable have to actually fight to get help. Like you said, preventative treatment is surely so much better, I guess they just don't have the money to spare atm.

I hope you do get a mentor, and could you maybe access your unis counselling services? They might beable to help you with coping techniques etc.. if the CMHT haven't provided you anything by then.

[d123]

(Original post by superwolf)
Thanks. Gonna watch some TV/a movie (I'm thinking either Firefly or X-Men), so fingers crossed that helps. I also have a lovely and obliging friend making me cup after cup of espresso, which to me is pure 100% happy juice.

Hope you have a decent time.

Ooh, Firefly or X-Men would both make fantastic choices, I'm jealous. You have good taste

(Original post by Sultana)
Hope it went well, well done for going!

Thank you! It went okay, citalopram dosage upped, which is probably a good thing, I think.

[rmhumphries]

(Original post by d123)
Ate almost all my food, and I'd made a decent sized portion. I mean, I'm still only on about a third of the calories I should have eaten today, but it's better than an hour ago, so small victories should be celebrated.

Well done!

(Original post by FuzzySheep)
I'm sorry for replying so late. Just generally everything, I feel all trapped and worthless. Bf pretty much said that to me yesterday night, haha. I just feel like I'm finished tbh, there is nothing anymore.

How are you doing? Hopefully well? I hope you enjoyed your cake

Not to worry - as long as you are ok Best thing to do is start small, identify little things which you can change to make yourself better, and work from there.

The cake was good thanks, aye Still have a little left as well!

(Original post by bytail)
Missed my appointment with the therapist from school this morning cause I overslept after getting very little sleep last night. She called me but I was too scared to pick up. Not even sure I want to see her now even though I know I should. Not sure what to do. Might have to make a doctor's appointment seeing as there's no-one else I can go to. These meds really aren't working for me.

Seeing your GP would be a good idea I think; if you feel the meds are not working, may be worth seeing about increasing them and if still no improvement, try another drug. Have you managed to rearrange the appointment with your therapist?

(Original post by Riku)
It was my fault really. I kept asking questions of what's safe to do and blabbed to them 'ooh by the way I've got eating problems' (seriiously not trying to make it sound blase, I was terrified and don't know what I'm saying half the time). Since then one of them's been adamant I'm not using the weights, she treats me like a complete kid (although yeah I d act it sometimes).
I'm now nearly 12 STONE. Stupid
It's only that one instructor though, the other's really sound and knows it'll help more than anything

On top of this I'm really concerned for my Mum being on anti-depressants and having such massive mood swings, still pretty much because of me : / though she did say 'no stropping' in the house yesterday which emans I'm left to vent my emotions on here or on food, more often food. I mean what does she expect if I'm not allowed to express how I actually feel sometimes? (granted I do it nearly all the time which doesn't help anyone but that's just the way I think still) n

Hmm, it might be worth 'fighting' it then, by showing how you are being sensible, take a food plan along to show what you have eaten, and so-on - proving that there is no reason to restrict you.

(Original post by bullettheory)
Hey guys, hope you are all ok

Been discharged from hospital today, which I am pleased about. I spoke to the consultant yesterday and she was quite blunt. Said that I "clearly have a lot of serious mental health problems" (not sure how to take that), but that I had two options, either I could work on getting through all my problems and use my potential to do what I want in life, or become a "full time psychiatric patient" and go from crisis to crisis, hospital to hospital. I see her point and I guess I needed a bit of scaring and a reality check...

But they are going to change some meds and the Home Treatment Team are going to come and see me for the next week or so to check I am taking the meds and that I am ok. Hopefully will be moving back to Bristol shortly. But tonight it's back to normal, and I can't wait to have a nice cold pint of cider

That is good to hear, and hopefully it is upwards from now onwards for you.

(Original post by Anonymous)
Would it be worth it to relocate to another city (no financial support and no support at all) for a 16k salary. I am worried that I would have to pay rent, tv licence, bills etc... It is just too big a move. I am worried about relocating but i need a job.

If it is the only option you have at the moment, I would say yes. You can always look for a job back near your home town in 6 months or so time (you don't want to change jobs too quickly), and it will be easier to get a better job closer to home if you have the experience from the job - and it will be nice for you to have some money coming in.

[Sultana]

(Original post by bullettheory)
Thank you, sorry I didn't reply sooner, the app for TSR doesn't show who quoted you, so I only saw you had quoted me when I logged on to my computer. I'm out of hospital now, I was honest and they decided along with me that hospital wasn't going to help me and I should be in the community under the Home Treatment Team (Crisis Team) so I've been discharged and I'm feeling ok. Thanks for replying. How are you?

Well done for getting out, it must be nice to have some freedom! Hope things continue to get better for you.

[Sultana]

(Original post by d123)
Ooh, Firefly or X-Men would both make fantastic choices, I'm jealous. You have good taste



Thank you! It went okay, citalopram dosage upped, which is probably a good thing, I think.

Hope the new dosage starts working for you soon.

[Anonymous]

(Original post by rmhumphries)
If it is the only option you have at the moment, I would say yes. You can always look for a job back near your home town in 6 months or so time (you don't want to change jobs too quickly), and it will be easier to get a better job closer to home if you have the experience from the job - and it will be nice for you to have some money coming in.

This job would be great on my CV. I know so. I know so many people are having problems with this recession and finding jobs. I kust so unsure with the costs, expenses. I do want to help my family financially as well- I am poor. This is a huge leap. I sound so pathetic. Plus my therapist, psychologist (I started them), I got to do a whole new one - it is getting on top of me.

[avhhs]

Just had a decent conversation with my dad about university

It was about which unis I've currently thought about applying to, what you get in halls, and how the maintenance loan works. (I hope he doesn't find out about the drinking culture that goes on in halls )

This was posted from The Student Room's Android App on my HTC Wildfire S

[CherryCherryBoomBoom]

I was feeling rather depressed at my internship today. I think I'm just really sick to death of all this working for free. Not really enjoying my life right now, but I keep hoping and waiting that it'll improve eventually.

[The_Lonely_Goatherd]

(Original post by d123)
Back from the appointment.

New New Doctor! (She'd clearly regenerated :P)

My prescription has been changed from 10mg to 20mg of citalopram which is apparently a more normal dose, they were just wary of putting me straight onto 20 because of my weight, or lack of it.

Hope this helps more

(Original post by bullettheory)
Hey guys, hope you are all ok

Been discharged from hospital today, which I am pleased about. I spoke to the consultant yesterday and she was quite blunt. Said that I "clearly have a lot of serious mental health problems" (not sure how to take that), but that I had two options, either I could work on getting through all my problems and use my potential to do what I want in life, or become a "full time psychiatric patient" and go from crisis to crisis, hospital to hospital. I see her point and I guess I needed a bit of scaring and a reality check...

But they are going to change some meds and the Home Treatment Team are going to come and see me for the next week or so to check I am taking the meds and that I am ok. Hopefully will be moving back to Bristol shortly. But tonight it's back to normal, and I can't wait to have a nice cold pint of cider

Really pleased you've been discharged. Enjoy your cider!

(Original post by superwolf)
Second time crying in public in two days.

(Original post by avhhs)
Just had a decent conversation with my dad about university

It was about which unis I've currently thought about applying to, what you get in halls, and how the maintenance loan works. (I hope he doesn't find out about the drinking culture that goes on in halls )

This was posted from The Student Room's Android App on my HTC Wildfire S

Sounds good

[avhhs]

(Original post by CherryCherryBoomBoom)
I was feeling rather depressed at my internship today. I think I'm just really sick to death of all this working for free. Not really enjoying my life right now, but I keep hoping and waiting that it'll improve eventually.

Hope things improve!

[whitepearlbaby]

Hai guiiiiiiiise Been feeling kinda weird today.

Pot.trig.

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[Anonymous]

(Original post by avhhs)
Hope things improve!

Thanks

[Sultana]

(Original post by CherryCherryBoomBoom)
I was feeling rather depressed at my internship today. I think I'm just really sick to death of all this working for free. Not really enjoying my life right now, but I keep hoping and waiting that it'll improve eventually.

Wheres your internship? Sucks to work for free, but it should be good experience no?

(Original post by whitepearlbaby)
Hai guiiiiiiiise Been feeling kinda weird today.

Pot.trig.

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Do I take some promethazine or not to calm down? Self-harm alarm

If you don't feel able to use distraction techniques to calm yourself down then I would say take it. Its better than the alternative and hopefully will take the edge off for you.

[CherryCherryBoomBoom]

(Original post by Anonymous)
Thanks

Sorry, the anon box keeps being automatically ticked for some reason

[CherryCherryBoomBoom]

(Original post by Sultana)
Wheres your internship? Sucks to work for free, but it should be good experience no?

It's an art gallery local to me. It's a very small company so the manager can't really afford to pay her interns. I really like looking at art and the work is OK but getting so boring. And this is like the 8th unpaid job I've had in my life now, and I just want someone to give me regular paid work already

[kahinalouise]

(Original post by superwolf)
That all sounds really stressful. Do you have anyone around you who you feel is on your side and that you can trust? Sounds like you could really do with having someone on your side to support you and maybe argue your case with some things (it's sometimes helpful to bring someone in when you've got meetings you're stressed about, or don't feel that you can express yourself on your own).

Really hope life gets easier for you soon, and remember that things like having to change college can sometimes actually work out for the best - I know that I've looked back and thought I'd probably have been a fair bit better off leaving school a couple of years early and going to the local college instead.

Thanks , nope I wish I did but that sounds like a good idea though, I will consider it for future meetings.
My psychiatrist is really supportive so that might help a bit.
I just plan to write things down and I might read them out

I know your right but there is only sixth forms in my area and one college as far as I know. I would like a fresh start, I will have to see I suppose.

Hope your doing okay

[whitepearlbaby]

(Original post by Sultana)

If you don't feel able to use distraction techniques to calm yourself down then I would say take it. Its better than the alternative and hopefully will take the edge off for you.

Thanks I'm going to bed now, hoping for a better day tomorrow

Night everyone

[avhhs]

5000th post

for everyone

[Sultana]

(Original post by whitepearlbaby)
Thanks I'm going to bed now, hoping for a better day tomorrow

Night everyone

Hope you sleep well!