[concubine]

Could go job hunting.


Could go for a run.


Could listen to music, smoke and drink.



HM.

[d123]

Need to go out. Can't motivate myself to move. Urgh.

[The_Lonely_Goatherd]

(Original post by d123)
Need to go out. Can't motivate myself to move. Urgh.

What do you need to go out for?

[SciFiRory]

(Original post by avhhs)
I've really had enough. Been really ill since yesterday. And then the appointment with the social worker. My dad was again lying as usual. They started going off on a tangent about family problems. At least my dad seems to have realised that I've completely given up. I really have. Just don't have interest in most things.

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sorry to hear you are doing so badly atm hope things pick up for you soon!

(Original post by d123)
Need to go out. Can't motivate myself to move. Urgh.

always sucks when you have trouble with motivation, is what you need to do important?

[Sabertooth]

(Original post by Noodlzzz)
When I get this some of these thoughts help ground me a bit:

- I've thought many times before I've been poisoned and nothing terrible happened on any of those occasions
- Practically how could they target just me and this specific food/meds?
- There are many other reasons I feel ill - different diet, stomach bug and anxiety making me notice everything 10x more
- Why/who would want to? (and if you can answer that) then - why now? There has been spies for nearly a year now - if they wanted me poisoned they would have done it a long time ago

Annoyingly, I could have answered each of those questions last night - that's part of the problem when I feel paranoid; I have an answer to absolutely everything, everything fits together perfectly.

(Original post by rmhumphries)
Possible placebo effect? You think you may have been poisoned, so you feel worse in expectation? Tis a possibility I think, along with things such as many other reasons for feeling sick.

Perhaps, I was worrying a lot so that probably made me feel even more sick.


Thanks for the support last night guys This morning I'm feeling pretty fragile. I got up at 11, ate cereal and then went back to bed until now. I don't feel sick so I guess I wasn't poisoned and the voices are tolerable right now. Got no motivation, feeling fairly depressed and anxious. Gonna try to read an article, probably won't manage it. Trying to think why things were so bad last night but I got nothing.

[d123]

(Original post by The_Lonely_Goatherd)
What do you need to go out for?

(Original post by SciFiRory)
sorry to hear you are doing so badly atm hope things pick up for you soon!



always sucks when you have trouble with motivation, is what you need to do important?

I'm meeting a friend who's also in the debating club, Amnesty are doing a joint event with them in October and he's their rep for organising it and wants to meet before he goes home for summer. So I really do have to go. I'm just so tired

[The_Lonely_Goatherd]

(Original post by d123)
I'm meeting a friend who's also in the debating club, Amnesty are doing a joint event with them in October and he's their rep for organising it and wants to meet before he goes home for summer. So I really do have to go. I'm just so tired

What time did you say you'll meet him? Would it be possible to try and nap beforehand?

[SciFiRory]

(Original post by d123)
I'm meeting a friend who's also in the debating club, Amnesty are doing a joint event with them in October and he's their rep for organising it and wants to meet before he goes home for summer. So I really do have to go. I'm just so tired

ah okay, can you not ask to meet another time? or maybe contact him by phone instead if you just need to talk?

[d123]

(Original post by The_Lonely_Goatherd)
What time did you say you'll meet him? Would it be possible to try and nap beforehand?

(Original post by SciFiRory)
ah okay, can you not ask to meet another time? or maybe contact him by phone instead if you just need to talk?

Meeting in half an hour, so can't nap. Leaving now. I'll nap when I get home. Can't meet another time because he's off home tomorrow for summer. And I hate talking on the phone. It'll be fine, I just need to force myself to go.

[The_Lonely_Goatherd]

(Original post by d123)
Meeting in half an hour, so can't nap. Leaving now. I'll nap when I get home. Can't meet another time because he's off home tomorrow for summer. And I hate talking on the phone. It'll be fine, I just need to force myself to go.

Good luck hun!

[SciFiRory]

(Original post by d123)
Meeting in half an hour, so can't nap. Leaving now. I'll nap when I get home. Can't meet another time because he's off home tomorrow for summer. And I hate talking on the phone. It'll be fine, I just need to force myself to go.

ah, okay then, good luck with the meeting and I hope you manage some sleep when you get home

[insignificant]

Guys, I've been on mirtazapine for 2 weeks and its literally changed my life, I can't even begin to tell you.


This morning, for the first time, since I had to change universities because of it three years ago, I managed to get on a train. I MANAGED TO GET ON A MOTHER ****ING TRAIN !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Should've seen me in the train station when i got back.. I went slightly nuts.

I then went to go treat myself to a new pair of jeans to discover I've gone down to a size 8

So I then decided to buy a car

[SciFiRory]

(Original post by insignificant)
Guys, I've been on mirtazapine for 2 weeks and its literally changed my life, I can't even begin to tell you.


This morning, for the first time, since I had to change universities because of it three years ago, I managed to get on a train. I MANAGED TO GET ON A MOTHER ****ING TRAIN !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Should've seen me in the train station when i got back.. I went slightly nuts.

I then went to go treat myself to a new pair of jeans to discover I've gone down to a size 8

So I then decided to buy a car

congrats glad to hear it's helping you so much and things are looking up for you!

[insignificant]

(Original post by SciFiRory)
congrats glad to hear it's helping you so much and things are looking up for you!

I feel like I'm... normal! Like on cloud 9 or something its mad.

[Anonymous]

(Original post by insignificant)
Guys, I've been on mirtazapine for 2 weeks and its literally changed my life, I can't even begin to tell you.


This morning, for the first time, since I had to change universities because of it three years ago, I managed to get on a train. I MANAGED TO GET ON A MOTHER ****ING TRAIN !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Should've seen me in the train station when i got back.. I went slightly nuts.

I then went to go treat myself to a new pair of jeans to discover I've gone down to a size 8

So I then decided to buy a car

That's awesome. So glad to hear it's working so well for you

[Sabertooth]

Grrrrr...that's me ^

[bytail]

(Original post by Honeyx)
Thank you for the encouragement!
I'm making myself a nice colorful timetable that I will hopefully stick to!
Have a feeling will be posting more on here in the next few wks, don't want to tell any of my friends...med students aren't the nicest when it comes to hearing of other peoples failure! Even though non of my uni friends know I'm unwell. them just thinking I'm stupid is embarrassing enough

That sounds like a good idea Medicine is such a tough course, you really shouldn't feel bad about failing. You can't help being unwell Perhaps they'd be more supportive if you told them about the problems you're having? Only if you feel comfortable doing so, of course

(Original post by Anonymous)
Marking my 7 weeks in hospital with 2 days leave from the place!
Been up and down over the past few days but I'm definitely down today.

Hope everybody is doing well

Jesus, you've been stuck in there a long time Any idea when they might discharge you?

(Original post by insignificant)
Guys, I've been on mirtazapine for 2 weeks and its literally changed my life, I can't even begin to tell you.


This morning, for the first time, since I had to change universities because of it three years ago, I managed to get on a train. I MANAGED TO GET ON A MOTHER ****ING TRAIN !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Should've seen me in the train station when i got back.. I went slightly nuts.

I then went to go treat myself to a new pair of jeans to discover I've gone down to a size 8

So I then decided to buy a car

Wow, that's great! I'm so happy for you

[SciFiRory]

(Original post by insignificant)
I feel like I'm... normal! Like on cloud 9 or something its mad.

awesome

[sunfowers01]

Feeling all alone and miserable I need to focus, but I just can't

[bullettheory]

Hey guys, another quick update from me. Unfortunately after being on a section 136 last night, I had a Mental Health Act assessment this morning and I've been sectioned. So I'm going back to the hospital I was in before. Feel a complete failure, I didn't think this would happen, I didn't believe it, but it has. I don't know...


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