[Kiss]

I need to stop listening to Super Bass by Nicki Minaj............

[Sabertooth]

(Original post by luno)
I can't do this essay. I have 4 tests before next Thursday and I can't stop messing things up. Why can't I just sit down and do some work?!

I spent a couple of hours researching for a question, went to a lecture and changed my mind and chose a different question. I just keep going from one question to the other hoping for a 'eureka' moment so I can do this stupid essay.

And I have been on the verge of tears all day. I just want to hide in bed and cry.

Rant over.

Ask for an extension?

[superwolf]

(Original post by Sabertooth)
I thought it was last week?

Nope, tomorrow. Along with the Spanish oral a couple of hours later. Last week was the written Spanish which I walked out of. But tomorrow I get to talk either about how under both capitalism and communism Russian education is just the government's means of manipulation of youth (although at least under the Soviets you got some actual education as a sort of by-product), or my personal favourite: why Russia is so ****ed that we should just let people be alcoholics cos it's the only way they'll be getting the slightest happiness out of life.

(Original post by luno)
I can't do this essay. I have 4 tests before next Thursday and I can't stop messing things up. Why can't I just sit down and do some work?!

I spent a couple of hours researching for a question, went to a lecture and changed my mind and chose a different question. I just keep going from one question to the other hoping for a 'eureka' moment so I can do this stupid essay.

And I have been on the verge of tears all day. I just want to hide in bed and cry.

Rant over.

General subject, and do you get to make up your own questions? Might be that one of us can help you talk it over a bit. And yeah, get an extension.

[Webberino]

(Original post by jermaindefoe)
2 weeks so far, i had them before and they worked eventually but its jsut my motivation has gone for anything, it shouldn't be like this i had such a lot to look forward too, 6 years of solid work after coming from where i was is nuts, on course for a first and all to go at the last hurdle.

Hopefully they will start working this time too. It doesn't have too, there are things that can be done.

(Original post by Anonymous)
That's great, well done!

I am going for now but my mum said if I don't feel like going on the day then it isn't a problem.

Coursework deadline is tomorrow and I'm just sat here. Really struggling with motivation. I have to make corrections to the coursework I did in about half an hour in February because I couldn't be bothered doing it then either. It won't go away!
Feeling down again and that makes me feel a bit relieved that I'm not inbetween anymore.
Fluoxetine dose was upped yesterday so my sleep is just getting worse and worse. I'm not too bad getting to sleep, it's usually under an hour now but I wake up loads in the night and rising early is a problem too. I've got a weird achey headache atm, not sure if that's a side effect.

How have you been today?

Thanks just wish it could happen everyday.

Ah ok that sounds good.

Hopefully it will eventually. Hope you manage to do some of it.
Hmm I've had that, minds are strange things!
Hopefully it won't last much longer

[Anonymous]

(Original post by Violet_apple)
Hey if I'm reading this correctly you're worrying because everyone will graduate before you? that shouldn't be a problem, when I (eventually) go to uni everyone will be three years ahead. Then again I myself feel bad about the same thing, so I guess this is one of those cases where I can see the logic and apply it to you but not myself. Still, take my advice: in the long term it does not matter in the slightest, lots of people at uni are older than 18.

I am sorry you are feeling so bad How long have you been on meds for? If it has been a reasonable number of weeks then maybe they are not the right ones and you should go to your doctor to try and get something that works. DO NOT STOP TAKING WHAT YOU ARE TAKING. Even skipping doses is bad. Last year I was on meds and I kept forgetting and it led to me being so, so, much worse. I ended up hallucinating. Once I came off them I was better because not having a steady dose screwed up my brain chemistry.

Do you mean 'queer' as in gay or 'queer' as in odd? If you mean as in gay that is not a problem at all and you should not try and change trust me. Feeling guilty for that is really sad. Even though I struggle with myself sometimes too....

I realise that this message probably doesn't make sense because I am in the middle of a minor breakdown and so my concentration and my verbalisation of what I want to say isn't very good. Keep going though. It will work out okay even if it takes a little while longer than it does for other people. Remember that you are unwell and it is not a weakness of character or a failure on your part.

I am under no meds actually, my psycologists told me i dont need it bcs she belives I am a fighter........god i am tired of fighting but i still listen to her bcs
she gove a lof good advice, after my exam probably I will go and visit her again
but the depressin really sucks....talking about it makes you feel etter for sometime but trust me the whole day reallly sucks( i just dnt why the sadness dosnt leave

[Sabertooth]

(Original post by superwolf)
Nope, tomorrow. Along with the Spanish oral a couple of hours later. Last week was the written Spanish which I walked out of. But tomorrow I get to talk either about how under both capitalism and communism Russian education is just the government's means of manipulation of youth (although at least under the Soviets you got some actual education as a sort of by-product), or my personal favourite: why Russia is so ****ed that we should just let people be alcoholics cos it's the only way they'll be getting the slightest happiness out of life.

Sounds interesting, but whilst I don't profess to know a great deal about the Soviet education system, I wouldn't have thought that it would have been all that educational. Probably teaches you how to contribute to a communal farm and how to drive a tractor if you're a woman and how 20million people weren't killed by Stalin.

Are you actually going to argue that the individual's happiness is the main reason for allowing alcoholism?

[CherryCherryBoomBoom]

(Original post by Nut.)
You have Zingy as your avatar

LOVE those EDF Energy adverts.

(To all hiding under rocks: )

Yep, love it

[Anonymous]

(Original post by Webberino)
Thanks just wish it could happen everyday.

Ah ok that sounds good.

Hopefully it will eventually. Hope you manage to do some of it.
Hmm I've had that, minds are strange things!
Hopefully it won't last much longer

I'm sure it will eventually

Thanks. It's not even actually writing it, I've done all of the writing, I just need to copy up.

I've spent the last few weeks convincing myself that exams are too far away for me to be worried about. It was going great until I realise my first exam is next week. In a way I'm glad I don't care because the added pressure would make me feel worse. Although I bet when they closer I'll crack, happened with January exams.

[luno]

(Original post by superwolf)
Nope, tomorrow. Along with the Spanish oral a couple of hours later. Last week was the written Spanish which I walked out of. But tomorrow I get to talk either about how under both capitalism and communism Russian education is just the government's means of manipulation of youth (although at least under the Soviets you got some actual education as a sort of by-product), or my personal favourite: why Russia is so ****ed that we should just let people be alcoholics cos it's the only way they'll be getting the slightest happiness out of life.



General subject, and do you get to make up your own questions? Might be that one of us can help you talk it over a bit. And yeah, get an extension.

Good luck with the speaking exams. I have three next week

It's for a surrealism module and it's a choice of 5 questions. I just feel really unprepared and overwhelmed about the amount of reading. My lecturer always says he is not bothered about students doing loads of reading and would rather read our own thoughts and opinions but my brain feels empty. My friend said read around first and use what you have read to form your own opinion, which I am trying to do now.

(Original post by Sabertooth)
Ask for an extension?

I can't... I don't know why but I just can't. I feel like it's my fault... everyone else is in my class is getting their essay done so why can't I? I still have a week so all is not lost. I just hope I can write something decent.

I hope you are both feeling as good as you can be

[superwolf]

(Original post by Sabertooth)
Sounds interesting, but whilst I don't profess to know a great deal about the Soviet education system, I wouldn't have thought that it would have been all that educational. Probably teaches you how to contribute to a communal farm and how to drive a tractor if you're a woman and how 20million people weren't killed by Stalin.

Are you actually going to argue that the individual's happiness is the main reason for allowing alcoholism?

Nah nah nah, Soviet educational system was one of the best in the world. Yeah you got all the propaganda and crap (which I do mention, no whitewashing here), but you also got great teaching in maths, science, literature, a whole ton of stuff. Pretty much everybody was seriously well educated. And knew how to drive a tractor.

Pretty much, yeah. I point out a few of the bazillions of social problems caused by and causing alcoholism in Russia, do a brief bit about how long-sighted strategies to tackle all the inequalities might help, and then say that since it's basically as unlikely as pigs flying that Russia will actually get a government that'll do that, you'd have to be a right bastard to deny people the only solace they're ever likely to get, i.e. drink!

[Sabertooth]

(Original post by luno)
I can't... I don't know why but I just can't. I feel like it's my fault... everyone else is in my class is getting their essay done so why can't I? I still have a week so all is not lost. I just hope I can write something decent.

I hope you are both feeling as good as you can be

Depression and the associated problems of lack of concentration and lack of motivation, probably aren't actually your fault.

It is of course up to you, and you do still have time you're right, but if it gets closer and you still can't manage it you should ask for an extension, there's no shame in it.

I just sent an email today asking for an extension on my essay, it took a lot of persuasion but I'm sure it's for the best now.

[Sabertooth]

(Original post by superwolf)
Nah nah nah, Soviet educational system was one of the best in the world. Yeah you got all the propaganda and crap (which I do mention, no whitewashing here), but you also got great teaching in maths, science, literature, a whole ton of stuff. Pretty much everybody was seriously well educated. And knew how to drive a tractor.

Pretty much, yeah. I point out a few of the bazillions of social problems caused by and causing alcoholism in Russia, do a brief bit about how long-sighted strategies to tackle all the inequalities might help, and then say that since it's basically as unlikely as pigs flying that Russia will actually get a government that'll do that, you'd have to be a right bastard to deny people the only solace they're ever likely to get, i.e. drink!

Ah yes, I just realized that you are right (again *grumble*). The only person I know who was brought up in the Great Soviet Union is absolutely insanely good at mathematics. You give her any 2 numbers and she can multiply them in seconds in her head. I forgot about that. I still maintain that learning how to draw Soviet leaders so many times that you can do it in your sleep probably wasn't all that useful however. Except to impress Westerners, which is definitely does.

Heh good argument. Does Russia have a problem with an aging population or does everyone die off before they get old? If it's the latter then it's avoiding one problem that's plaguing most developed societies. I have a feeling it's the former however with the whole Babushka thing.

Good luck anyway, I'm sure you'll do great you really seem to know your ****.

[superwolf]

(Original post by luno)
Good luck with the speaking exams. I have three next week

It's for a surrealism module and it's a choice of 5 questions. I just feel really unprepared and overwhelmed about the amount of reading. My lecturer always says he is not bothered about students doing loads of reading and would rather read our own thoughts and opinions but my brain feels empty. My friend said read around first and use what you have read to form your own opinion, which I am trying to do now.

Reading up around it sounds like a good idea, I also find that talking the subject over with other people can help spark off your own ideas (preferably with people who know a bit about the subject of course, which I don't [apart from having watched Un Chien Andalou a bazillion times ], but if you like you could try explaining some of it to me and seeing if that helps [not tonight though - busy obviously]).

[Webberino]

(Original post by Anonymous)
I'm sure it will eventually

Thanks. It's not even actually writing it, I've done all of the writing, I just need to copy up.

I've spent the last few weeks convincing myself that exams are too far away for me to be worried about. It was going great until I realise my first exam is next week. In a way I'm glad I don't care because the added pressure would make me feel worse. Although I bet when they closer I'll crack, happened with January exams.

Hopefully, today has got less and less productive as it progressed.

Good luck

Whatever happens, your circumstances can be taken into account in the future, hopefully you will be feeling better then.

[luno]

(Original post by Sabertooth)
Depression and the associated problems of lack of concentration and lack of motivation, probably aren't actually your fault.

It is of course up to you, and you do still have time you're right, but if it gets closer and you still can't manage it you should ask for an extension, there's no shame in it.

I just sent an email today asking for an extension on my essay, it took a lot of persuasion but I'm sure it's for the best now.

Thank you. I will post how I get on .

At least one of us has asked for an extention !

[luno]

(Original post by superwolf)
Reading up around it sounds like a good idea, I also find that talking the subject over with other people can help spark off your own ideas (preferably with people who know a bit about the subject of course, which I don't [apart from having watched Un Chien Andalou a bazillion times ], but if you like you could try explaining some of it to me and seeing if that helps [not tonight though - busy obviously]).

I might when I get my head around it and start to comprehend what I am supposed to do !

One of the options was actually a question on Un Chien Andalou, which no one in the class chose, prompting our teacher to mutter loudly "I know what question I will not be setting next year"

Do you find the eye thing scary? I hadn't seen it before this module and everyone were going on about how horrible and disgusting it is but I didn't mind it ! The more I watch it, the more I like it (not the eye bit, the whole short film in general )!

Good luck again for tomorrow!

[Anonymous]

(Original post by Webberino)
Hopefully, today has got less and less productive as it progressed.

Good luck

Whatever happens, your circumstances can be taken into account in the future, hopefully you will be feeling better then.

I hope it's better tomorrow!

Thanks.

I think I'm just expecting to wake up one day and be back to my old self. It's going to take ages and take a lot of hard work to get my work ethic and motivation back.

[CherryCherryBoomBoom]

For the past few days at least I've been tired almost all the time

I really want a happy pill

[Anonymous]

i have homework in for tomorrow, a mock exam on thursday, and an AS retake next tuesday. and what am i doing? reading sense and sensibility. i dont even do english ffs.

also, i am pretty sure the same car alarm goes off everytime i sit down to revise. i swear, somebody cant be stealing the same damned car every minute of the day

[SciFiRory]

(Original post by CherryCherryBoomBoom)
For the past few days at least I've been tired almost all the time

I really want a happy pill

same, still sleeping far too much on the mirtazapine!

I think we all do!