[Sabertooth]

(Original post by Noodlzzz)
I wrote to my tutor that I couldn't attend my statistics exam because the spies my follow me there. I think I freaked him out enough to not ask anymore questions :P

Tempted....very tempted.



It's not a good idea is it? I mean it would come in handy when it comes round to getting an extension on my dissertation but...hmmm, maybe not.

[bullettheory]

(Original post by superwolf)
Bullettheory is awesome,
Bullettheory is great,
Who gets to have sex with bullettheory
Is TSR's biggest debate.

Now that's poetry.

(Original post by ViceVersa)
Think I've finally finished the letter I've been writing for Social Services. Kinda scary actually, but I've completed it. Just need to take the next step now.

Well done.

(Original post by ViceVersa)
Argh, so angry and frustrated. Yet another person who sucks and who is making things difficult. Why do some people do that, just start acting weird with you? FFS. Guess ima be cutting yet another person outta my life I really should have no expectations of people..

If someone is making things difficult for you then they are not worth being in your life. You deserve better than that.

[rmhumphries]

(Original post by ViceVersa)
Think I've finally finished the letter I've been writing for Social Services. Kinda scary actually, but I've completed it. Just need to take the next step now.

Well done

[superwolf]

(Original post by Sabertooth)
aaaaarrrrrggggghhhhh, why isn't anything easy? There's a million billion trillion forms to fill in for a simple extension.

It says "please fully explain the reasons for the extension and how the circumstances affected your ability".

Wtf do I write?

"Oh sorry yeah I thought the government was going to kidnap, torture and brutally murder me so I didn't think writing a lame essay was particularly important."

I would. Last time I had to fill in one of those forms I just put "I am suicidal." Stuck in a doctor's note and got the extension fine.

[Noodlzzz]

So just got back from therapy. We were talking about my family and I was getting really annoyed and saying how they don't help blah blah blah and the whole time the therapist was looking at me very strangely. Only just realised when I got back what I was wearing...

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I guess she thought I had some kind of psychotic death wish on them

[Anonymous]

I decided last night that, after battling with what I *think* is depression for quite a while now, I should probably go to a professional. I'm not really sure who, though, and I dislike my GP - he was useless when I went to him before. I also don't really know how to explain my feelings - but they are impacting upon my social life and uni work and things as well as my physical health, and I'm fed up of almost constantly feeling useless. I was wondering if any of you lovely people had any advice for me? (Sorry if this isn't the right place!)

I'll stay anon for the time being but I might de-anon myself at some point. I know people on here and as I've only told one person in the entire world about how I feel I'd rather keep it under wraps for now.

[Meaty_man]

(Original post by Noodlzzz)
So just got back from therapy. We were talking about my family and I was getting really annoyed and saying how they don't help blah blah blah and the whole time the therapist was looking at me very strangely. Only just realised when I got back what I was wearing...

Spoiler:

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I guess she thought I had some kind of psychotic death wish on them

haha, that's an ace shirt tho

I've been having so much trouble trying to stay awake recently...its like all i want to do is sleep, and no matter how much i sleep, i still feel tired when i'm awake :\ I could chug caffeine all day but im pretty sure that isn't good for your health. Its annoying as ive got stuff to design for our game me and my mates are starting to make :| Not to mention sleeping day and night feels like a huge waste of time...

(Original post by Anonymous)


I decided last night that, after battling with what I *think* is depression for quite a while now, I should probably go to a professional. I'm not really sure who, though, and I dislike my GP - he was useless when I went to him before. I also don't really know how to explain my feelings - but they are impacting upon my social life and uni work and things as well as my physical health, and I'm fed up of almost constantly feeling useless. I was wondering if any of you lovely people had any advice for me? (Sorry if this isn't the right place!)

I'll stay anon for the time being but I might de-anon myself at some point. I know people on here and as I've only told one person in the entire world about how I feel I'd rather keep it under wraps for now.

Maybe ask if you could change your GP? I don't see it being a problem. If you don't wanna do that you could always change the place u go to, theres a bunch of different GP places where i am anyway. As for explaining your feelings, say what you've basically said here; you've been feeling **** for a while now and so you think its depression, and it's impacting various aspects of your life.

Its pretty normal to not quite know if its depression or not, since it can be so gradual you don't really notice. When u see a decent GP about it, they'll recommend all the normal stuff; exercise, therpy, councilling. Personally i would say give the "natural" methods a go before resorting to meds, unless you are in a REAL bad spot right now and can't take it any more.

[Anonymous]

(Original post by Meaty_man)
Maybe ask if you could change your GP? I don't see it being a problem. If you don't wanna do that you could always change the place u go to, theres a bunch of different GP places where i am anyway. As for explaining your feelings, say what you've basically said here; you've been feeling **** for a while now and so you think its depression, and it's impacting various aspects of your life.

Its pretty normal to not quite know if its depression or not, since it can be so gradual you don't really notice. When u see a decent GP about it, they'll recommend all the normal stuff; exercise, therpy, councilling. Personally i would say give the "natural" methods a go before resorting to meds, unless you are in a REAL bad spot right now and can't take it any more.

Thanks. I'm in a big city so there's plenty of alternative places I could go to - I hate going to the doctor for ANYTHING, especially something serious like this. The natural methods would be far preferable - I'm one of those people who hate taking medication for anything - I won't even take paracetamol when I have a headache, I'm not quite sure why. Obviously I will go on meds if I have to, and if they'll help - the first hurdle is getting over my doctor-phobia to actually get it sorted. It's difficult, because I've had symptoms of depression on and off since I was about 14, and I'm now 20. I've always tried to pretend there's nothing wrong and just 'battle through' which isn't the healthiest attitude, and it's resulted in probably exacerbating the problems. This is probably the most prolonged period of problems I've had though. I can point to causes (major life issues which caused an awful lot of stress) but they've mostly been sorted now but my mood hasn't improved at all.

[Sabertooth]

(Original post by superwolf)
I would. Last time I had to fill in one of those forms I just put "I am suicidal." Stuck in a doctor's note and got the extension fine.

Heh, straight to the point.

Still haven't decided what to put. I have a vague sentence about lack of concentration but I don't have a diagnosis or anything so dunno what else to write.

(Original post by Noodlzzz)
So just got back from therapy. We were talking about my family and I was getting really annoyed and saying how they don't help blah blah blah and the whole time the therapist was looking at me very strangely. Only just realised when I got back what I was wearing...

Spoiler:

Show

I guess she thought I had some kind of psychotic death wish on them

Nicely done. (I like the tshirt too )

I was wearing a tshirt which said "big government = big problems" when I last saw my psychiatrist, she didn't comment and it was completely unintentional but pretty amusing when I realized after.

[Meaty_man]

(Original post by Anonymous)
Thanks. I'm in a big city so there's plenty of alternative places I could go to - I hate going to the doctor for ANYTHING, especially something serious like this. The natural methods would be far preferable - I'm one of those people who hate taking medication for anything - I won't even take paracetamol when I have a headache, I'm not quite sure why. Obviously I will go on meds if I have to, and if they'll help - the first hurdle is getting over my doctor-phobia to actually get it sorted. It's difficult, because I've had symptoms of depression on and off since I was about 14, and I'm now 20. I've always tried to pretend there's nothing wrong and just 'battle through' which isn't the healthiest attitude, and it's resulted in probably exacerbating the problems. This is probably the most prolonged period of problems I've had though. I can point to causes (major life issues which caused an awful lot of stress) but they've mostly been sorted now but my mood hasn't improved at all.

Your attitude to it sounds quite similar to mine :P When i started to realise i may be depressed, i tried to fight through it with strength of will, and kept telling myself i was "weak" for letting it get to me, i thought that if i kept trying i could mentally break through it.

Now i realise that doesn't really work, depression is a mental illness, it gets past your concious thought and into your subconcious; it's REALLY hard to change things on that level since its so deep, at that point things have been drilled into you.

Keep telling yourself that it's not your fault that you're depressed, some of us are born with it, some of us develop it, and often it can be a mix of both. Sometimes you may think that you're being silly for worrying about small things so much, but again, thats just part of the illness, its not your fault.

If you want to truly be strong, you go to your GP asap, tell them your problems, and they'll give you a bunch of options. It's then up to you to give them a good try and see if they work. To treat depression you need to go about it the right way

[CherryCherryBoomBoom]

(Original post by SciFiBoy)
lol, that's what they do if they work for you yeah, for me they don't suppress anything though :/

that's pretty odd (I think?) that they haven't prescribed you any even if you feel they might help you :/ I mean they are wary at first I think about diagnosing people, my old GP wanted me to try counselling first (this was back in 2008 and the counselling didn't work out because the counsellor I saw kept asking me about my family rather than things I wanted to talk about), seems pretty bad though if they haven't helped you and you have been struggling to the point you failed exams and stuff? you seem anything but crap to me, is just the depression talking! maybe if you tell your GP how you feel about things and how much you feel it affects you they might do something?

I did go to the GP a few weeks ago, basically the first time in about 2 years and shown him a letter about most of what was bothering me and what I thought might have been signs of depression. He told me to apply for counselling (which I did and I'm still on the waiting list) and then when I've had one session then come back to him in a few weeks for a double appointment to discuss my depression further. So I'm just basically waiting for that at the moment. Since I'm not in education at the moment I suppose it doesn't matter as much trying to get urgent help now. I reckon getting a good job and earning good money would cheer me up, but since that's not even happening then I dunno . Just gonna have to wait and see if my life improves a bit.

[SciFiRory]

(Original post by CherryCherryBoomBoom)
I did go to the GP a few weeks ago, basically the first time in about 2 years and shown him a letter about most of what was bothering me and what I thought might have been signs of depression. He told me to apply for counselling (which I did and I'm still on the waiting list) and then when I've had one session then come back to him in a few weeks for a double appointment to discuss my depression further. So I'm just basically waiting for that at the moment. Since I'm not in education at the moment I suppose it doesn't matter as much trying to get urgent help now. I reckon getting a good job and earning good money would cheer me up, but since that's not even happening then I dunno . Just gonna have to wait and see if my life improves a bit.

ah, okay, well hopefully the counselling people give you an appointment soon so you can talk to them and then to your GP that must be hard I can imagine, did you apply for many jobs? hopefully you can find one and that will help things!

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really missing Uni right now have nothing to do but all my friends are doing things and all seem so happy and everything, I doubt most of them will even care when I do go back because they will just think im stupid or something cause I won't have been around for so long feel so utterly alone and I just feel like there is no hope for my future at all.

[Anonymous]

(Original post by Meaty_man)
Your attitude to it sounds quite similar to mine :P When i started to realise i may be depressed, i tried to fight through it with strength of will, and kept telling myself i was "weak" for letting it get to me, i thought that if i kept trying i could mentally break through it.

Now i realise that doesn't really work, depression is a mental illness, it gets past your concious thought and into your subconcious; it's REALLY hard to change things on that level since its so deep, at that point things have been drilled into you.

Keep telling yourself that it's not your fault that you're depressed, some of us are born with it, some of us develop it, and often it can be a mix of both. Sometimes you may think that you're being silly for worrying about small things so much, but again, thats just part of the illness, its not your fault.

If you want to truly be strong, you go to your GP asap, tell them your problems, and they'll give you a bunch of options. It's then up to you to give them a good try and see if they work. To treat depression you need to go about it the right way

Thanks That's helpful. I'll try and get to the GP as soon as I can, there's a fair few around which are drop-in clinics so that avoids the having to make an appointment issue. I don't really feel like I'm old enough to do that by myself! (Which I'm aware is ridiculous, I'm in my second year of university, I live virtually by myself as my flatmate's always AWOL and I've coped with a lot of things that are a LOT more difficult than making a GP appointment!)

I should go and have a shower... I was about to have one last night but in the state I was in I decided being close to sharp things like razors was a bad idea. I'm slightly calmer now so it should be safe. Meant to be going to a friend's for a meal tonight which I'm strangely nervous about - recently I've been doing rubbish at socialising, unless I'm drunk in which case I'm fine. It would have been ok, the only 'real life' person I've told about this was meant to be going but he told me yesterday he can't. I'm always more relaxed and happier when he's around Hopefully it'll be fine though.

[Sabertooth]

(Original post by Anonymous)


I decided last night that, after battling with what I *think* is depression for quite a while now, I should probably go to a professional. I'm not really sure who, though, and I dislike my GP - he was useless when I went to him before. I also don't really know how to explain my feelings - but they are impacting upon my social life and uni work and things as well as my physical health, and I'm fed up of almost constantly feeling useless. I was wondering if any of you lovely people had any advice for me? (Sorry if this isn't the right place!)

I'll stay anon for the time being but I might de-anon myself at some point. I know people on here and as I've only told one person in the entire world about how I feel I'd rather keep it under wraps for now.

Howdie.

If you don't like your GP you can simply ask to see another one at the same practice, that shouldn't be a problem.

As for how to explain, what I did was write it all down on a bit of paper and then hand the doctor that. That way everything came out exactly how I wanted it to, I didn't forget or miss mentioning anything and the doctor got a perfect impression of the problem. Might be worth trying that.

I saw your other post that you don't like medication, you could try saint john's wort for a natural remedy if you don't want prescription drugs. It's been shown to have an effect on mild depression. However, you also say you've been depressed going on 6 years, I think this is an indicator that it's probably not just a phase and it's probably not going to disappear on its own, so I'd say having a chat with a doctor is probably a good idea.

[Anonymous]

(Original post by Sabertooth)
Howdie.

If you don't like your GP you can simply ask to see another one at the same practice, that shouldn't be a problem.

As for how to explain, what I did was write it all down on a bit of paper and then hand the doctor that. That way everything came out exactly how I wanted it to, I didn't forget or miss mentioning anything and the doctor got a perfect impression of the problem. Might be worth trying that.

I saw your other post that you don't like medication, you could try saint john's wort for a natural remedy if you don't want prescription drugs. It's been shown to have an effect on mild depression. However, you also say you've been depressed going on 6 years, I think this is an indicator that it's probably not just a phase and it's probably not going to disappear on its own, so I'd say having a chat with a doctor is probably a good idea.

Thanks, I like the writing down idea. I can be quite articulate on paper, but when I'm talking I tend to rush and get nervous and confused with what I'm saying (possibly a result of years of having to have speech therapy as a child? I don't know) and as a result, I miss things out.

[luno]

My best friend started to talk about the point of life and how we are just born to die. She said something like 'what's the point? I mean seriously, it's like we are living for nothing'. And instead of saying 'that's how I feel too' I put on a happy face and started to talk about how good life is . I feel like that was an open opportunity to talk about how I am feeling but I couldn't. I am a total coward.

[CherryCherryBoomBoom]

(Original post by SciFiBoy)
ah, okay, well hopefully the counselling people give you an appointment soon so you can talk to them and then to your GP that must be hard I can imagine, did you apply for many jobs? hopefully you can find one and that will help things!

Yeah, I've been applying for loads of jobs in the past 2 years or so. Last year I was occupied with college so it wasn't so bad that I didn't get one, but now I've left and have so much free time and still can't get one, it's just irritating . It's another thing making depressed as well, and sometimes I really lose the motivation to bother. I did manage to apply for a couple of jobs today though.

really missing Uni right now have nothing to do but all my friends are doing things and all seem so happy and everything, I doubt most of them will even care when I do go back because they will just think im stupid or something cause I won't have been around for so long feel so utterly alone and I just feel like there is no hope for my future at all.

Have you tried getting in contact with your friends again? If they're not anything like my useless "friends", then hopefully they'd be happy to hear back from you and hang with you again .

What do you do with your time at the moment? Are you looking for a job or are you just pretty much relaxing all these months before going back to uni?

[Meaty_man]

(Original post by Anonymous)
Thanks That's helpful. I'll try and get to the GP as soon as I can, there's a fair few around which are drop-in clinics so that avoids the having to make an appointment issue. I don't really feel like I'm old enough to do that by myself! (Which I'm aware is ridiculous, I'm in my second year of university, I live virtually by myself as my flatmate's always AWOL and I've coped with a lot of things that are a LOT more difficult than making a GP appointment!)

I should go and have a shower... I was about to have one last night but in the state I was in I decided being close to sharp things like razors was a bad idea. I'm slightly calmer now so it should be safe. Meant to be going to a friend's for a meal tonight which I'm strangely nervous about - recently I've been doing rubbish at socialising, unless I'm drunk in which case I'm fine. It would have been ok, the only 'real life' person I've told about this was meant to be going but he told me yesterday he can't. I'm always more relaxed and happier when he's around Hopefully it'll be fine though.

A shower sounds good, always makes you feel more refreshed I must admit i can be very nervous at social things too, and unless im drunk/high on nights out i start to break down, better than i used to be tho. Try and keep track of where you improve, it will give you the strength to keep going

[SciFiRory]

(Original post by CherryCherryBoomBoom)
Yeah, I've been applying for loads of jobs in the past 2 years or so. Last year I was occupied with college so it wasn't so bad that I didn't get one, but now I've left and have so much free time and still can't get one, it's just irritating . It's another thing making depressed as well, and sometimes I really lose the motivation to bother. I did manage to apply for a couple of jobs today though.



Have you tried getting in contact with your friends again? If they're not anything like my useless "friends", then hopefully they'd be happy to hear back from you and hang with you again .

What do you do with your time at the moment? Are you looking for a job or are you just pretty much relaxing all these months before going back to uni?

ah, that sucks, hopefully if you keep looking eventually you find one though and they will hopefully give you a job and yeah keeping motivation is very hard especially when depressed!


I can chat to people on facebook when they bother to reply but just isn't the same, plus is a long way from here to where I was at Uni so I can't really pop back for a visit easily or often sometimes I question if some of them are my friends anyway tbh and I just worry even more about this now im not there and stuff.

applied for a couple of part time jobs, don't think im really in a fit state to work if im honest but I feel like I should at least try I guess, though not heard back on either of the ones I applied for lately. I try to relax or have fun but often I feel to low and stuff to even enjoy things like watching tv or playing a game just want to feel better really but is hard and always seems to be a long wait for things as well.

[headunderwater]

Ugh I'm so ill at the moment. In better news, I GOT THE INTERVIEW AT THE COLLEGE I'M HOPING TO GO TO. Would've been the 14th but I've this bloody PD assessment so the interview's on the 21st now.