[Sabertooth]

Got about 40 minutes sleep total last night, despite taking 4 promethazine. So ****ing tired.

Seeing my brother today, haven't seen him in over 2 years so hopefully that will go ok. Hoping he doesn't ask questions about my scars, don't know if my mum told him I'm seeing a psychiatrist....that could be awkward. I bet he's changed loads and we probably won't get on anymore which would be a massive shame, we used to get along so well.

[superwolf]

(Original post by Sabertooth)
Got about 40 minutes sleep total last night, despite taking 4 promethazine. So ****ing tired.

Seeing my brother today, haven't seen him in over 2 years so hopefully that will go ok. Hoping he doesn't ask questions about my scars, don't know if my mum told him I'm seeing a psychiatrist....that could be awkward. I bet he's changed loads and we probably won't get on anymore which would be a massive shame, we used to get along so well.

Hope it goes well. And remember that none of your scars are new - that's something to be proud of.

[Sabertooth]

(Original post by superwolf)
Hope it goes well. And remember that none of your scars are new - that's something to be proud of.

I hope so too. I bought some cider to share - one of them's rhubarb and apple.

It's true none of them are new, but there's still a hell of a lot. I think actually I'll wear long sleeves, I really don't want the awkwardness.

[superwolf]

(Original post by Sabertooth)
I hope so too. I bought some cider to share - one of them's rhubarb and apple.

It's true none of them are new, but there's still a hell of a lot. I think actually I'll wear long sleeves, I really don't want the awkwardness.

Can't go wrong with cider.

Not a bad idea if you think it'll make you more comfortable - you want to be relaxing and enjoying your time with your brother, not worrying about some irrelevant issue.

[avhhs]

(Original post by Sabertooth)
Got about 40 minutes sleep total last night, despite taking 4 promethazine. So ****ing tired.

Seeing my brother today, haven't seen him in over 2 years so hopefully that will go ok. Hoping he doesn't ask questions about my scars, don't know if my mum told him I'm seeing a psychiatrist....that could be awkward. I bet he's changed loads and we probably won't get on anymore which would be a massive shame, we used to get along so well.

I hope you two have a good time . You're really lucky lucky that you get on with your family

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[sunfowers01]

Can't stop thinking about "the easy way out"

[avhhs]

(Original post by sunfowers01)
Can't stop thinking about "the easy way out"

! Please stay strong. Otherwise loads of people would miss you

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[luno]

(Original post by usycool1)
Welcome back I was wondering where you'd gone



I am really very sorry to hear about your loss. Crying is a good way, I find, to just let your feelings out. Is there any activity that you enjoy that you could do to take your mind of things?

We always tend to look at what we think are our imperfections which, while we think are true, very few other people think are true (if this makes sense ). Besides, no one is ugly, so don't let this myth bother you in any way

Everyones problems are important, so it is not "practically nothing" to other peoples problems. We all care about you You're really nice, I still haven't forgotten how much you helped me a few months back. I hope you feel better soon

Hi

Thank you. I feel like my response isn't 'normal'... it was a distant family member who lived abroad who passed away and I was really young the last time I met them. Because of this distance, it hasn't really affected my family. Like I said in my post, the circumstances were so sad, which is why I think it has affected me more than it should. I don't want to mention the circumstances because I'm paranoid someone will work out who I am, but I can PM if you want to know.

It also got me thinking how I would cope if someone close to me ever dies. I have also cried and felt so depressed about random strangers who have died so I have no clue how I would survive if my immediate family or best friend passed away .

I don't think what I have said makes sense .

I also think no one is ever ugly and if they are it is because of having a mean personality rather than because of physical appearances. The prettiest person can be ugly if they are a mean person inside but someone with good thoughts and kindness is never ugly but they are the most beautiful. I think I am a kind person but lately I have been feeling ugly inside too. Like there must be something wrong with me to feel the way I do... I just feel broken and flawed.

Thank you. I understand how everyone's problems are important but sometimes I feel like a fraud. The amount of times I have actually slapped myself and said 'be happy' is foolish because I know depression isn't just something you can just snap out of but sometimes I just feel stupid because there are so many other people who actually have reasons to make them feel the way they are.

I'm happy to know that I helped you . Also I'm really happy that you've had a good week - I hope it continues next week and the week after that and the week after that... .

Thank you for taking the time to reply to my random long ramble!

[luno]

(Original post by sunfowers01)
Can't stop thinking about "the easy way out"

Has anything triggered this? Please keep yourself safe. Go to A+E if you have to.

Is there anyone in Spain you can talk to? Or possibly Skype people back home? I don't have Skype but feel free to PM me and carry on posting on here. We are all here to help you .

[bytail]

(Original post by sunfowers01)
Can't stop thinking about "the easy way out"

There's nothing 'easy' about it Probably one of the hardest things a person could do. bullettheory told me something that helped a bit - "you wouldn't buy a car or a house if you weren't 100% sure about it, and suicide is a much more permanent decision".

I know these thoughts can be distressing, so try and distract yourself if possible, and go somewhere safe if necessary. Try to stay around other people if it will take your mind off of things

[Anonymous]

Finally decided to get another appointment with the doctor next week.......I've never managed to tell them exactly how bad things are so I always get told to "see how things are in a few months". Well, I've done that again so I think it's time I went back and told the doctor just how bad things are and that I really do need some help.

[Deyesy]

Okay days make me think twice about going back to the GP. There are times where I feel like mentally ill? And there are days where I don't and those days make me think twice. Then again I know it doesn't take much for me to tumble. Kind of torn

[usycool1]

(Original post by luno)
Hi

Thank you. I feel like my response isn't 'normal'... it was a distant family member who lived abroad who passed away and I was really young the last time I met them. Because of this distance, it hasn't really affected my family. Like I said in my post, the circumstances were so sad, which is why I think it has affected me more than it should. I don't want to mention the circumstances because I'm paranoid someone will work out who I am, but I can PM if you want to know.

It also got me thinking how I would cope if someone close to me ever dies. I have also cried and felt so depressed about random strangers who have died so I have no clue how I would survive if my immediate family or best friend passed away .

I don't think what I have said makes sense .

I also think no one is ever ugly and if they are it is because of having a mean personality rather than because of physical appearances. The prettiest person can be ugly if they are a mean person inside but someone with good thoughts and kindness is never ugly but they are the most beautiful. I think I am a kind person but lately I have been feeling ugly inside too. Like there must be something wrong with me to feel the way I do... I just feel broken and flawed.

Thank you. I understand how everyone's problems are important but sometimes I feel like a fraud. The amount of times I have actually slapped myself and said 'be happy' is foolish because I know depression isn't just something you can just snap out of but sometimes I just feel stupid because there are so many other people who actually have reasons to make them feel the way they are.

I'm happy to know that I helped you . Also I'm really happy that you've had a good week - I hope it continues next week and the week after that and the week after that... .

Thank you for taking the time to reply to my random long ramble!

That's not a problem at all And it wasn't random or a ramble

There are no 'normal' responses to these things, so there is absolutely nothing wrong with the way that you are responding to the situation. It's completely understandable to be upset over sad circumstances so there's no need to feel as though you're not being "normal."

I guess it's just important to try to get your mind of that subject. If you think about these things, try having a hot shower/bath to calm yourself down and relax, and also listen to relaxing music. Also do an activity which makes you happy and which you enjoy. Hopefully these things should help you to get your mind of things like this.

Don't worry, it makes perfect sense

You definitely are a kind person. As I said above, there is nothing with you for feeling that way. Again, try to do an activity which makes you happy. I find these activities stop making me feel broken or down when I'm in that situation.

There is nothing fraudulent about you or your problems. I have also tried to tell myself to just "cheer up" or "be happy" but, as you said, it really doesn't work. And don't feel stupid - you also have a reason to feel the way you are feeling.

Thanks again I'll try to stay happy for the next couple of weeks. I'll probably be a bit sad again on A-Level and GCSE results day but we'll see

[Deyesy]

Lets hope my closest real friend doesn't judge me I just opened up to her about everything in a word document that took an hour to type...

[CherryCherryBoomBoom]

(Original post by bullettheory)
You aren't a freak. Loads of people find it difficult to meet the right person and get into relationships. It's something that takes time. You will meet the right person, maybe when you least expect it. Don't change for anyone though, you will meet someone who accepts you for you and those relationships are likely to be the more successful. So keep being you, keep looking, and you will get there

Thanks for replying . I hear this a lot, but I dunno, I still don't feel happy and I sometimes can't stand always being different and strange compared to everyone else. It's irritating, but I suppose there isn't a lot I can really do about it.

[bullettheory]

(Original post by Deyesy)
Lets hope my closest real friend doesn't judge me I just opened up to her about everything in a word document that took an hour to type...

Good luck

(Original post by CherryCherryBoomBoom)
Thanks for replying . I hear this a lot, but I dunno, I still don't feel happy and I sometimes can't stand always being different and strange compared to everyone else. It's irritating, but I suppose there isn't a lot I can really do about it.

Yeah it's going to be difficult to stop worrying about it, especially when you have been worrying about it a lot. I guess just keep doing what you're doing and something will come along.

(Original post by sunfowers01)
Can't stop thinking about "the easy way out"

Here if you want to talk

[rmhumphries]

(Original post by Deyesy)
Okay days make me think twice about going back to the GP. There are times where I feel like mentally ill? And there are days where I don't and those days make me think twice. Then again I know it doesn't take much for me to tumble. Kind of torn

Make notes when you feel ill, take them with you, then even if you go on a day where you feel fine - you can give the notes to the GP and let them decide if you are ill or not.

[The_Lonely_Goatherd]

Sorry I haven't been around much this weekend. General hugs for all!

(Original post by Deyesy)
Okay days make me think twice about going back to the GP. There are times where I feel like mentally ill? And there are days where I don't and those days make me think twice. Then again I know it doesn't take much for me to tumble. Kind of torn

I reckon you should still go. rmhumphries has given good advice

[avhhs]

(Original post by Deyesy)
Lets hope my closest real friend doesn't judge me I just opened up to her about everything in a word document that took an hour to type...

Good luck, hope that goes well

(Original post by The_Lonely_Goatherd)
Sorry I haven't been around much this weekend. General hugs for all!

I hope that was because you were having a good time

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[The_Lonely_Goatherd]

(Original post by avhhs)
I hope that was because you were having a good time

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Yesterday I was resting and today me and my mum went to the Olympic Park to see synchronised swimming