[Sabertooth]

Was trying to nap.

Feel so ****ing down right now, I didn't think my mood could drop much lower than it was, but here I am. Didn't even go to the gym today I felt so ****ing awful. What gets me most is how meaningless it all is, I try to be a nice guy, I'm always trying to help people out, I don't screw people over, I saw a woman drop her watch and ran after her with it, I give my seat to old people, but in the end inside I feel like the ****test possible level of ****. I must've been Hitler or Stalin or someone in a past life. That's the only explanation.

[Sabertooth]

(Original post by thatsthebadger93)
Glad you're actually managing to get some sleep I liked zopiclone but it stopped working for me after about 5 doses

I rotate it with promethazine and hydroxyzine so the effect doesn't wear off so fast.

[superwolf]

(Original post by Sabertooth)
Was trying to nap.

Feel so ****ing down right now, I didn't think my mood could drop much lower than it was, but here I am. Didn't even go to the gym today I felt so ****ing awful. What gets me most is how meaningless it all is, I try to be a nice guy, I'm always trying to help people out, I don't screw people over, I saw a woman drop her watch and ran after her with it, I give my seat to old people, but in the end inside I feel like the ****test possible level of ****. I must've been Hitler or Stalin or someone in a past life. That's the only explanation.

You're awesome. Besides, uncle Joe isn't as bad as he seems...

[kiss_me_now9]

(Original post by Noodlzzz)
Go to bed. Deep breaths and try and rest.

I'll feel the same in the morning

[Sultana]

Don't know if this really needs spoilering but I'm going to just in case.

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I have some scars on my arm that I need a reason for. Its impossible for me to keep them hidden all the time, and I don't want to tell people the real reason. Anyone have any suggestions as to what I can say when people ask about them?

[bananaterracottapie]

how do you become a peoples' person? :/

[thatsthebadger93]

(Original post by kiss_me_now9)
I'll feel the same in the morning

I get where you're coming from but maybe you could make an agreement with yourself that you won't do anything tonight and then in the morning you can see whether you still want to or not? Have you got anything you can distract yourself with in the mean time?

(Original post by Sultana)
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I have some scars on my arm that I need a reason for. Its impossible for me to keep them hidden all the time, and I don't want to tell people the real reason. Anyone have any suggestions as to what I can say when people ask about them?

Kinda depends what they look like but could they be passed off as animal scratches or maybe some kind of drunken accident? When people have accidentely seen my wrists I've said they're from being dragged through wire fencing, not sure whether they believed me or not but they didn't ask much more about them.

[rmhumphries]

(Original post by ParadoxSocks)
Thanks you guys for the nice comments. Feeling better but still resting. I'm still really headachey and food is all making me feel super sick.

Still can't revise for my exams (starting the 20th!) because all I do is sleep and watching mindless tv. Have had to take a break from reviewing personal statements and essays because all I can see is word soup.

Not sure how to see a doctor (doctor in A&E said to visit one asap for blood thinners and more painkillers) but I'm nowhere near the doctor that I'm registered with at the moment so I don't know what to do.

My head is just mush and sleepy at the moment. Not sure if it's the TIA causing it or the depression or both

Where are you currently - stoke? My advice is go to a GP nearby, and register as a temporary resident (say you are only staying until middle of September, even if you might be staying longer, you can register as a temporary resident for up to 3 months and receive normal GP care (in theory, sometimes it gets much more complicated, but we deal with that if it happens) )

Either that, or just go to a GP near you and ask to see a GP due to an urgent situation. You apparently don't need to register for that.

[rmhumphries]

(Original post by Sabertooth)
Was trying to nap, except everytime I close my eyes

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I see myself hanging

. Feel so ****ing down right now, I didn't think my mood could drop much lower than it was, but here I am. Didn't even go to the gym today I felt so ****ing awful. What gets me most is how meaningless it all is, I try to be a nice guy, I'm always trying to help people out, I don't screw people over, I saw a woman drop her watch and ran after her with it, I give my seat to old people, but in the end inside I feel like the ****test possible level of ****. I must've been Hitler or Stalin or someone in a past life. That's the only explanation.

Maybe we have discovered why Wolf wants to sleep with you so much?

You are a good person, believe us and your girlfriend

[bullettheory]

Anxiety through the roof. I feel sick. How can I cope if I am sick? I can't. I don't know what to do. I'm taking masses of anti emetics and diazepam to try and calm down but I can't. I can't be sick, I really can't. I would rather die than be sick. I cant cope with this, I can't cope with anything, but this is something else. Fml


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[warp2125]

(Original post by bullettheory)
Anxiety through the roof. I feel sick. How can I cope if I am sick? I can't. I don't know what to do. I'm taking masses of anti emetics and diazepam to try and calm down but I can't. I can't be sick, I really can't. I would rather die than be sick. I cant cope with this, I can't cope with anything, but this is something else. Fml


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Not sure if this will help but when my anxiety was going off the wall I found the only thing I could do was to curl up in a ball on the floor and close me eyes. Dunno why it just helped, sorry know it sounds stupid. I really feel for you


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[Sultana]

(Original post by thatsthebadger93)
Kinda depends what they look like but could they be passed off as animal scratches or maybe some kind of drunken accident? When people have accidentely seen my wrists I've said they're from being dragged through wire fencing, not sure whether they believed me or not but they didn't ask much more about them.

Thanks, I guess I could say I got them when drunk and now remember nothing about it! I don't really know how to describe them, they are kinda purple/pink/silvery, long uneven ovals. Sometimes they are not too obvious but in certain lights they light up like a beacon. I'm very embarassed about them and everyone asks about them; I think because they aren't obvious self-harm cuts people don't necessarily immediately think I did them.

(Original post by bullettheory)
Anxiety through the roof. I feel sick. How can I cope if I am sick? I can't. I don't know what to do. I'm taking masses of anti emetics and diazepam to try and calm down but I can't. I can't be sick, I really can't. I would rather die than be sick. I cant cope with this, I can't cope with anything, but this is something else. Fml


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Try and stop your thoughts spiraling out of control. Just because you feel sick does not mean you will be sick. I think I remember you saying you've not been sick in years, but you've obviously felt sick in that time. You have felt like this before, and got through it, this will be the same. Hope the diazepam has kicked in by now and you're feeling calmer.

[geetar]

Hello, all. I still feel pretty atrocious, and I'm still spending too much time on the internet - I think I might actually have to request a ban. Also, I saw something very...awful...on a 'shock site' today. I was linked to it; I know I shouldn't have opened it...

I just need to get away from life for a while, but I feel like a lot of things are holding me back (such as being on ADs).

[megfashion]

(Original post by bullettheory)
Anxiety through the roof. I feel sick. How can I cope if I am sick? I can't. I don't know what to do. I'm taking masses of anti emetics and diazepam to try and calm down but I can't. I can't be sick, I really can't. I would rather die than be sick. I cant cope with this, I can't cope with anything, but this is something else. Fml


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i had that feeling when the boyfriend had the crash. lie down, put a fan on, have a flannel near by, and have a bowl at the ready just in case. (if you want you can call it "the shock bowl", but that is optional :P )

i know its hard being sick, but just think that youll feel sooo much better if you are. maybe if you think you will, put a timer on your phone and just look at the seconds. only lasts a lil bit, and it gives you something to focus on (or maybe thats just me that does that :/ )

[kiss_me_now9]

Considering asking BF to come back early. Feel ****ing selfish for doing it, but I can't cope right now

[rmhumphries]

(Original post by Sultana)
Thanks, I guess I could say I got them when drunk and now remember nothing about it! I don't really know how to describe them, they are kinda purple/pink/silvery, long uneven ovals. Sometimes they are not too obvious but in certain lights they light up like a beacon. I'm very embarassed about them and everyone asks about them; I think because they aren't obvious self-harm cuts people don't necessarily immediately think I did them.




Try and stop your thoughts spiraling out of control. Just because you feel sick does not mean you will be sick. I think I remember you saying you've not been sick in years, but you've obviously felt sick in that time. You have felt like this before, and got through it, this will be the same. Hope the diazepam has kicked in by now and you're feeling calmer.

Drunk injuries sound like a good cover plan I have a couple of drunk injuries myself infact, although I remember how I got them - but you always seem to get the weirder injuries when drunk

[SciFiRory]

back home resting after my surgery now, basically just gonna be wiped out for a bit, was under heavy anaesthetics for like 3+ hours! gotta see ENT again in 3 weeks as the put some stuff in my ear to help it heal, after that I should be feeling back to my usual self I hope!

for now feel really weak and a bit dizzy, but safe at home so can just relax here for as long as I need to recover

mood has been okay today, once the anxiety of the surgery was out of the way felt okayish, probably the distraction of a big bandage on my head and dressing on the ear will help with that

[superwolf]

Being around my family's going alright, although slightly anxious all the time that they'll notice something or other up with me, or they'll catch sight of some recent scars which I'm trying to keep hidden (and yes, in fact they were a sort of drunken accident ). Also keep having these vivid dreams of one member or another of my family getting really really angry at me for being ill. Last night it was my sister, and it still upset me even though I know it'd never happen in real life.

(Original post by Sultana)
Thanks, I guess I could say I got them when drunk and now remember nothing about it! I don't really know how to describe them, they are kinda purple/pink/silvery, long uneven ovals. Sometimes they are not too obvious but in certain lights they light up like a beacon. I'm very embarassed about them and everyone asks about them; I think because they aren't obvious self-harm cuts people don't necessarily immediately think I did them.

Just say all you remember is a bunch of bright flashing lights, then you woke up the next morning in a crop circle with those injuries, and no recollection of what happened.

(Original post by SciFiRory)
back home resting after my surgery now, basically just gonna be wiped out for a bit, was under heavy anaesthetics for like 3+ hours! gotta see ENT again in 3 weeks as the put some stuff in my ear to help it heal, after that I should be feeling back to my usual self I hope!

for now feel really weak and a bit dizzy, but safe at home so can just relax here for as long as I need to recover

mood has been okay today, once the anxiety of the surgery was out of the way felt okayish, probably the distraction of a big bandage on my head and dressing on the ear will help with that

Glad it went alright.

[megfashion]

(Original post by kiss_me_now9)
Considering asking BF to come back early. Feel ****ing selfish for doing it, but I can't cope right now

Not selfish at all. You are asking for help, which is a huge step, and he is your boyfriend so should be willing to help you.




Speaking of boyfriends... Im going to talk to the gp tomorrow with him by my side. I cant have cbt until im 18, so thats a month n a week of hell until im legible for it. They might give me something temporary till then. I really hope they do.

I felt happy today, for 30 seconds. Genuine happiness, as if everything was in place. But that faded. N now i feel so empty again.

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[avhhs]

Yet again having problems ****ing sleeping Want to be up at 9.

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