[kahinalouise]

(Original post by HDBrowne)
I'm on medication and all that :/ I don't want to see a shrink (Can't spell any of the actual occupations)

I want someone who isn't paid to care to talk to about it :/ I want a friend to talk to about it but I seriously struggle socially.

I get that, if you want to talk to someone, just ask if anyone is free for you to pm or you could just post on here.
Are you going back to uni in September.

[d123]

It's strange how sometimes people seem to become much better friends within hours of you deciding you're going to start distancing yourself from them.

Edit to add - Also strange when you realise that they aren't as strong/mentally stable as you thought they were.

[Webberino]

Word of advice, don't leave meds behind and assume it will be fine, it's only 3 days, it does not end well.

Also hope everyone's not too bad

[HDBrowne]

(Original post by kahinalouise)
I get that, if you want to talk to someone, just ask if anyone is free for you to pm or you could just post on here.
Are you going back to uni in September.

It's my 1st year this September.

[thatsthebadger93]

Ok, so my mood is definitly getting worse. Certain behaviors are escalating again and I know I should phone cmht but my care co-ordinator's changed and I don't even know their name and I don't think I can tell someone who I've not spoken to before how I actually feel.
Can't face the idea of going into work tomorrow but I know I have to go else my boss will be really stuck but I'm really worried she's going to expect me to treat the horses like she does and I just can't do it. Maybe I just shouldn't work with horses but tbh I'd generally rather spend time with animals than people just so long as I'm not expected to beat them.

[superwolf]

(Original post by thatsthebadger93)
Ok, so my mood is definitly getting worse. Certain behaviors are escalating again and I know I should phone cmht but my care co-ordinator's changed and I don't even know their name and I don't think I can tell someone who I've not spoken to before how I actually feel.
Can't face the idea of going into work tomorrow but I know I have to go else my boss will be really stuck but I'm really worried she's going to expect me to treat the horses like she does and I just can't do it. Maybe I just shouldn't work with horses but tbh I'd generally rather spend time with animals than people just so long as I'm not expected to beat them.

How about if you arranged to meet up with someone from your CMHT and wrote down your worries beforehand, so you could just hand the note over rather than actually speak to someone about it?

What do you mean by beating? Giving horses a tap with a stick is just part of the commands they're trained to obey, and isn't really meant to be painful, but if you're talking about full on beating them so that it properly hurts the animal then I'd say you really ought to report her.

[ilovefashion90]

do you guys ever feel like you want to take drugs? I want anything to change my state of mind. I have been restless all day, cant concentrate on anything at all and have been taking deep breaths and feeling shakey for hours. I feel so crazy and I really cant take this.

[thatsthebadger93]

(Original post by superwolf)
How about if you arranged to meet up with someone from your CMHT and wrote down your worries beforehand, so you could just hand the note over rather than actually speak to someone about it?

What do you mean by beating? Giving horses a tap with a stick is just part of the commands they're trained to obey, and isn't really meant to be painful, but if you're talking about full on beating them so that it properly hurts the animal then I'd say you really ought to report her.

hmm I might try the note thing, though last time I'd tried to see anyone at cmht there wasn't a time that they could do that worked for me

Well it's only been on a couple of occasions but the horse was kicked full force in the belly and on the knees and had a head collar smacked in their face repeatedly It hasn't done any lasting damage to the horse and tbh in the horse world a lot of people do worse and don't get prosecuted. So I don't know what to do

[superwolf]

(Original post by thatsthebadger93)
hmm I might try the note thing, though last time I'd tried to see anyone at cmht there wasn't a time that they could do that worked for me

Well it's only been on a couple of occasions but the horse was kicked full force in the belly and on the knees and had a head collar smacked in their face repeatedly It hasn't done any lasting damage to the horse and tbh in the horse world a lot of people do worse and don't get prosecuted. So I don't know what to do

You could also make an appointment with your GP, and get them to communicate with the CMHT for you.

That doesn't sound good. I'd ring up an animal charity - maybe one specialising in horses - and see what they think of the situation.

[megfashion]

(Original post by ilovefashion90)
do you guys ever feel like you want to take drugs? I want anything to change my state of mind. I have been restless all day, cant concentrate on anything at all and have been taking deep breaths and feeling shakey for hours. I feel so crazy and I really cant take this.

What kind? I know the feeling... But more wanting to smoke n take alcohol... Lsd hasnt crossed my mind yet :P






i feel so empty. The boyfriend just doesnt understand. I feel so flat and dull and as if nothing can break this. He cant understand how much effort this is.
I cant have cbt till im 18, thats just over a month away. People say 'oh thats not long', n i just want to scream at them. It may not be long to them but every single day it is so so hard to do anything. Last monday seems like a month ago. The crash seems like 2 months ago, it was only jst over a week ago.
Im scared to contact the gp tomorrow. They do over the phone appointments now. No one there next to me to say things ive forgotten. I bet they wont even do anything and ill end up just falling deeper into this f-ing abyss that im in.


This was posted from The Student Room's Android App on my GT-I9001

[bytail]

mum, crying:
“i love you lots and you just seem to hate me”

i can't ****ing do this any more

[d123]

It's odd when you have a conversation with someone where your usual roles are almost completely reversed. Not to quite the same extremes, but still. It's an odd feeling.

[avhhs]

(Original post by bytail)
mum, crying:
“i love you lots and you just seem to hate me”

i can't ****ing do this any more

[avhhs]

Today was a very good day. Had a lot of fun. The only crap thing is that my feet hurt. I think I need to get rid of these shoes, got a blister on each toe now

[kahinalouise]

(Original post by HDBrowne)
It's my 1st year this September.

Thats good though, its a new start, I know you said you weren't a very social person but I think you will be able to make friends, it will take time plus there is usually lots for you to get involved in and being around people makes you more confident socially.
I'm hopefully applying for next year and really anxious about the social side of things but anyway, I hope things look up for you in September.

[kahinalouise]

(Original post by bytail)
mum, crying:
“i love you lots and you just seem to hate me”

i can't ****ing do this any more

parents are difficult to deal with, my mums like that too , I find it difficult to talk to her so I write her little notes or make her a hot drink or something.

[LostHorizons]

(Original post by d123)
It's strange how sometimes people seem to become much better friends within hours of you deciding you're going to start distancing yourself from them.

Edit to add - Also strange when you realise that they aren't as strong/mentally stable as you thought they were.

I'm around if you need someone to talk to

[superwolf]

(Original post by megfashion)
i feel so empty. The boyfriend just doesnt understand. I feel so flat and dull and as if nothing can break this. He cant understand how much effort this is.
I cant have cbt till im 18, thats just over a month away. People say 'oh thats not long', n i just want to scream at them. It may not be long to them but every single day it is so so hard to do anything. Last monday seems like a month ago. The crash seems like 2 months ago, it was only jst over a week ago.
Im scared to contact the gp tomorrow. They do over the phone appointments now. No one there next to me to say things ive forgotten. I bet they wont even do anything and ill end up just falling deeper into this f-ing abyss that im in.


This was posted from The Student Room's Android App on my GT-I9001

Have you heard of moodgym? It's a free online CBT program - you might find it helpful to try that out while you're waiting to turn 18. You might learn some useful skills from it, and feel less like you're just waiting for stuff to happen.

Make bullet points of what you need to say before phoning?

(Original post by bytail)
mum, crying:
“i love you lots and you just seem to hate me”

i can't ****ing do this any more

[d123]

(Original post by LostHorizons)
I'm around if you need someone to talk to

Thanks - it's okay though. A little bit worried about my friend but he seems to be alright, just having an off day.

[Deyesy]

Right. **** it. I'm going back to the GP tomorrow.

It's just the waking up at 8am that maybe a problem but I'll force myself up to make the phonecall to make an appointment.