[laut_biru]

(Original post by Violet_apple)
They were totally useless and weren't offering me anything. They said I was 'overly dependant' on services and so stopped giving me appointments unless I was toeing the 'need to be hospitalised' line. I don't understand how I could be 'overly dependant' when not having any support. Really I need ongoing therapy or something to help me cope with life. They just treated me like a clingy and attention-seeking child and took great pleasure in telling me the only reason I was allowed to access services was because my GP liked me and really I wasn't sick enough. *shrug* Basically I think they are just cheap. the social worker there was really unprofessional and just told me to pull myself together, so I stopped going...

I see.

You should probably contact the Patient advocacy and laison service (PALS) and make a complaint about having been treated that way.

[SciFiRory]

(Original post by luno)
What you've said reminds me of a quote: ... 'we humans are not a part of (the beautiful world).
Look at us. We're all born lost, aren't we? We're all born separated from God - over and over life makes sure to inform us of this - and yet we're all real: we have names, we have lives. We mean something. We must. My heart is so cold. And I feel so lost. I shed my block of hate but what if nothing emerges to fill in the hole it left? The universe is so large, and the world is so glorious, but here I am on a sunny August morning with chilled black ink pumping through my veins, and I feel like the unholiest thing on earth.'

A long quote... I was going to spoiler it but I can't find the bracket things on my phone . I'm not sure if that makes sense with what you are saying but it always gets me

kinda, im not really religious though so I put it down to alienation more than god personally, but yeah it sounds similar I hope you are okay

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just had the weirdest dream ever made no sense to me, first I went to some party for people from my sisters old school (wtf?) where I was talking to people and all kinds of random/crazy games were being played :/, then I went to some kind of country/western bar (serious wtf for this, but that's the only thing I can call it), at this bar I met so many people I know from Uni and the internet, then some girl asked me to dance and then it got even weirder cause I suddenly was seeing the dream but wasn't from first person perspective anymore but like watching a tv show so I couldn't see who the girl was, then I woke up

seriously weirded out by it, when I woke up was super disoriented as well, almost fell over going to the bathroom.

idk, my mind is just a crazy ass mess I guess.

[Meaty_man]

(Original post by SciFiBoy)
kinda, im not really religious though so I put it down to alienation more than god personally, but yeah it sounds similar I hope you are okay

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just had the weirdest dream ever made no sense to me, first I went to some party for people from my sisters old school (wtf?) where I was talking to people and all kinds of random/crazy games were being played :/, then I went to some kind of country/western bar (serious wtf for this, but that's the only thing I can call it), at this bar I met so many people I know from Uni and the internet, then some girl asked me to dance and then it got even weirder cause I suddenly was seeing the dream but wasn't from first person perspective anymore but like watching a tv show so I couldn't see who the girl was, then I woke up

seriously weirded out by it, when I woke up was super disoriented as well, almost fell over going to the bathroom.

idk, my mind is just a crazy ass mess I guess.

A standard example of one of the dreams i've had: I was talking to a bunch of people from primary school, then we jumped into an old looking train and went through a tunnel. When we came out the other side, **** all changed, everyone was suddenly on airplanes and flying around. Next thing i know i turn into a camel, fall down, and end up rolling off a cliff. I hit the floor in my dream and got up.

This was the weirdest thing though...i woke up right after that and i was on the side of my bed and fell off right away I've also had a lot of sleep paralysis and other very uncomfortable dreams, bleh.

Guess my mind is pretty ****ed too eh? xD

[SciFiRory]

(Original post by Meaty_man)
A standard example of one of the dreams i've had: I was talking to a bunch of people from primary school, then we jumped into an old looking train and went through a tunnel. When we came out the other side, **** all changed, everyone was suddenly on airplanes and flying around. Next thing i know i turn into a camel, fall down, and end up rolling off a cliff. I hit the floor in my dream and got up.

This was the weirdest thing though...i woke up right after that and i was on the side of my bed and fell off right away I've also had a lot of sleep paralysis and other very uncomfortable dreams, bleh.

Guess my mind is pretty ****ed too eh? xD

ah, that sounds pretty crazy too yeah lol!

a lot of my dreams will have people and places I know in them, but they don't match if that makes sense, like people I know from Uni will be at my dad's old house or people I knew at school will be at Uni or some place else I have been :/ though last nights dream I didn't recognise the places for once, nor did I know all the people either :/ idk, this probably means something lol but I have no idea what

[Nut.]

ECG was a bit weird... "fast beats" or something at irregular intervals.

Got to discuss with GP and they might want to refer me to a specialist apparently.

[Cinnie]

This is ridiculous. Can someone tell me whether 5ft7 is 170cm or 173cm .... different sources are telling me differently. WhyYYyY???

[Cinnie]

nvm

[superwolf]

(Original post by SciFiBoy)
just had the weirdest dream ever made no sense to me, first I went to some party for people from my sisters old school (wtf?) where I was talking to people and all kinds of random/crazy games were being played :/, then I went to some kind of country/western bar (serious wtf for this, but that's the only thing I can call it), at this bar I met so many people I know from Uni and the internet, then some girl asked me to dance and then it got even weirder cause I suddenly was seeing the dream but wasn't from first person perspective anymore but like watching a tv show so I couldn't see who the girl was, then I woke up

seriously weirded out by it, when I woke up was super disoriented as well, almost fell over going to the bathroom.

idk, my mind is just a crazy ass mess I guess.

Last night's dream (although I can't claim all the credit - reboxetine's been seriously screwing with my dreams right from the start): someone dropped a nuclear bomb on the US, causing panic in Britain and tons of people fleeing from the cities. I tried to get away by following a massive straight road for hours, with a random group of people which included you for some reason, also my sister. We reached the end of the road eventually and found either a mass grave or a refugee camp. Somebody decided to write political graffiti on the walls, which we got in trouble for. We headed back along the massive road, and I had to keep writing on the ground in Spanish. Back in the city we all got separated and me and some other guy from depsoc were trying to ring you to find out where you were, only you kept answering in riddles about pop music.
Then some important building in London got bombed too, and all the lights went out. I ended up wandering along some street looking for shops that were still open and going in but not buying anything. I found a sex shop but it appeared to be shut. Then my mum appeared and gave me a piggyback to the botanical gardens, where I sat and drank pear-flavoured tea and complained about the schoolkids being too noisy and having to pay to get into the zoo. After that my mum turned into Lt Columbo and we went off to secretly interview a butler who disguised himself as a builder about some giant rabbits.

Lots of other stuff happened too, but I missed out the bits that were more unclear.

[headunderwater]

I hate filling in these bloody questionnaires. "Please tell us a bit about your background", what am I supposed to write? The questions are so broad.

[laut_biru]

(Original post by Nut.)
ECG was a bit weird... "fast beats" or something at irregular intervals.

Got to discuss with GP and they might want to refer me to a specialist apparently.

When are you going to see the GP? I hope it's all ok.

[Nut.]

(Original post by laut_biru)


When are you going to see the GP? I hope it's all ok.

Well, the appointment that I currently have is in a months time, but I could easily see her before that...
Think I might try and see her in a couple of weeks just so I know what's actually going on. The duty doctor who briefly checked over it said it can be a 'normal' thing to have, or it could be a problem, but I think I'd rather know sooner.

Hopefully it'll be fine. And if it isn't hopefully it's the quetiapine causing it, so at least I can come off that and the problem will be resolved. Of course, that brings with it the problem of needing another med, but I'm getting way ahead of myself here.

Just gotta see GP first.

[Nut.]

(Original post by superwolf)
Last night's dream (although I can't claim all the credit - reboxetine's been seriously screwing with my dreams right from the start): someone dropped a nuclear bomb on the US, causing panic in Britain and tons of people fleeing from the cities. I tried to get away by following a massive straight road for hours, with a random group of people which included you for some reason, also my sister. We reached the end of the road eventually and found either a mass grave or a refugee camp. Somebody decided to write political graffiti on the walls, which we got in trouble for. We headed back along the massive road, and I had to keep writing on the ground in Spanish. Back in the city we all got separated and me and some other guy from depsoc were trying to ring you to find out where you were, only you kept answering in riddles about pop music.
Then some important building in London got bombed too, and all the lights went out. I ended up wandering along some street looking for shops that were still open and going in but not buying anything. I found a sex shop but it appeared to be shut. Then my mum appeared and gave me a piggyback to the botanical gardens, where I sat and drank pear-flavoured tea and complained about the schoolkids being too noisy and having to pay to get into the zoo. After that my mum turned into Lt Columbo and we went off to secretly interview a butler who disguised himself as a builder about some giant rabbits.

Lots of other stuff happened too, but I missed out the bits that were more unclear.

I love dreaming

[SciFiRory]

(Original post by superwolf)
Last night's dream (although I can't claim all the credit - reboxetine's been seriously screwing with my dreams right from the start): someone dropped a nuclear bomb on the US, causing panic in Britain and tons of people fleeing from the cities. I tried to get away by following a massive straight road for hours, with a random group of people which included you for some reason, also my sister. We reached the end of the road eventually and found either a mass grave or a refugee camp. Somebody decided to write political graffiti on the walls, which we got in trouble for. We headed back along the massive road, and I had to keep writing on the ground in Spanish. Back in the city we all got separated and me and some other guy from depsoc were trying to ring you to find out where you were, only you kept answering in riddles about pop music.
Then some important building in London got bombed too, and all the lights went out. I ended up wandering along some street looking for shops that were still open and going in but not buying anything. I found a sex shop but it appeared to be shut. Then my mum appeared and gave me a piggyback to the botanical gardens, where I sat and drank pear-flavoured tea and complained about the schoolkids being too noisy and having to pay to get into the zoo. After that my mum turned into Lt Columbo and we went off to secretly interview a butler who disguised himself as a builder about some giant rabbits.

Lots of other stuff happened too, but I missed out the bits that were more unclear.

sounds like one awesome dream especially if I was in it

[Webberino]

(Original post by Nut.)
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(Original post by avhhs)
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Hi my fellow Ronnie admirers, what do you think?

[avhhs]

(Original post by Webberino)
Hi my fellow Ronnie admirers, what do you think?

Lol . Looks really good. What did you make it on?

[SciFiRory]

(Original post by Webberino)
Hi my fellow Ronnie admirers, what do you think?

that is pretty cool you made it yourself?

[Nut.]

(Original post by Webberino)
Hi my fellow Ronnie admirers, what do you think?

Haha awesome!

[Webberino]

(Original post by avhhs)
Lol . Looks really good. What did you make it on?

(Original post by SciFiBoy)
that is pretty cool you made it yourself?

(Original post by Nut.)
Haha awesome!

Thanks
Made it on a t-shirt

[avhhs]

Can't believe what's happened to me . Really not feeling good. My dad keeps telling me to go outside and do something . Why can't he shut up?

And then I can't stop thinking about how much fun I had last year . Why can't I make myself feel happy? Why does no one help me? My appointment is on 29 May. I have one exam that day and then the last one the next day. I'm sure I'm going to get hospitalised . A far cry from the amazing time of last year. I sort of feel that I have to make this year go by really well too. If I don't I will have failed

for everyone else

[sunfowers01]

I´m shattered and my neck is really sore. Not sure if it´s stress related.