Where's she off too? And do you think you'll be alright on your own?
Do you mind sending me that PM about how you think I've been acting weird today? GP appointment's not til tomorrow, but I keep getting kind of worked up about how everyone seems to be worried about me even when I haven't said anything to them, and I still don't seem to have any insight into what might be wrong with me. So I'd really appreciate anything you could say to me. Also, do you know if laut would still rather not speak to me?
Everyone: sorry if I've been making you worry about me, it's all been unintentional. Been trying not to post too much because of this, but that's pretty hard since you guys are my friends and I want to talk to you. I've got a friend staying with me now who's going to keep an eye on me, and a doctor's appointment on Tuesday, so I am getting help from people. Still not got a clue what's wrong with me, so I'm afraid you guys don't know any less than me.
There are a lot of people/posts I've been wanting to reply to (got them all stacked up as usual), but I haven't wanted to because I know I've been acting strange and upsetting people so I don't want to do that more, especially with people I know are vulnerable like me. Really do want to talk to you guys and answer your posts, but I don't know how long til I should really start doing that again, and I think I should especially stay away from posts where you're talking about serious issues.
It's absolutely killing me to write this, and I don't know if I'm just going to end up upsetting people again (started off just wanting to reassure you about me
), so please just ignore me if I do.