Try being an Aston villa fan!
I get the same feeling yet I'm still there every home game and as many away games as possible despite losing my faith in their ability to win games. I think it's the tingling sensation that shoots through my Spine when the players first come out the tunnel and when we all the fans begin to sing. Knowing that everyone around despite all of their differences come together for that common cause.
It's magical, despite knowing that all of our efforts are pointless because well the outcome no matter how loud we sing and no matter how hard we try to believe, we all know that a loss or draw is the most likely outcome.
Last edited by amime; 16-05-2012 at 07:15.
I was in a similar position about a year ago.
(Original post by celticgirl)
Is there any Christian or non-Christian who can identify with this?
I go to church every Sunday, but I have lost my faith in God. Or rather, my faith has become so vague that I'm not sure I can rationally call myself Catholic. Still I am powerfully drawn to go to mass and take part. The Catholic religion and the church feels like a very special place to me. However in conversation I find myself constantly drawn to slight its faults.
It disturbs me that this seems hypocritical, and disturbs me even more that I don't seem to care. Am I alone in this?
I'd been in the church for my whole life, and it was very much a part of me. I had always called myself a Christian because that was how I was brought up, and through most of my time at secondary school I had firmly defended myself/taken in good humour the 'banter' that I got off mates about my religion.
Depsite always calling myself a Christian, I'd been very unsure about it for my whole life, but the Church was like a second home to me, and I'd made some good friends through it.
Religion was sometimes a comfort to me, but I found that on thinking about it, the times in my life when I was most depressed was when I was really deeply 'in the church'. It sort of felt like I could never, ever be the ideal that the church expected of me, and I realised after not long that I was making myself incredibly unhappy by pretending to be something I wasn't.
I was quite lucky in that my Dad is not religious, although my Mum is, so the family has never been one that looks down on non-religious people. I decided I was agnostic, and my Mum found out only when I came to fill in the census and had to admit to being of 'no religion'. Very awkward for a while, but so worth getting it out in the open!
I think that for me, growing up in a Church has only been a good thing. It's made me strong enough to stand up for what I believe in, and has also given me a strong set of morals which I'm not sure would be quite the same otherwise. Whenever I go in a Church now, especially 'my' Church, I still feel very much comfortable and as if I am somewhere familiar.
But religion isn't for everyone. If you find yourself questioning it, then I really, honestly believe that the worst thing for you to do is pretend to still believe. It will only make you increasingly unhappy.
Remember that deciding for now that you don't know what you believe (or even saying 'I don't believe at all') isn't an irrevocable decision. You can always change your mind months/years down the line. Whether or not you do is irrelevant. You need to do what's best for you, not what's easiest, because those are two very different things.
You're definitely not alone. You just need to have the strength of character to be able to make your own decision and defend it.
Good luck x
Last edited by sammy-lou; 18-05-2012 at 00:11.