(Original post by Niki_girl)
It's a lot of pressure. Don't beat yourself up, especially now, when you can't change anything, and can't actually do anything until Result's Day. I know it's horrible, I need AAA for my firm too, my whole family is the opposite to your family, and it's just as bad, despite having a terrible exam season (illness, stress, just sheer panic really!) they think I've already got in
. They've even started to look up routes to "come and see" me at my potential university, and they laugh when I tell them about how badly some of my exams went, and I mean, I couldn't even think during some of my exams, I could hardly write because I was shaking so badly!
The panic attacks and mood swings are normal considering the situation
I go from "I haven't made it and I not thinking about it" to "oh, I've let my school down, my family down, and myself down, I'm going to sulk by myself for an hour or two". It's not good, but it is understandable at the moment, I think. Clearly, people aiming for top universities will set a lot by these results, and by the look of it you've worked really hard (and they WILL consider such extreme circumstances in your case) and so there's really not much else to do, at least you know that you couldn't have done any more!
Remember every year cases of people missing their offers are looked at individually, and if the worst comes to the worst, maybe you'll be able to phone up on the day if you're just a couple of UMS off a grade - but it probably won't even come to that!
Everyone has fluke exams. That doesn't mean it'll happen again, seeing as you re-took the module, it probably went better than last time, you already know the material this time around.
I've no idea why UCL even considered me good enough to interview, let alone good enough to offer a place to. I feel like it's all been a massive fluke.
I've been having similar feelings about my firm
, now that I think I've missed the offer a tiny part of me wishes I'd never got it, and so wouldn't be so upset! But you can't
let this get to you now, cross bridges as you come to them, you may find in 12 days time that this worrying was baseless! Have faith in UCL as a university - they wouldn't give you an offer if they didn't think you could make it - that's what the interviews are for. Above all, have faith in YOURSELF, you made your UCAS application, you got your GCSEs, wrote your Personal statement, got your AS results - it's quite possible that you've actually made your offer too! They must have liked your interview a lot for it to be a "fluke".
Don't worry for ranting, we've all done it on here at some point, especially as far as A2 results are concerned!
I think everyone's family are a bit "useless" in this scenario tbh, they can't stop us from worrying until we have our results in hand! Same with friends, they can't help but be stressed too, even if you feel like you have the right to be that little bit *more* stressed than them, wanting nothing less than 3As (I know that feeling too!) when you feel like everyone is watching.
Above all though, don't regret your dreams - who knows - in 2 weeks time you might be laughing about all this anxiety! Your application was clearly not a mistake - you've come so far!