[Anonymous]

I'm sorry for making this thread, this isn't for some attention or for somebody to mop it all up and tell me that it will all be fine.

But my life, is a real mess and I feel like I can't continue. There is no light at the end of the tunnel and I just want to breakdown and give in or just end it completely.

All my life I've been counted on for my academic excellence and I have seen no alternative after finishing my A-levels other than getting into university. Coupled with this is the fact that I have no friends. I did, but I fell in love with a girl for four years and spent four years in her pockets as she was in mine. We broke up, the other day we had a day out (which we booked before we had broken up and cost a lot of money) and we ended up going back to hers and sleeping together after she poured her heart out to me and made advances on me telling me how she missed me and how she loved me still etc.

I can't keep up with my revision, I need AAB at the very least and quite frankly it's not going to happen, I'm incapable of achieving it. Due to my procrastination (I accept this is my fault) and the fact Student finance appear not to be able to connect two dots and get into gear my application is going to be late sso that if I do end up going to uni I'm going to be lacking money or something.

Fast-forward to today, I'm slowly revising but my ex now tells me she didn't know what she was feeling and just wants to remain friends after everything that happened the other day, especially as I just got over her.


I'm heartbroken, I don't know what to do and now I have the realism of the fact that I can't make it to uni, I don't have enough time to revise for my exams and the fact that once again my heart is broken, just as I slipped sout of the love trap she dragged me back in and honestly fooled me into believing she wanted to have sex and wanted to somehow work something out together.

There is no light, I have been used, abused and my heart is broken. I am not getting into uni and even fi I do I have no friends and my money won't be going through so I will not get any when I get there.

What is the point? I should just give in, peope like me aren't cut out for world's like this.

What do I do?

[mld]

(Original post by Anonymous)
I'm sorry for making this thread, this isn't for some attention or for somebody to mop it all up and tell me that it will all be fine.

But my life, is a real mess and I feel like I can't continue. There is no light at the end of the tunnel and I just want to breakdown and give in or just end it completely.

All my life I've been counted on for my academic excellence and I have seen no alternative after finishing my A-levels other than getting into university. Coupled with this is the fact that I have no friends. I did, but I fell in love with a girl for four years and spent four years in her pockets as she was in mine. We broke up, the other day we had a day out (which we booked before we had broken up and cost a lot of money) and we ended up going back to hers and sleeping together after she poured her heart out to me and made advances on me telling me how she missed me and how she loved me still etc.

I can't keep up with my revision, I need AAB at the very least and quite frankly it's not going to happen, I'm incapable of achieving it. Due to my procrastination (I accept this is my fault) and the fact Student finance appear not to be able to connect two dots and get into gear my application is going to be late sso that if I do end up going to uni I'm going to be lacking money or something.

Fast-forward to today, I'm slowly revising but my ex now tells me she didn't know what she was feeling and just wants to remain friends after everything that happened the other day, especially as I just got over her.


I'm heartbroken, I don't know what to do and now I have the realism of the fact that I can't make it to uni, I don't have enough time to revise for my exams and the fact that once again my heart is broken, just as I slipped sout of the love trap she dragged me back in and honestly fooled me into believing she wanted to have sex and wanted to somehow work something out together.

There is no light, I have been used, abused and my heart is broken. I am not getting into uni and even fi I do I have no friends and my money won't be going through so I will not get any when I get there.

What is the point? I should just give in, peope like me aren't cut out for world's like this.

What do I do?

Yes, I have been depressed before with no light at the end of the tunnel. Just do your best for the moment, live every moment as if it is now (I can't explain it very well, but don't look to the future) do some revision, go out for a walk, and do some more revision. If it stays this bad chat it through with some one confidential eg a doctor, who can't pass it on to parents etc. If all else fails you can get a job next year and retake exams etc. I've waited four years to do mt A Level in maths and now I'm doing it, along with a uni maths course at the same time (Long story...)
There's more than one way to live a life and you may just find a better way than the way you had planned. (((Hugs)))

[buildalegohouse]

I'm so sorry for everything, I'm sure that the last thing you feel like doing is revising when you have lost hope and all that. In my opinion, I really do think you need to talk to your ex about how you feel, and that you need to fully move on. If you're constantly thinking of her, how will you be able to put exams as your top priority? You really should consider whether staying friends with her is the best option because those feelings you have won't disappear overnight. Relationships end, and when you're young, it hurts the most. I know its a struggle to get up in the mornings, to eat, or even to go out of the house, but you must tell yourself that you HAVE to. Life is what you make of it and all that. Don't let your heartbreak destroy you as a person. Overcome it.

As for the student finance, applications are still open and you might be able to get everything sorted, as long as you do it now, rather than later. You might have to spend hours on the phone getting through to the damn place, but I promise, they'll sort you out for Uni. There are plenty of people in your situation who haven't even considered applying for Student Finance yet.

Judging by your post, you sound similiar to me, in that I rely totally on my A Levels. I don't particularly have any other qualities; I've never worked, I have poor people skills...And for me this year, I have no other option BUT to pass my exams and get myself to Uni. I can't even envisage me having a job. There are even times when I might not meet someone and settle down one day, and that i'll be alone for the rest of my days with the exception of six cats or so. (!) Trust me, you are not alone. There are other people who are feeling like you do. Of course, some days are better than others, when I can work and feel really motivated to ace my exams and be the first person in my family to make it to Uni. The bad days are me staring at a wall all day, revision sat on the table, telling myself that I'm going to fail, that I'll end up homeless etc.

I know its hard to forget everything you've gone through, but you need to ask yourself whether dwelling on the situation is more worthwhile than working for yourself, and putting yourself forward, and proving to everyone, including her that you're not going to be pushed down.

[grinder]

(Original post by Anonymous)
I'm sorry for making this thread, this isn't for some attention or for somebody to mop it all up and tell me that it will all be fine.

But my life, is a real mess and I feel like I can't continue. There is no light at the end of the tunnel and I just want to breakdown and give in or just end it completely.

All my life I've been counted on for my academic excellence and I have seen no alternative after finishing my A-levels other than getting into university. Coupled with this is the fact that I have no friends. I did, but I fell in love with a girl for four years and spent four years in her pockets as she was in mine. We broke up, the other day we had a day out (which we booked before we had broken up and cost a lot of money) and we ended up going back to hers and sleeping together after she poured her heart out to me and made advances on me telling me how she missed me and how she loved me still etc.

I can't keep up with my revision, I need AAB at the very least and quite frankly it's not going to happen, I'm incapable of achieving it. Due to my procrastination (I accept this is my fault) and the fact Student finance appear not to be able to connect two dots and get into gear my application is going to be late sso that if I do end up going to uni I'm going to be lacking money or something.

Fast-forward to today, I'm slowly revising but my ex now tells me she didn't know what she was feeling and just wants to remain friends after everything that happened the other day, especially as I just got over her.


I'm heartbroken, I don't know what to do and now I have the realism of the fact that I can't make it to uni, I don't have enough time to revise for my exams and the fact that once again my heart is broken, just as I slipped sout of the love trap she dragged me back in and honestly fooled me into believing she wanted to have sex and wanted to somehow work something out together.

There is no light, I have been used, abused and my heart is broken. I am not getting into uni and even fi I do I have no friends and my money won't be going through so I will not get any when I get there.

What is the point? I should just give in, peope like me aren't cut out for world's like this.

What do I do?

one thing: tell your ex she should **** herself and that she shouldnt talk to you or call you again. Delete her messages, emails etc. Afterwards you take her **** that might be left in your house, piss on it and burn it in the garden.